This novel (the second in Richardson's "Pilgrimage" series) operates by contrast. First, of course, it contrasts with Pointed Roofs, in which Miriam also teaches at a girl's school, but the two schools are very different. At the institution run by the Misses Pernes, she dilikes the girls, is physically uncomfortable, and finds no nourishment for the soul (until she discovers a circulating library and devours Ouida!) Yet there is little or no nostalgia for Germany in this book. Rather, the yearning is for the setting(s) of the other part of this story: home, her sisters, her friends. It's a world of luxury, comfort, music, dancing, silliness, lovemaking and, most of all, freedom. It's a world where she goes to a seaside resort and luxuriates in the beauty of nature, even as she is despising her companions. However, it is also a world full of disturbing developments - two of her sisters get engaged, her mother becomes seriously ill, and they must, perforce, leave their family home at last because of lack of money. Miriam begins to feel trapped in her role as schoolteacher - she is beginning to believe that she can no longer continue to do it as an amateur, and will be pressured to qualify, and thus (by implication) to spend the rest of her life trapped in schools like the Pernes' in North London. One of the implicit alternatives to this is marriage, and a number of possible and very different candidates are paraded across Miriam's landscape in this volume: Ted, from her own social circle; Max, whose attractiveness she only half allows herself to admit before he goes off to New York and dies of influenza; the older, stable man named Bob; the curiously solitary Mr. Parrow who seems to disgust her, but then opens out her self-imposed limits by taking her on a toboggan ride at the Crystal Palace. The stream-of-consciousness style grows bolder in this one, and is used to suggest a number of self-revelations. Most notable among these are Miriam's shock at the end of the book when she discovers how much she is loved and appreciated at the North London school which she has gladly left behind, and a moment when the weight of her "amateur" status in a professionalizing world leads her to thoughts of uselessness and suicide, followed closely by a triumphant affirmation of her own identity. However, though Miriam is very aware, she is not terribly self-aware of self-analytical. She rarely thinks about what she is thinking, or what its relationship is to the world around her. She rarely examines her own first principles, and in fact I find her snobbishness and assumption of class superiority one of the most disturbing and off-putting aspects of her character. I did like the Ouida section, though. "She ceased to read the Bible and to pray. Ouida, Ouida, she would muse, with the book at last in her hands. I want bad things -- strong, bad things... It doesn't matter, Italy, the sky, bright hot landscapes, things happening. I don't care what people think or say. I am older than anyone here in this house. I am myself." Yes, I remember this. A true antidote for conventional religiosity like Miss Haddie's! [These notes made in 1992:]