May 31, 2010
My 8th book installment for the month of May. Finished reading The Sequel to The Postcard yesterday but had to process it as I realized that in a way it parallel’s my life during this season of my life.
Can their love dissolve the barrier between two vastly different cultures?
I learned that the crossroads in our lives is actually a road to the cross. The Lord is just waiting for us to take the road to salvation, the road to redemption, and the road to transformation.
It is a step towards a better future, a leap of faith towards a future that is bright, filled with hope, a future that is in God’s hands giving Him the power to control everything.
I also learned that there are so many painful memories in life that we need to face bravely, fully, and head on. A lot of times we tend to rationalize away the negative emotions because as Christians we are not supposed to feel anger, hate, bitterness, yet they are what they are. They are how we feel. These are all honest feelings deep down inside when everything is stripped to the core. No amount of rationalizing, wishing it away will make it go away.
The good thing about it all is God will not condemn us for feeling this way, the thing is, we just have to be honest enough for Him to work beneath the surface, working in us, working through us to bring us healing, but God wants us to bring it to Him, openly, honestly, wholeheartedly but most importantly immediately.
The great thing through it all is that God do love us no matter what, just as He loved David enough to allow him to come into repentance even after he sinned and still call him a man after God’s own heart. God also allowed Job to express his hurts and pains to the point of cursing his own birth and still call him righteous and gave back to him twice what he lost.
The sad thing is most of the times when we bury the feelings or are in denial, they only pile up, and they become so heavy that we are emotionally crippled sometimes to the point of not functioning properly, not reacting truly and not responding righteously, because deep down inside we are damaged without letting on, we are broken and trying to hide it, we are wrecked and not allowing anyone else to see even ourselves. Hiding behind a laugh, hiding behind a wall.
Oh how foolish we are to think we can get away with it! It is indeed true to no matter how we keep the secret, there is no secret in this world that doesn’t eventually come out. So, better to open up and be honest at once and kneel it in front of Jesus so that He can work it out at the soonest possible time in us. Then we can go through life with peace, joy, love and then understanding!
First comes peace. Then joy. Then love. And finally understanding! First, stop the unrest, the uneasiness; find peace. From that place, where breathing will be easier, the joy will flow. Now with peace and joy, love may follow. Then only when we are close enough to love will we understand, will we even care to understand.
“Sometimes the familiar can be a hard place to go back to. So how then can I believe that a place so familiar could be a “bend in the road”? Sometimes you may dwell on the past; it may loom so large that you can’t seem to help but live with it everyday. That’s the kind of thing you have to knock lose with a stick and then cover it over deep with God’s grace. God is more powerful than even the toughest memories. When you plow through, when you’re determined to follow Christ, you’ll discover God’s presence. And THAT is a powerful thing!“ ‐ Chonda Pierce