This is a collection of poetry that showcases the emotions that are felt during active drug addiction. These poems were largely written over the course of 15 years, 12 of which I spent incarcerated. In this book you will experience the range of emotions and feelings that I felt as I struggled with addiction and mental health issues. Even though most of these feelings and emotions were anything but logical they were frighteningly real and insanely intense. From the most grandiose of highs to the agonizingly cumbersome lows. Anger, Pity, Hubris, Hate and downright agony... These poems will give you a vivid glimpse into my mind as it was in active addiction. I hope this collection will allow people to see that they aren't as alone as they may feel. There is Hope... My next collection will focus on that. I hope that you can't identify with these writings but I know some of you will. If you are feeling any of these feelings just know that there is a future. A decade after writing these poems I'm still learning how to live a healthy life but I thank whatever Gods there may be that I don't have to feel these feelings as intensely today... Welcome to the madness that used to be my life.