It’s so easy to long for green grass. It’s tempting to wander the earth in search of the greenest pasture, a pasture greener & flusher than any you have ever known. More tempting still does this desirous pasture become when you think of the possibility of it being all for you. A lush field of greenery that would render a clover to shy away from the luck which certainly befell every blade of grass.
Little Chandler is thirty-two (32), & he works a job that sustains both himself, his wife & their growing child. He lives in a city that is wrought with history, activity & lore. He wanders streets & alleyways which evoke pensive prose in his mind; he is gifted with the hope for every next day, to be a better day. Yet, he is not Ignatius Gallaher & for that he is remorseful. I suppose we might easily read about Little Chandler’s envy towards his friend with distaste. However, that would not be honest.
Who among us has not been tempted by a singular thought which has wiggled itself into our absentmindedness; a little worm which renders us to pause & wonder if we really did make the most out of everything? Did we choose the right profession, have we loved the ideal partner, have we resided in the most beautiful city? Perhaps yes, perhaps no, ultimately it doesn’t matter because we would ask ourselves the same things if we had chosen otherwise.
Joyce is absurdly talented in his ability to write about a sentiment that has most probably affected all of us at one time. I suppose it depends on where you are in your own life & your own sentimentally towards your decisions but, when the story nears its end & we read about the fear which cradles Little Chandler in its hands as he reads poems that had previously offered him comfort; as we watch a panic instil itself into the place where security & love lay for his family, I felt very sad.
Then, I realized how unreliable our narrator was. Perhaps his wife doesn’t hold love for him in her eyes. Or, perhaps she does & her cooing their son back to sleep was simply a scene meant to reflect the insurmountable insecurity Little Chandler feels about the changes happening in his life. Perhaps Dublin is the dullest place in the world. Or, perhaps Ignatius was overzealous in his descriptions because he so longed to feel valid in the esteem of his Irish friends. In the end, all of these things can be true, it comes down to what the story meant to you.