I discovered that you wouldn't like to give up lust, it makes me wonder if you'd ever give me trust / I heard you think I'm not the quickest catch, but you know I've got your flame (Powder Blue & Cascine Park – Yumi Zouma).
Hi, I’m here to ramble... a lot! It seems that my obsessive tendencies having completely taking a hold of me this month, and I figure that instead of fighting it, I might as well see where this takes me. Hold up, let me back up a minute and explain, despite all the fans complaining about “lore discrepancies,” I’ve been really liking the Fallout show, so now I’m replaying Fallout 4 for the hundredth time. Because I’m currently going through (and getting emotionally decimated by) the Life is Strange games, I’ve now decided to read a full length novel starring one of the side characters in the series, Steph. And despite her starting out as a side character, that doesn't change the fact that she's still the best character. She's a cool chick, but not in the Gillian Flynn way, but rather because she's not ashamed of the fact that she's probably the nerdiest character I think I've ever seen in any kind of media. And let me tell you, even though I went into this solely because of my familiarity with the property, I know for a fact that I would have ended up loving this book outside of my love for the Life is Strange video games regardless. It's that good, and by its own merit too. This book reinvigorated that “reading spark” inside me and now I just want to read everything. Seriously, I’m not lying! I was going down the oldest page of my “tbr” here on Goodreads because I feel like I can now tackle any literary challenge put forth in front of me now! No twenty day library hold can hold me back, I’m invincible!! Alright, alright… alright, I’m calm again. Let's chill, let's settle down. Life is Strange: Steph’s Story is a novel tie-in about Steph Gingrich, a minor character from one of the earlier games in the series and is later the love interest to Alex Chen from Life is Strange: True Colors. This book chronicles her life in the in-between years where following the devastating hurricane that destroyed her hometown of Arcadia Bay and took her mother away from her, she then moves to live with her father and has to decide what she wants to do with her life while also battling against unresolved trauma and depression. Drifting through the months, she then falls into step with Izzie, a rocker chick equipped with an unquenchable thirst for making it big and a decisive nature that intoxicates Steph. She can’t help but get lost in her orbit! Sure, at first the overall prose was a bit too “John Green”-esque for me, and while that would normally be the most devastating of insults I could bestow upon a work of literature, I will say that I was watching this YouTuber reread Paper Towns and they were going through all the chapters (problematic and not so problematic)… and I’ve got to admit that it made me instantly nostalgic for when I used to love his books. So just this once, comparing Life is Strange to a YA John Green book is the great compliment of the ages.
I can safely say that Steph’s Story is the best book tie-in from another medium that I’ve ever read, watched, or played! And while that’s not saying too much considering the only competition this book has in that department is that Mass Effect prequel book that I would have assumed was written by Chat GPT had it not come out fifteen years ago and those shitty Assassin’s Creed books, I still think Steph’s Story stands all on its own simply because it doesn’t sweat itself with being bogged down by all the lore given to us with previous entries in the series. See, Life is Strange games partly owe their popularity due to their adherence to the player’s choices, and how said choices all have dire consequences throughout the story. You know the drill, do you save this guy or don’t bother because he was a dick to you earlier, do you hook up with the weird incel nerd boy or the cool alternative girl who'll graffiti any surface she can get her hand on, etc. etc. it’s all up to the player. But here’s the thing, games that heavily rely on choice often shoot themselves in the foot, so to speak, because it’s damn near impossible to write sequels or tie-in novels because the writers are always so afraid of upsetting fans that have their own favorite choices, so they always just end up tip-toeing around certain choice heavy decisions in order to try appeasing fans. For me, the problem with this is that they almost always end up appeasing nobody in the end, and we just end up with a nothing story that could have been something had the writer just made a decision that would help create a cohesive narrative rather than being afraid of the precious fan’s feelings. Speaking of choice based video games, I hear they’re making a new Mass Effect game, and everybody's getting up in arms about how it shouldn't be a sequel simply because all of the endings of Mass Effect 3 have wildly different outcomes, and they think that if the writers make one canon, it would ruin the story for those who might have chosen differently. Yeah well, I’m of the opinion that the writers should just choose the best ending (the “destroy ending”) and be done with it. Let’s go from there. Anyway look, all I’m trying to say here is the reason why I enjoyed Steph’s Story so much is that Rosiee Thor made certain choices (the best choices in my opinion) from the first Life is Strange game and went from there to make the best story possible. None of this bullshit "Duffer Brothers" ambiguity, Max and Chloe got together and lived happily ever after in queer bliss despite the hurricane that ruined Arcadia Bay. The end.
Oh yeah, did I even tell you that this is a break-up story rather than a true “happily-ever-after” romance? Because it is, I’m afraid. And while I know that this could be a turn off for a lot of readers, I still think that this book is sufficiently romantic enough in a “tragically heartbreaking” kind of way, and makes sense in Steph’s character development leading into her role in True Colors. It would have been the easiest thing for the author to make Izzie feel like a placeholder girlfriend for Steph until she meets Alex, but by adding a heavy dosage of “what could have been” flavoring to Steph and Izzie’s relationship, it gives the story a sense of gravity in a 500 Days of Summer kind of bittersweet. I don’t know, I’m just pleasantly surprised here because I’m not used to side stories being given this level of consideration, as they usually just feel like skippable filler in the same vein of those hundreds of episodes between Naruto and Naruto: Shippuden! Now, this could very well just be because I’ve played True Colors and I already know for a fact that Steph and Izzie don’t end up together, but one thing I liked about this book is that by centering the entire narrative around Steph’s relationship with Izzie, the highs as well as the lows, Rosiee Thor was able to give the story enough emotional weight that helps to develop both characters in a very real way without making the book feel like the “extra material” that it very much could have been. In other words, Steph’s Story is less Plus One starring Jack Quaid and more Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind in that sense. Or in literary terms, this book isn’t so much Written in the Stars by Alexandria Bellefleur, but rather The Falling in Love Montage by Ciara Smyth. Besides, with the benefit of hindsight, the author is also able to sprinkle in hints that Steph’s relationship with Izzie was somewhat flawed to begin with, as it’s easy to spot the bread crumb trail leading to their eventual departure. Sure, it's a bit more complicated than that, but in my opinion, their relationship can be boiled down to this; Steph likes to do a lot of different stuff and Izzie… doesn’t. She likes one thing, and that’s being in a band. There are more layers to it though, because from the start their relationship seems a bit too co-dependent for it to be healthy. You know that Prince song “I Wanna Be Your Lover” where he goes, “I wanna be your brother, I want to be your mother and your sister too”? Yeah well, Steph and Izzie have that kind of all-encompassing love that leaves no room for anyone else. It sounds romantic as hell in a song, but not so much in practice.
“The year is only fifteen days old, but I’m already sick of it.”
I also liked how the prospect of Steph and Izzie going to Haven Springs (the setting of True Colors) takes on an almost “doomed prophecy” role within the narrative (similar to how the town of Arcadia Bay is threatened with a giant tornado or hurricane or whatever it is in the first Life is Strange game) because even though traveling there seems completely harmless or even beneficial to their fracturing relationship, we know that eventually Steph ends up staying while Izzie continues on elsewhere. It kind of reminded me of how in Song of Achilles (it always comes back to that damn book for me!), Patroclus and Achilles are given a vivid prophecy of Achilles dying after he kills Hector, and Patroclus begs Achilles to never go after the man, to which Achilles always replies something along the lines of “why should I? He's done nothing to me.” and… yeah, I think we all know how that ends up. And it makes sense why Izzie wouldn’t want to stay in Haven Springs as well, as being the only trans person in a small town isn’t exactly an ideal picture of safety, you know? In fact, in her one line cameo in Wavelengths, she literally says as much! I have an aunt who moved over to Wherever-the-Fuck Washington (find that one on a map) where I assume the residents wake up every day and sing in harmony “They read the good book from Fri till Monday. That's how the weekend goes. I've got a dream house I'll build there one day, with picket fence and ramblin' rose,” and she’s always asking us to go drive the five hours it would take to go visit them, and it’s like… do you think I want to be the only queer Asian dude for a hundred miles in each direction. No thanks! Besides, I don’t want to wake up in the middle of the night looking for the bathroom and stumble in on the room where the big reveal is that the meat we were eating at dinner was people meat. Dun dun dunnn! I don’t know, maybe I watch too many horror movies, but what I’m getting at is that when you’re queer or a minority (or both in my case), it’s of the utmost importance to avoid putting ourselves in a Get Out situation. And as if to highlight Haven Springs’ deceptively “kindly small town” nature, I also thought it was kind of funny how in the game, before Alex shows up, her brother Gabe is literally the only Asian in the town. Don't get me wrong, I love the setting in the game proper, but I'd still be out there looking for my people! It reminds me of that one scene in The Walking Dead season six where there’s randomly an Asian dude on the bad guy's side who inexplicably has a strong southern accent? Like… what are you doing out here, my brother!? Why are you speaking like that!? Maybe his ass was in the Sunken Place, who knows.
Anyway, True Colors is still my favorite of the games because… well, it was the first of them that I played, but also because it features a bisexual Asian main character, Alex Chen, so I related to that or whatever. I also dress like her, so that was kind of weird and endearing at the same time. But outside of that fact, it’s just nice to have some diversity, you know? Because damn, I know it takes place in Oregon, but playing through the first game seriously started looking like that one picture of the Killing Eve writing room! Also, with Alex, True Colors is also the only game in the series that doesn’t have some Genshin Impact ass body diversity, so that’s pretty cool. Otherwise, maybe I relate to this book specifically on a more personal level because most of it is set in Seattle, a city where I'm from and where I am. Trust me, it’s very rare where I read a book or play a video game that fully represents the true Seattleite experience. And I don’t mean seeing an abundance of allies and welcoming queer spaces (I wish), but rather being surrounded by folks dressed like Portugal The Man. Haim looking ass. I mean, I’m not one to talk, really, seeing as any given day I could be seen dressed like either George Costanza or the “There’s Nothing Holding me Back” music video. But yeah, circling back around to Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, people always talk about how the ending is wrongly interpreted as a hopeful and romantic one, pointing out how the movie chronicles a doomed relationship from the outset in how Joel and Clementine are inherently wrong for each other (often using a deleted scene where an older Clementine is bringing in more of Joel’s belongings to go through the procedure in forgetting him again, implying that this has happened many times over the years), but I’d argue that the fact that they knew all of each other’s flaws and still decided to give it another go is incredibly romantic. Just saying “fuck it” and going with the flow despite clear warning signs has always been a prevalent aspect of the Life is Strange series, so it’s cool to see it once again in a more grounded setting with Steph and Lizzie. But it also had me wondering... are they good? Like, music-wise, I mean. Sorry, whenever I’m reading a book featuring a band of some sort, the first question I always ask is what kind of music they play… and whether or not it’s shit. Because the thing is, authors tend to get kind of cagey about specific genres and usually opt out by describing the characters as being in a generic rock band. You know, as if it were still the 80’s and rock music could sell records. Pshh, yeah right.
I had this exact problem with that one book called White Noise by Lark Taylor (shirtless dude on the cover, you can't miss it), and because the novel never really specified what kind of music the characters were playing, I just spent my entire review talking shit about what I assumed their music taste was. Call me Anthony Fantano the way I'd give Caffeine Daydreams' latest album a "light 6" heh heh. What can I say? I’m the worst kind of music snob, it comes with the territory of being from Seattle. So yeah, one cool thing about Steph’s Story being based of a visual medium is that the games already have soundtracks, so I can just go boot up True Colors right now and listen to the jukebox in The Black Lantern and see what kind of vibe this book is going for. In the DLC, Wavelengths, you even get to play as Steph, where she works as the manager of the record store and daylights as the town DJ as well. It's fun because you can choose all the different indie songs to grace the ears of all four residents of Haven Springs! Pretty cool, huh? Because let me tell you, I dig the music in these games, so I think it’s safe to say that I would also be a Drugstore Makeup Stan (that's their band name). Though… I will say that if I were on a road trip with Steph and Izzie, I’d probably get tired of all the indie music after the first couple hours or so. Across the country with only the most obscure shit that two hipsters can find!? I can hang for a little bit, but like, somebody had better put on Mariah Carey soon or I’m going to start a fight! Anyway, what I was trying to say before I so kindly interrupted myself with random thoughts is that I think a piece of art is always strongest when it has some kind of musical identity attached to it, as it adds an extra layer of emotional depth in my opinion. Guardians of the Galaxy has that 1970’s “dad rock” "yacht rock" thing going for it, Fallout has the melancholic Ink Spots and other overly censored 1950’s doo-wop to contrast nicely against the excessive violence, and Life is Strange has all the songs you’ve never heard of that you can’t even find on Spotify by indie bands called shit like “Devil’s Tampon” or “Ass-Eating Vending Machine” or whatever. No but for real though, I’ve always loved it when I can heavily associate certain music with whatever show or movie I’m watching, game I’m playing, or book I’m reading because it helps the work as a whole remain in my mind forever. Like some Manchurian Candidate type shit, just play a song I first heard around time I was reading a wonderful book and I will instantly be transported back to that time! Eyes all focused like The Winter Soldier. That’s literally the main reason why I even put song lyrics at the top of my reviews anyway, it’s because even if I can't think of all the specific details, I’ll still always remember the way it made me feel at that place in time. And in that regard, I’m always going to remember the song this book sounds like.
Half a moment living in the sunsets of our youth / I kill the world, was it enough to turn us loose? / You never notice when my breathing gets loud, but give yourself a break.