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Tweakerworld
Meet Jason: a college educated documentary film producer, cat parent of two, and one of San Francisco’s top drug dealers.
After Jason’s world falls apart in LA, he moves to Berkeley for a fresh start with his kid brother. Just one problem: his long-closeted Adderall addiction has exploded into an out-of-control crystal meth binge. Within weeks, Jason plunges into the sprawling ParTy n’ ’Play subculture of the Bay Area’s gay community. It is a wildly decadent scene of drugs, group sex, and criminals, and yet it is also filled with surprising characters, people who are continually subverting Jason’s own presumptions of the stereotypical tweaker.
Soon Jason becomes a dealer on the pretense of researching this tweaker world for a project that will carry him, like a life raft, back to the shores of a normal life. But his friendly entrepreneurial spirit and trusting disposition disarm clients and rival dealers alike. The money begins to roll in as demand increases to frightening levels. Suddenly, Jason is in control of the entire crystal meth market for San Francisco’s gay community, even as he finds himself nodding off behind the wheel of his car, or walking down the sidewalk. As friends and family work frantically to steer him towards recovery, Jason resists, chasing something else: a sleepless nirvana fueled by sex, drugs, and the Tweakerworld.
With painful honesty, Jason Yamas has crafted a landmark narrative that is not just a personal account of addiction, but a portrait of a vulnerable, largely undocumented community of people who, for many reasons, have been marginalized to the point of invisibility.
After Jason’s world falls apart in LA, he moves to Berkeley for a fresh start with his kid brother. Just one problem: his long-closeted Adderall addiction has exploded into an out-of-control crystal meth binge. Within weeks, Jason plunges into the sprawling ParTy n’ ’Play subculture of the Bay Area’s gay community. It is a wildly decadent scene of drugs, group sex, and criminals, and yet it is also filled with surprising characters, people who are continually subverting Jason’s own presumptions of the stereotypical tweaker.
Soon Jason becomes a dealer on the pretense of researching this tweaker world for a project that will carry him, like a life raft, back to the shores of a normal life. But his friendly entrepreneurial spirit and trusting disposition disarm clients and rival dealers alike. The money begins to roll in as demand increases to frightening levels. Suddenly, Jason is in control of the entire crystal meth market for San Francisco’s gay community, even as he finds himself nodding off behind the wheel of his car, or walking down the sidewalk. As friends and family work frantically to steer him towards recovery, Jason resists, chasing something else: a sleepless nirvana fueled by sex, drugs, and the Tweakerworld.
With painful honesty, Jason Yamas has crafted a landmark narrative that is not just a personal account of addiction, but a portrait of a vulnerable, largely undocumented community of people who, for many reasons, have been marginalized to the point of invisibility.
272 pages, Hardcover
Published March 7, 2023
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Jason Yamas
1 book25 followersJason Yamas is a writer, producer and actor. His debut memoir Tweakerworld won the 2024 Lambda Literary Award for Best Gay Memoir. He holds a BFA from NYU, Tisch School of the Arts and is working on his first novel while developing Tweakerworld as a television series. He lives in Los Angeles, has a Chiweenie named Spektor and a beautiful daughter named Swayze. He is represented by Laura Usselman at Stuart Krichevsky Literary Agency.
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February 5, 2023
Tweakerworld is a nonfiction story told by Jason Yamas. Looking for a new beginning, Jason moves from L.A. to Berkeley with his younger brother. Jason is harboring a secret addiction when he is introduced to a subculture of the Bay Area’s gay community: a wild world full of drugs, group sex, and criminals.
Jason finds himself dealing and soon after he finds himself in control of the entire meth market for San Fransisco’s gay community. Jason’s family and friends struggle to get him into recovery but Jason refuses and instead seeks a sleepless nirvana fueled by sex, drugs, and the tweakerworld.
Tweakerworld takes us inside the mind of someone in the throes of addiction. But not just that, we also get a look inside a marginalized and often forgotten community suffering from addiction.
Tweakerworld is raw and gritty. Jason candidly opens up and discusses a topic that society often brushes under the rug or willfully ignores. Jason’s account of addiction is boldly honest and vulnerable but there are also plenty of humorous moments. I found myself both tearing up and laughing out loud at several points.
I absolutely loved Tweakerworld. Jason is clearly a talented author and I feel like this story is so important. It opened my eyes to so many issues but I feel the most important takeaway is instead of judging or easily dismissing someone suffering from addiction, we should all have a great deal of empathy for them. After all addiction can happen to anyone.
Tweakerworld by Jason Yamas will be available on March 7, 2023. A massive thanks to both Jason and Unnamed Press for the gifted copy!
Jason finds himself dealing and soon after he finds himself in control of the entire meth market for San Fransisco’s gay community. Jason’s family and friends struggle to get him into recovery but Jason refuses and instead seeks a sleepless nirvana fueled by sex, drugs, and the tweakerworld.
Tweakerworld takes us inside the mind of someone in the throes of addiction. But not just that, we also get a look inside a marginalized and often forgotten community suffering from addiction.
Tweakerworld is raw and gritty. Jason candidly opens up and discusses a topic that society often brushes under the rug or willfully ignores. Jason’s account of addiction is boldly honest and vulnerable but there are also plenty of humorous moments. I found myself both tearing up and laughing out loud at several points.
I absolutely loved Tweakerworld. Jason is clearly a talented author and I feel like this story is so important. It opened my eyes to so many issues but I feel the most important takeaway is instead of judging or easily dismissing someone suffering from addiction, we should all have a great deal of empathy for them. After all addiction can happen to anyone.
Tweakerworld by Jason Yamas will be available on March 7, 2023. A massive thanks to both Jason and Unnamed Press for the gifted copy!
April 3, 2023
A fast paced read and worth the time
If you’re going to write about meth dealing and addiction it helps to write fast and tight prose. An interesting story, well told. Supposedly this is also for those not in the world of addiction and PnP life but I find it hard to fathom a modern, urban, queer who has not been touched by the type of life discussed here. And really, is Mary from Peoria gonna pick this book up?
If you’re going to write about meth dealing and addiction it helps to write fast and tight prose. An interesting story, well told. Supposedly this is also for those not in the world of addiction and PnP life but I find it hard to fathom a modern, urban, queer who has not been touched by the type of life discussed here. And really, is Mary from Peoria gonna pick this book up?
December 5, 2023
A harrowing look at drug use in the gay community, specifically San Fransisco. I could not put this down and tore through it in two days. As the memoir goes on the writing style reflects the psychosis Yamas was experiencing at the time. This is also the second book in a row that has made me come close to crying because of a cat.
Would definitely recommend to anyone in the LGBTQIA+ community, but if you're straight there might be some graphic scenes here depicting hook up / drug culture. This also comes with a handful of trigger warnings, but that may be obvious with the subject matter.
Would definitely recommend to anyone in the LGBTQIA+ community, but if you're straight there might be some graphic scenes here depicting hook up / drug culture. This also comes with a handful of trigger warnings, but that may be obvious with the subject matter.
January 17, 2023
Tweakerworld is a rollercoaster of a memoir: a thrilling and funny account of Yamas's swift takeover of the criminal underworld, as well as a heartfelt and forthright portrait of his--and his community's--struggle with addiction.
June 20, 2024
Every queer person should read this book. Every person who has ever experimented with drugs, any ally worth a shit, and people who think they will never touch drugs should read this. A vulnerable memoir shows Jason Yamas in the throws of meth addiction, specifically in the PnP (ParTy n Play) queer scene. This is a particular queer underground that is often dismissed and disrespected. Regular Gays want to act like it doesn’t exist, it’s below them, but PnP is just a tap away on any app like Grindr. The highest highs and deepest, most traumatizing lows can all be seen through the vivid retelling of Jason’s experiences during his time spent in TweakerWorld.
February 4, 2023
This is one of the most interesting and moving memoirs I’ve read in a long time.
The story itself is fast paced, and was hard to put down. But it has documentary value as well, describing a largely undocumented subculture and escalating epedimic in the gay community.
Yamas’ voice shines through the page in an incredibly distinct tone, and he expertly conveys the lived experience of his own addiction, in a way that many others writing about the topic have struggled to do.
The story itself is fast paced, and was hard to put down. But it has documentary value as well, describing a largely undocumented subculture and escalating epedimic in the gay community.
Yamas’ voice shines through the page in an incredibly distinct tone, and he expertly conveys the lived experience of his own addiction, in a way that many others writing about the topic have struggled to do.
November 29, 2023
I really wanted to love it. It had a great beginning 60%. Last 40% seemed more egotistical than most memoirs I have read. Would have loved to seen some reflection.
February 3, 2023
Tweakerworld was an incredible dive into the terrifyingly fascinating world of drug use within the gay community. Jason recounts his experience as a drug user and dealer in the San Francisco Bay Area, befriending an interesting group of fellow "tweakers", parTying with a capital T, and hiding his secret drug fueled life from his family and lifelong friends. This story sheds light on what it is like to experience addiction, the dangers involved, and the triumph of making it out of the darkness.
February 26, 2024
The amount of people I talked to about this book while reading it is borderline obnoxious. I was obsessed! I ate it all up, and even at the end I was blown away by Yamas’s ability to tell his story through such a raw and fast-paces memoir. He keeps an unflinching eye on the gay subculture of ParTy and Play, an environment that ensnares gay men and wrings them dry, often taking everything from them, including their life. As he says in the epilogue, this memoir is Yamas’s rallying cry, and I’m so glad I was caught in its reverberations.
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“In the small wins, in the mundane, I can't find the joy I need to persist. No-drown me in a pool of indulgence. Blind me to the sight of grief. Give me good. Give me great. Make me feel unstoppable, unbeatable, unassailable.”
“If we mentioned doing coke or Molly, no one would bat an eye. Meth is a bad word, an impetus for ostracism. Yet I've found ways to normalize it: by making it my currency, my purpose, my identity, and my story.”
“Zander's comment that all fishies start small until they eat and eat some more because they don't know how to stop is making more sense. I wonder why I can't stop. Addicts don't become someone else when they use. We inhabit our worst self.”
“I spent a decade trying to reconcile homosexual desire with a longing for approval, resulting in paralyzing shame. I discovered a potion that quashes discomfort and emboldens reckless sexual practices, masquerading as free love. I invented a thousand ways to rationalize my addiction while eagerly waiting to hear the words that would never come: Sweet boy, you are righteous in your sexuality. Your compulsion is fear. Your anger is your pain. Your love is beautiful. It need not hide in the darkness nor be lubricated by artificial compounds. Love vastly and proudly. Love others with cause. Love yourself without pause. For as long as you're breathing, it is never too late.”
“Doing something bad for us because it feels good isn't a paradox exclusively designed for addicts; we're just the experts.”
“The reasons relapse occurs are manifold. The reason it lasts is shame. Shame is a defining characteristic within queerness and addiction. The effect of combining them is injurious. The gay community suffers a crisis of shame. Society has long told us that who we are is inherently wrong, that it must be changed or extirpated. We've witnessed progress, but this trauma runs deep. Meth functions as a false antidote, seemingly converting shame into pride, permitting men to engage in their sexuality in excess, unlocking a barbaric force that is ultimately detrimental to our well-being. But healing is possible.”
“Embrace cheese and oversentimentality. Don't run from being a cliché. There's a lot of joy there. What is a cliché besides a story worth repeating?”
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“In the small wins, in the mundane, I can't find the joy I need to persist. No-drown me in a pool of indulgence. Blind me to the sight of grief. Give me good. Give me great. Make me feel unstoppable, unbeatable, unassailable.”
“If we mentioned doing coke or Molly, no one would bat an eye. Meth is a bad word, an impetus for ostracism. Yet I've found ways to normalize it: by making it my currency, my purpose, my identity, and my story.”
“Zander's comment that all fishies start small until they eat and eat some more because they don't know how to stop is making more sense. I wonder why I can't stop. Addicts don't become someone else when they use. We inhabit our worst self.”
“I spent a decade trying to reconcile homosexual desire with a longing for approval, resulting in paralyzing shame. I discovered a potion that quashes discomfort and emboldens reckless sexual practices, masquerading as free love. I invented a thousand ways to rationalize my addiction while eagerly waiting to hear the words that would never come: Sweet boy, you are righteous in your sexuality. Your compulsion is fear. Your anger is your pain. Your love is beautiful. It need not hide in the darkness nor be lubricated by artificial compounds. Love vastly and proudly. Love others with cause. Love yourself without pause. For as long as you're breathing, it is never too late.”
“Doing something bad for us because it feels good isn't a paradox exclusively designed for addicts; we're just the experts.”
“The reasons relapse occurs are manifold. The reason it lasts is shame. Shame is a defining characteristic within queerness and addiction. The effect of combining them is injurious. The gay community suffers a crisis of shame. Society has long told us that who we are is inherently wrong, that it must be changed or extirpated. We've witnessed progress, but this trauma runs deep. Meth functions as a false antidote, seemingly converting shame into pride, permitting men to engage in their sexuality in excess, unlocking a barbaric force that is ultimately detrimental to our well-being. But healing is possible.”
“Embrace cheese and oversentimentality. Don't run from being a cliché. There's a lot of joy there. What is a cliché besides a story worth repeating?”
February 22, 2023
i don’t even know where to begin! to say i feel moved is beyond an understand; i feel catapulted, in the best way possible.
right off the bat, i’m beyond blown away by the author’s storytelling skills. the mastery he has over tension—building it, releasing it, doing both at the same time! not to be crass, but it truly feels like literary edging. brava!
the other thing i love the most? how tender it is. and how that tenderness transcends the turbulence of that world. i think i might love this aspect of the book the most—that consistent heartbeat. i also see so much of myself in the author, and in many of the decisions he’s made. i relate to so much, even though i’ve never been a part of that specific community. but i’ve loved people who were, and seeing how he took such good care of them with his words made my heart swell.
right off the bat, i’m beyond blown away by the author’s storytelling skills. the mastery he has over tension—building it, releasing it, doing both at the same time! not to be crass, but it truly feels like literary edging. brava!
the other thing i love the most? how tender it is. and how that tenderness transcends the turbulence of that world. i think i might love this aspect of the book the most—that consistent heartbeat. i also see so much of myself in the author, and in many of the decisions he’s made. i relate to so much, even though i’ve never been a part of that specific community. but i’ve loved people who were, and seeing how he took such good care of them with his words made my heart swell.
May 17, 2024
If I had a nickel for every time I’ve read a book about queer people being addicted to drugs I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it happened twice.
February 3, 2024
I loved this! I mean like, I loved the structure and the characters. I couldn’t slow down. Like addiction itself, the story ramps up in an all-consuming way. The gradual psychosis feels inescapable as a reader, it left me dizzy
February 6, 2023
Simply magnificent. Couldn’t keep my eyes of it.
December 18, 2023
it's really good but, i'm sorry, i can't believe it. like it's maybe 50% true at most. not trying to start a conspiracy though. yamas wrote a very entertaining book & that's all that matters to me
August 16, 2023
Tweakerworld by Jason Yamas is a captivating read that offers an insightful look into the hidden world of drug use within the gay community. Yamas, a former meth addict himself, tells his story with honesty and compassion, and he does not shy away from the dark side of addiction. However, he also shows the hope and resilience that can be found in even the most difficult circumstances.
Yamas's writing is raw and unflinching, and he does not sugarcoat the reality of addiction. However, he also shows the strength and resilience of the human spirit, and he offers hope to those who are struggling with addiction. Tweakerworld is an important book that sheds light on a hidden world that is often misunderstood. It is a must-read for anyone who wants to understand the complexities of addiction and the power of recovery.
Yamas's writing is raw and unflinching, and he does not sugarcoat the reality of addiction. However, he also shows the strength and resilience of the human spirit, and he offers hope to those who are struggling with addiction. Tweakerworld is an important book that sheds light on a hidden world that is often misunderstood. It is a must-read for anyone who wants to understand the complexities of addiction and the power of recovery.
December 12, 2024
This started out SO strong—very gripping and unsettling. But the latter half of the book is hard to follow; lots of people to keep track of, and times where it feels like the important stuff is happening off-page and we're just watching the aftermath with little explanation of what we missed. An important book for sure, and I'm glad the writer is insistent upon the value of bringing this world to light, but I think the first half is more successful in raising awareness than the second half, which feels more like a narcotic trafficking thriller than a thoughtful reflection about addiction and the gay community.
3/5
3/5
August 5, 2023
Wow. This book will stay with me for a long time. I honestly couldn't believe it was a true story, but that's probably why the author wanted to share his story. The world he lived in does exist, just in the shadows of society.
Definitely not for everyone and some parts were really hard to read. Best book I've read so far this year.
Definitely not for everyone and some parts were really hard to read. Best book I've read so far this year.
April 19, 2025
Gripping, chaotic, amped-up and funny. Storytelling that feels delusional and honest, and sometimes like falling down a dark well. The author says it best: “I’ve written this book as an experiential journey, not a moralistic cautionary tale.”
May 18, 2023
Powerful story. Very personal to me as I am friends with Jason’s mom. Strong. Book is well written but kept me from sleeping for 2 nights.
June 28, 2023
I read the audiobook version of this, which I think really helped the author's (literal and figurative) voice come through. His writing matched his mental state as he progressed through the book, starting off like a clever podcast and slowly descending to the ramblings of a hardcore drug addict. Yet he maintained enough lucidity throughout that even when he was at his most paranoid, I still had trouble knowing for sure what was real and what was the result of his drug-addled brain.
The story did have some distracting nonsequitors and he seemed to have difficulty sticking the landing, often building towards what felt like a poignant moment, only to flub it with a cliche (at one point, he seems to be getting close to working out why he has trouble with commitment, only to tell us that some people confuse sex and love).
Despite its dark subject matter, it was an upbeat memoir with some great tongue-in-cheek humor that humanized a group of people often dismissed by society.
The story did have some distracting nonsequitors and he seemed to have difficulty sticking the landing, often building towards what felt like a poignant moment, only to flub it with a cliche (at one point, he seems to be getting close to working out why he has trouble with commitment, only to tell us that some people confuse sex and love).
Despite its dark subject matter, it was an upbeat memoir with some great tongue-in-cheek humor that humanized a group of people often dismissed by society.
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July 16, 2023Grateful that most of things I read come to me at times where I need it the most. I got through 90% of it not even knowing it was actually a memoir. This book is one where reality and story telling just bleed into each other. Yes, it was Jason’s story but also the story of countless other queers struggling with addiction that come before and after. Thinking of my late friend Johnny and the countless kind hearted people I met that comprised his world ❤️
July 8, 2023
Big “go ask Alice” vibes.
July 6, 2024
Tweakerworld really got me parTying again.
June 29, 2024
this book was absolutely fantastic. jason’s memoir explores the lengths addicts will go to maintain their addiction and how that plays a role in the gay community. so far this is my favorite book i’ve read in 2024.
i decided this would be my next read because my father has suffered from addiction my whole life & without me having to experience it, i want to understand how and why drugs can take such hold on some folks. jason waisted no time (which i love) and it started where he was using crystal meth recreationally, in lieu of adderol. then, how he started attending sex parties and how rampant drug usage was there with meth and GBL. he shares his experience from childhood where he helped out at his families hotel, so his entrepreneurial mindset lead him to selling drugs, too. before he knew it he was the biggest meth & GBL dealer to the gay community in san francisco. it explores everything from why he was using (he initially wanted to create a film about it), how the drugs affected him and the people he loved, and how strong of a hold his addiction and business had on him.
another aspect i loved is how fast paced and concentrated the book was. while everything was happening so quickly i still understood the stories and what he was trying to convey. the pace of the book reflects the pace of the meth he was using, which i found to be a very thoughtful touch.
for me, i found this absolutely compelling. i was fond of jason & felt compassion towards him, regardless of any mistakes he made along the way. this helped me see a new perspective to try to understand my family, that addiction snowballs so quickly and a lot of the times people can’t make it out. i found this book personally beneficial, educational, and truly opened my mind. i could not be happier that jason had a loving family that didn’t give up on him. i don’t know him aside from the book but i truly feel so proud of him. i already want to re read this, thank you for sharing the most raw and vulnerable moments from your journey. 🩷
i decided this would be my next read because my father has suffered from addiction my whole life & without me having to experience it, i want to understand how and why drugs can take such hold on some folks. jason waisted no time (which i love) and it started where he was using crystal meth recreationally, in lieu of adderol. then, how he started attending sex parties and how rampant drug usage was there with meth and GBL. he shares his experience from childhood where he helped out at his families hotel, so his entrepreneurial mindset lead him to selling drugs, too. before he knew it he was the biggest meth & GBL dealer to the gay community in san francisco. it explores everything from why he was using (he initially wanted to create a film about it), how the drugs affected him and the people he loved, and how strong of a hold his addiction and business had on him.
another aspect i loved is how fast paced and concentrated the book was. while everything was happening so quickly i still understood the stories and what he was trying to convey. the pace of the book reflects the pace of the meth he was using, which i found to be a very thoughtful touch.
for me, i found this absolutely compelling. i was fond of jason & felt compassion towards him, regardless of any mistakes he made along the way. this helped me see a new perspective to try to understand my family, that addiction snowballs so quickly and a lot of the times people can’t make it out. i found this book personally beneficial, educational, and truly opened my mind. i could not be happier that jason had a loving family that didn’t give up on him. i don’t know him aside from the book but i truly feel so proud of him. i already want to re read this, thank you for sharing the most raw and vulnerable moments from your journey. 🩷
October 3, 2025
“At this very moment, an impressionable, young queer is on a smartphone app and is being asked, ‘You wanna party?’ Someone must tell them what that means… what that really fucking means.”
I’ve seen the word “unflinching” being used a lot to describe the vibe of this book, and I must say that is incredibly apt. I’m super impressed with Yamas’ fearless voice throughout this high octane work that reads sort of like Bret Easton Ellis meets Irvine Welsh with a thumping EDM pulse that had me endlessly teetering between arousal and abject horror; amusement and utter heartbreak. The reading experience was exhilarating, exhausting, and, well… addicting. His story is an illuminating look into the realities of a hidden world just beneath the one we know — a peek into Tweakerworld — where inner darkness disguises itself as a sense of belonging. Yamas invites us to explore this realm from the safety of our own private libraries, stripped of any preachy-after-school-special platitudes, and gives it to is fast and hard. The narrative moves with a breakneck pace that gave me the kind of whiplash I’m a sucker for.
Riveting and unforgettable.
I’ve seen the word “unflinching” being used a lot to describe the vibe of this book, and I must say that is incredibly apt. I’m super impressed with Yamas’ fearless voice throughout this high octane work that reads sort of like Bret Easton Ellis meets Irvine Welsh with a thumping EDM pulse that had me endlessly teetering between arousal and abject horror; amusement and utter heartbreak. The reading experience was exhilarating, exhausting, and, well… addicting. His story is an illuminating look into the realities of a hidden world just beneath the one we know — a peek into Tweakerworld — where inner darkness disguises itself as a sense of belonging. Yamas invites us to explore this realm from the safety of our own private libraries, stripped of any preachy-after-school-special platitudes, and gives it to is fast and hard. The narrative moves with a breakneck pace that gave me the kind of whiplash I’m a sucker for.
Riveting and unforgettable.
March 17, 2024
Wow, this is a full-speed ahead, non-stop ride of a memoir. I finished it in two days. There’s a sincere and important message here but it’s also a solid work of creative nonfiction; very effective prose and captivating storytelling.
At a certain point the writing reflects the psychosis the author was experiencing, and after some pages of this the book lost a bit of its energy for me — as it’s hard to keep caring about a world that is so detached from reality— but for the most part this was unputdownable.
The funny thing is, throughout his meth addiction the author convinced himself he was experiencing everything for the sake of a future movie, and in some sense that dream did come to life as he eventually turned it into a book. So in a way, that line of thinking was not entirely delusional.
I’m grateful for the author sharing his experiences and creativity with the world, and for his efforts to draw attention and compassion to the ParTy and Play community, and the underlying shame, trauma and homophobia that drives it.
At a certain point the writing reflects the psychosis the author was experiencing, and after some pages of this the book lost a bit of its energy for me — as it’s hard to keep caring about a world that is so detached from reality— but for the most part this was unputdownable.
The funny thing is, throughout his meth addiction the author convinced himself he was experiencing everything for the sake of a future movie, and in some sense that dream did come to life as he eventually turned it into a book. So in a way, that line of thinking was not entirely delusional.
I’m grateful for the author sharing his experiences and creativity with the world, and for his efforts to draw attention and compassion to the ParTy and Play community, and the underlying shame, trauma and homophobia that drives it.
December 1, 2025
This book feels like it was written before the author had a chance to fully realize just how terrible a person he is/was. Even his preening author photo on the label shows that he is still a big fan of himself rather than a humbled addict who regularly endangered lives.
The multiple stories of him passing out while driving in sf will give me nightmares for months. I grew up in sf. My nephews grew up in sf. We all deserve better than to have our lives be put at risk by this piece of shit
Another thing showing that this book was written before the author had adequate perspective is the tone and writing style. The flow is staccato, like an addicts brain. And his word choice is laughably pompous and verbose, which underlines his lack of humility.
It upsets me that he’s successfully going to turn his bad behavior into a “next chapter” for himself.
And the author’s ending notes just confirm his narcissism: he takes no responsibility for his actions. Blaming gay shame and the drug epidemic. He is just an awful person.
The multiple stories of him passing out while driving in sf will give me nightmares for months. I grew up in sf. My nephews grew up in sf. We all deserve better than to have our lives be put at risk by this piece of shit
Another thing showing that this book was written before the author had adequate perspective is the tone and writing style. The flow is staccato, like an addicts brain. And his word choice is laughably pompous and verbose, which underlines his lack of humility.
It upsets me that he’s successfully going to turn his bad behavior into a “next chapter” for himself.
And the author’s ending notes just confirm his narcissism: he takes no responsibility for his actions. Blaming gay shame and the drug epidemic. He is just an awful person.
June 23, 2023
Absolutely phenomenal. Jason's depiction of his spiral into the throws of addiction is raw, unfiltered and exactly the type of account the world needs to read. Chapter after chapter he shares the good, the bad, the humorous and the self deprecating ins and outs of his journey. His tone isnt moralistic, braggy or condescending. He is here to simply tell his truth for anyone ready to hear it. I commend his bravery and am grateful he was willing to be so vulnerable as to share this part of himself- to help those who do not know this life to better empathize, to inspire hope among those actively in addiction that they too can come back, and to provide a thoroughly. entertaining and depraved tale for all.
January 10, 2025
Jason’s story is a brutally honest, cautionary tale. Drug use in the Queer community is an overlooked epidemic and this experiential story sheds light on the violence, heartbreak and paranoia that comes with getting caught up in the world of addiction. Jason yearns to be a hero in a world where there are no clear protagonists or antagonists.
As the reader, it was difficult to pinpoint when Jason was a reliable narrator and when he was experiencing deep psychosis. There are no easy transitions in the book, because his ride was anything but smooth sailing. His consistent “othering” of drug users eventually turns into a breakthrough where he acknowledges himself as an addict. I’m relieved Jason Yamas lived to tell his story, his way.
As the reader, it was difficult to pinpoint when Jason was a reliable narrator and when he was experiencing deep psychosis. There are no easy transitions in the book, because his ride was anything but smooth sailing. His consistent “othering” of drug users eventually turns into a breakthrough where he acknowledges himself as an addict. I’m relieved Jason Yamas lived to tell his story, his way.
February 22, 2023
Jason has taken a topic that not many choose to talk about. It’s a dark world that is hard to escape but he some how manages to take the raw, scary parts and mixes them with his charming sense of humor. This helps the reader dive into the universe without feeling trapped but they also get a sense of what Jason and the plethora of characters are going through. It’s a battle that many can not survive. There is a light at the end of the tunnel in this portrayal but it doesn’t come without some hard realization by the author and the reader. You won’t want to put this down and I guarantee it will be difficult for you not to read it in one sitting.
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