4.5 stars
As the story opens, Clint is still in the hospital after being attacked at the end of Clean Lines. Before his injury, Clint experienced one too many rejections from the strong willed and independent Beth after months of emotional push- and –pull, and he finally gave up and walked away. He never expects to open his eyes after weeks in a coma to find her sitting at his bedside as he tries to piece together exactly what happened to get him to this point.
Beth requires ironclad control of her life at all times after finding herself on her own at a young age as a single mother with zero support from her family. Attempts at letting others into her life since then haven't gone well, and every time Clint made a little bit of progress toward breaking down the walls she built around her heart, she shut down and lashed out to push him away. News of his injury scared the hell out of her and she has been glued to his bedside since it happened, but she is still unsure how she will handle him when he wakes up. Will he still be the same man that he was before the brain injury? And is she ready to take a chance on a relationship with him- if he even still wants her after she pushed him away?
Beth is not the only one who values control however. After a less than picture perfect family dynamic in his childhood and a major falling out with his brother in his adult years, Clint prides himself on being in control of his emotions - and in the bedroom. After the attack that left him hospitalized, he is feeling weak and vulnerable, an unfamiliar position for him, and he is far from having control of anything in his life. He is left reeling from the news that his estranged brother dropped everything to take over Clint’s business while he was out of commission, not to mention that Beth is the one who tracked him down and brought him to Cedar Tree. Add in the unwelcome news that he will need someone living with him for the immediate future to help care for him until he can get back on his feet – and that Beth volunteers to move in with him to help and to bear witness to his weakness- and Clint feels like he fell down the rabbit hole while he was asleep.
Depending on others is not something that sits well with either Clint or Beth, and they constantly bicker as they each try to find their equilibrium in this new arrangement and grapple for the advantage at any given time. And let’s just say communication is SO not their strong suit! Clint has always suffered from serious foot in mouth disease, and that remains unchanged after his injury. He was raised a Southern gentleman, but OMG he can always find the exact wrong thing to say even when he has the best of intentions! And each time he works his way under her skin, Beth gets lost in her own self righteous indignation as a defense mechanism in order to push him away over and over again. Fortunately he recognizes her actions for exactly what they are, and realizing that life is too short for games, he calls her on it while deciding to make one last ditch attempt to get her to give him a fair shot.
“It has nothing to do with being capable or not, or being strong or not. It has to do with being smart enough to recognize you’re not alone anymore and strong enough to know when to lean on that one person who will not let you fall.”
In the midst of all this, Beth’s son Dylan drops her 4 year old grandson Max off on her doorstep and disappears adding to the craziness and stress. Max is just absolutely stinking adorable and a little scene stealer as he wreaks havoc on Clint’s home (and Beth’s clothing and personal items) as only a small child can do. He provides much needed comic relief to the tension and emotion surrounding him; one particular scene involving a “bunny” had me wiping tears of laughter from my eyes, and since I was on a plane at the time it garnered me a few sideways glances but it was worth it!
The rest of the Cedar Tree family is woven throughout the story as they lend support in any number of ways. Of course Gus and his crew of investigators help root out the cause of Dylan’s problems, supporting Beth as she is sucked deeper into the quagmire of the mess his life became before he dropped off Max. Emma, Arlene, Katie and Naomi help Beth sort through the jumble of conflicting thoughts and emotions that are unleashed both as a result of her son’s mistakes and from Clint’s dominant side, especially behind closed doors, that she is petrified to allow herself to enjoy. Giving up control in any small measure has not worked out well for her in the past but she can’t deny to herself that she wants to trust him enough to let that side of himself make itself known to her more in the future. She doesn’t share too many details with the girls but some of their conversations and assumptions are classic girls’ night out- style moments.
My favorite Cedar Tree resident is newcomer Malachi, or Mal for short. He is Caleb’s brother and he won my heart from the first time I laid eyes on him on the pages of Against Me. Mal is a reformed bad boy with striking good looks due to his Native American heritage, a quiet presence, the silent grace of a predatory jungle cat, honor, and a subtle sense of humor. All these traits combine to make him the strong, silent, and caring type who values family more than ever after almost losing it all not too long ago regardless if they are family by blood or by choice. Beth falls into the second category for him, and when she is having a mini- freak out about her body issues amidst a stressful situation, he said something to her that just endeared him to me even more than ever.
"That padding you’ve got on you? Makes you soft, pliable— the way a woman should feel. I’m thinking Clint’s a lucky man. Figure I find me a woman like you one day— all soft and rounded in the right places, but hiding a core of steel —I’d count myself the luckiest guy alive.”
Being a curvy girl myself who is staring at the start of my 40s this year, Beth and the characters in this series resonate with me more than many others I have read. I can only hope a real life Mal exists somewhere out there in the world, and I cannot wait to see what woman makes him the luckiest guy alive on paper!
As I wrap up this review, I found myself contemplating the title Upper Hand and what it means in the actual sense as well as in the context of this story. After a quick search, a few pertinent definitions popped up: "A dominating or controlling position" from dictionary.com, and "mastery, advantage, control" from Merriam Webster. I think you hit the nail on the head with all aspects of those definitions in this story Freya- I am ready for the next one already!
NOTE: Although Upper Hand can definitely be read as a standalone, based on some of the other comments I have seen posted you may want to read at least book 4 in the series Clean Lines before starting Upper Hand. The circumstances leading to Clint's injury are explained in Upper Hand but it seems folks better understand the details and events of this book if they have read Clean Lines first.