Warning-this will be a long review and there are spoilers
For anyone who's been following me, you'll know I have read this series out of order. I finally got book 1 and I dove right in. This series has stuck with me long after each book is finished. I've even re-read the third one before netgalley steals it back from my Nook :) BUT it is a much darker PNR series than most out there.
First off, I'd like to say that this is a hard book to rate (and I know I'm not the only one who had trouble rating it). The writing and world building are definitely five-worthy. However I'm giving it a four.
The book opens with the hero, Jaxon, getting a bead on Libby, the heroine, through his sniper rifle. But when it comes time to pull the trigger, he can't. See, Libby was his lover, and the day she left him, his Paranormal Terrorist Unit (PATU) was attacked, and one of his men (a cousin) was killed. Everyone on the team blames Libby. I never quite got the why of that. Yes it was coincidental, but it seemed that was all.Yet his team Ana, Declan, and Jaxon, all just knew it was Libby. So instead of looking for her, he assumed she left him, and then was working with the bad guys to break up his team. What really happened is that Libby was pregnant, and left Jaxon because he had shown no signs of commitment. But about an hour after Jax left their apartment, she was kidnapped. Then tortured. Yet she never gave up the info. Until her torturer aimed a crowbar at her belly. Once her baby was threatened, Libby told him everything. So yes, she was responsible for Diego's death, but I still don't buy Jaxon's incredible rage and hatred of her.
Then he spots her working at a diner. She is obviously favoring her left ribs, she is incredibly thin. Like anorexic thin. Jaxon can't rectify the image in his head of his Libby versus the thin, timid, frightened woman he sees at the diner. So, he goes into the diner. One thing I really liked is that the amnesia trope wasn't cheesy. Jaxon immediately realized she had no clue who he was, and he didn't do that awful "You're lying, of course you know who I am" for half the book. He knew immediately. He also felt something more was wrong than just her memory loss. It seemed too coincidental that he had looked for her for 3 years to have a tip just fall into his lap, then magically there she is. Ahh, but someone takes a shot at him and it turns out he's the target, she was the bait.
This first part of the book is completely and utterly heartwrenching. Libby is treated like crap. But she's so broken it's really hard to read. Jaxon gathers his team, Ana and Declan, then adds in his brothers Julian and Jagger(who to their credit are nice to Libby), and they all meet up. What we see is a very broken Libby being bullied by her old team because they blame her for killing Diego. When Ana examines Libby and sees the extent of the torture, her tune changes. I was very happy to see Ana soften up towards Libby. Even Jaxon starts to doubt his belief that Libby was malicious and cold-blooded in telling his enemies of their location.
Now bearing in mind that Jaxon keeps running hot and cold towards Libby, who for her part is still very confused, he gets up in her face about "My brother is off-limits. Don't even think about using your assets to sway him." Jagger was the only person who was decently nice to her, so of course she smiled at him! I wanted to stand up and applaud as Libby told him to go eff himself.
Jaxon was an ass. Usually I don't mind that in an alpha male, but Jaxon was mean. Like the kicking-Libby-while-she-was-down kind of mean. It did little to endear him to me. I understood he was angry and hurt at her betrayal and the death of Diego, I do get that, but he was a jerk to Libby, who couldn't even defend herself since she had no memory of those things she'd done.
There's this one scene where Libby walks out into the kitchen, and everyone stops talking and stares at her. Libby was starving, and everyone had eaten, but no one thought of her, so the scraps had gone to the dogs, but Libby had nothing. She found a small hunk of cheese, and went to the pantry for crackers. Her stomach growled while she was trying to reach a box of crackers, and sadly, pitifully, she couldn't reach them. And no one helped her. I mean, at this point they all knew about her torture and they were all having some doubts to her culpability, I was almost in tears of frustration that she couldn't get the damn crackers. I think that emotional scenes like that are a testament to Ms. Stone's writing but at the same time, man would someone get the poor girl a cracker?
Libby and Jaxon finally gave into their lust and I was actually okay with that, because it felt right. BUT Libby got her memory back shortly after and I was shocked at what had happened. That's where I loved Libby. She stood up to Jaxon, slapped him across the face and told him not to even look at her, let alone touch her. And wouldn't you know it was right after he'd had this epiphany that she couldn't have done what they all blame her for. So he's ready to mate-claim her, and she's telling him he WILL NOT touch her. I loved her strength.
I liked who Libby became. She was strong, even though her body failed her. She kept her spirit strong and she was a great foil to Jaxon once he began to show Libby more respect. The two of them together was much better than the two of the apart, and it took Jaxon a while to understand that.
Now, the next order of business for Libby was to get her child back. No one believed their child was alive. Libby barely believed it as she hadn't seen him since her captors cut him from her belly. That was it. She had never in three years seen her child. But she had survived torture and starvation and captivity in the desperate hopes she would one day hold her son in her arms.
This was a very intense book. This book stuck with me long after I finished it. I actually picked it up again after I finished it and re-read certain scenes. The emotional ride was full of ups and downs, and the highs were good, I mean really good! And the lows were emotionally draining. I just wanted to give Libby a hug. But the writing skill to pull this kind of a relationship off? Juliana Stone has some kind of talent. The world she's built is fantastic. The characters are so REAL. The Jaguar Warriors is a fantastic series. And the great thing about this first book? No big info dumps, no huge flashbacks, no first book in the series syndrome...just wonderfully written characters (even if one of them is a jerk!) and a fantastical world.
I did rate this book a 4 (which means I really really liked it!) so I don't want my frustration at Libby's treatment to turn you away. She really was a good heroine and you'll be hard-pressed not to like her. My anger at Jaxon is what dropped this book from a 5. I felt they made up way to easily, I mean I was still mad at him, shouldn't Libby have been too? (lol) But they did rescue their son, and I liked seeing Jaxon for the last quarter of the book becoming the hero I knew he could be. He recognized the strength Libby had, and when he laid eyes on his son for the first time, it was really sweet. We were also introduced to some key players, and there was some subtle foreshadowing for the next book.
My final verdict? I think this was an amazing book-it pulled so many emotions from me and caught me up in the world to the point I read til I finished (like 1am), and I still want to sit down and go over it again.