Myself When I Am Real: The Life and Music of Charles Mingus

by Gene Santoro

Charles Mingus was one of the most innovative jazz musicians of the 20th century, and ranks with Charles Ives and Duke Ellington as one of America's greatest composers. By temperament, he was a high-strung and sensitive romantic, a towering figure whose tempestuous personal life found powerfully coherent expression in the ever-shifting textures of his music. Now, acclaimed music critic Gene Santoro strips away the myths shrouding "Jazz's Angry Man," revealing Mingus as more complex than even his close friends knew. Written in a lively, novelistic style, Myself When I Am Real draws on dozens of new interviews and previously untapped letters and archival materials to explore the intricate connections between this extraordinary man and the extraordinary music he made.

Genres: Music, Jazz, Biography, Nonfiction, African American, History, American

480 pages, Paperback

First published July 1, 2000

Reviews

[Tom Burdge · Rating 3 out of 5]

“The boon companions [Mingus and his friend J C Suares] greeted each other by bumping their protruding bellies together. Once, Mingus went to a Suares show in Paris, saw J. C. bump bellies with a stout French artist, and left. Susan [Mingus’ wife] called Suares the next day. “Mingus is very upset,” she said. “He thought he was the only person you bumped stomachs with” p. 330-31

I’d say, overall, the above passage encapsulates the loudest messages in the book. It contains countless anecdotes of Mingus’ eccentricity, his extreme jealousy, rage, and paranoia, and often draws attention to how amusingly absurd they are. It is a funny anecdote, but plays it puts him into the freak show than appreciates him.
Furthermore, constantly acknowledging Mingus’ paranoia quite often understates the racism Mingus did actually experience. Quite often you only hear the story of Mingus’ explosive response to the racist incident, rather than the event itself.

The book does have redeeming elements, where Santori talks about Mingus’ music, the volatile relationships with his band members, and the hidden stories of his songs and albums. I particularly enjoyed learning about Mingus’ Vedanta beliefs, which I hadn’t known about; Mingus’ reflections on death, motivated by his understanding of Vedanta, and his song The Chill of Death were a great help in prompting reflections on an essay I was writing about death this semester. I certainly learnt much about Mingus’ musical progression from the book.

But, unfortunately, I think for the most part this is another work which remembers Mingus as The Clown (go listen to that song on the album of the same name, it’s brilliant and I’m convinced a direct inspiration for the film Birdman).

Santori’s writing is also quite obnoxious at times. I cringed more each time the author repeated “Mingus was feeling the Zeitgest again”. Santori’s constant mentions of the Beat Generation poets is far too much also. While its clear Ginsberg, Kerouac and others were his good friends for a period, they were much smaller a part of Mingus’ life than Santori allocates them.

Overall, I’m happy I read the book because I love Mingus and his music, but I wouldn’t recommend it unless you really want to learn more about Mingus’ life.

[Grant · Rating 2 out of 5]

very disappointing. writing is horrible. that it was extensively researched is its one winning quality. and that i am a fan of the mingus.

[Ryan · Rating 5 out of 5]

The quality of the writing is maybe not the absolute best (it's dry and scholarly, which I don't mind, but you'll note a great many other reviews found Santoro's style to be an impediment to their enjoyment), but the amount and quality of the research is truly commendable and the level of detail is incredibly thorough given that the book's substance is only around 400 pages (far from the sort of doorstop heft one often finds with academic biographies). Does a very nice job, too, of diving into analysis of the creative output without giving short shrift to biographical facts and juicy anecdotes of the mercurial legend's many beefs with rivals, former (and current) collaborators, and involvement with the social issues of the day. I'd recommend pairing this one with Mingus's impressionistic autobiographical work Triumph of the Underdog for the clearest possible picture of one of American music's greatest geniuses.

[Al Maki · Rating 3 out of 5]

I should start by saying that Mingus composed and organized the bands that played some of my favourite music. The book gave me insight into where he came from and the environment he worked in. I found his struggles to keep creating jazz as the economics of the music industry shifted were particularly interesting. It seems to me that Santoro also proposes that the beat movement of the post war era drew a lot of its style by appropriating the African American styles of the time. I find this an interesting idea.

[Blair · Rating 3 out of 5]

This is a very fun biography. Mingus was a very volatile talent, both in his musical style and his personal life. He had a bad temper, didn't take shit form anyone. Santoro writes with almost a prose-like style to basically fit that fury into the lines, and it works well. It's a bit too long, but worth the read. It's almost like Mingus was a character in a Scorsese movie, chasing at people with knives, his anger a character bigger than his self at times. As a result there are some very memorable anecdotes.

[Will · Rating 3 out of 5]

Sought this out because I had heard several crazy stories about Mingus (e.g., rehearsing his band during performances, punching out his trombone player) and have always gotten a kick out of his quirky music. Fairly well written biography about a very eccentric guy.

[Peter Sims · Rating 3 out of 5]

A biography on one of my heroes that didn't blow me away yet completely disappoint me. Most likely the best biography written on him, but doesn't hold a candle to Lewis Porter's Coltrane, the best jazz biography I've seen.

[Joel D · Rating 2 out of 5]

The story is just not told in an interesting way. It's too detail heavy, without a strong narrative or emotional connection. Very choppy. It reads like Santoro was determined to include every single scrap of information regardless of how they contributed value .

[Qa'id · Rating 3 out of 5]

A slowish read at times, but it's always enlightening to learn about the details of the lives of folks who transcend the boundaries of "ordinary" creative capabilities.

[Fernando Pestana da Costa · Rating 5 out of 5]

Bass player and composer Charles Mingus is one of the gargantuan personalities in the jazz pantheon. Widely known in his lifetime for his violent outbursts, "jazz's angry man" was one of the most important jazz composers ever, responsible for an incredibly large number of recordings that became classics and milestones in the evolution of the music, like the albums "New Tijuana Moods" (1957), "Blues and Roots" (1959), "Mingus Ah Um"(1959), "Mingus Dinasty" (1959), "Charles Mingus Presents Charles Mingus" (1960), and the masterpiece "The Black Saint and the Sinner Lady" (1963). His different groups, all known as the "jazz workshop", became legendary, and included, at one time or another, some of the most adventurous and creative jazz musicians, like Eric Dolphy, Jackie McLean, Booker Ervin, Mal Waldron, Jaki Byard, Jimmy Kneeper, and Dannie Richmond, among others. This book is a biography of Mingus that do him justice and is commensurate with his genius: it follows his life from the early years in Los Angeles, and the beginning of his professional life in the West Coast, to consecration in New York; his lifelong struggle against racism and discrimination, as well as his, at times violent and paranoid, behavior towards his family, musicians and acquaintances. Not a black-and-white type of biography, this rich portrait of a complicated and troubled, but genial, personality is a must to everyone hooked up by his hauntingly beautiful music.

[Marco Frey · Rating 3 out of 5]

Such a pretty cover betrays the book's writing quality which often falls onto the page as if taken from a set of notes roughly organized in chronological order. I'm sure writing a biography (especially of a man with many myths) is a tough task. It's worth reading to better understand Mingus and his many periods and does offer some insight into his creative process. Mingus' greatest strength was in selecting the right musicians (rarely virtuosos but with a unique voice) and then writing for them. Although it always sounds like Mingus--his groups were raw, the opposite of a for-hire classical quartet. Instead of watering down the elements, he blended some vivid spices.

[Andrew Peterson · Rating 2 out of 5]

Richly researched, poorly (if at all) edited, deeply disappointing. Couldn't finish it fast enough.

Most annoyingly, the book is rife with non-sequiturs, some lengthy, that neither advance the narrative of Mingus' "life and music" or provide a shred of helpful context. Santoro's approach to biography, clearly, is: "I found this anecdote, so it goes in."

To quote Missus: "Maybe just because someone's a Fulbright Scholar doesn't mean they can write."

Too bad because I'd otherwise give this 4 stars for all I learned about a fascinating, restless artist and innovator I didn't know enough about.

[Robert · Rating 2 out of 5]

I wanted to love this like I love Mingus' music, but I found the format distracting and ultimately found this book lacking cohesion.

[Jonathan · Rating 5 out of 5]

The best bio book on Mingus. As a bassist I have always been drawn to him. His story is a story of highs and lows. You'll appreciate it music more after reading this.

[Dave Laczko · Rating 5 out of 5]

I disagree with the negative reviews I've seen on goodreads. This is the 2nd time I've read this book, and I think it does capture this multi-faceted artist as well as anything, WAY better than Mingus' own Beneath the Underdog, which is more of a collection of tall-tales and a fictionalized account of what he wanted to tell. Myself When I am Real is filed with interviews from friends, musicians, wives, and his kids, who all tell what Mingus was like from their own perspective, touring, playing or living with him, besides extensive quotes from the man himself. It is well researched, and includes a decent discography, footnotes, other articles and books, etc. I enjoyed reading it a second time!

[Jeffrey Lee · Rating 4 out of 5]

A good grasp on the larger than life Mingus.

[Stefan Abuan · Rating 5 out of 5]

A glimpse into the life of Charlie Mingus, one of my favorite Jazz musicians and composers