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169 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 1983
He must have been one of those very special people, beloved of the gods, for whom time is elastic and can always be stretched out to play with a child.
Generally speaking, I do not think that one should ever take another person’s advice in the things of life that really matter, but follow the dictates of the still small something in one’s innermost self.
There are times when life seems to fall into complete patterns, with all the loose ends neatly darned in. It could be chance, or it could be that Fate has a sense of pattern, or it could be God taking an interest.
I could, in fact, walk reasonably well; and my mother was determined that I should be able to walk two miles. If you could walk two miles, she said, you could get to most places you needed to go. Actually, this is a fallacy. The fact that you can, with great difficulty, and taking an unconscionable time about it, walk two miles, will not get you anywhere you need, or at any rate want, to go. There were times when a wheelchair would have added another dimension to my life, but that was a forbidden subject; and it was not until many, many years later, long after my father and I were alone, that I took the law into my own hands and bought one; and instantly, dazzled with the new freedom that it bought me, swept my father off to his old haunts on an Hellenic cruise.There are other bits I wanted to quote, but to keep this post to a reasonable length (and to encourage you to read the book yourself if you are curious) I will just say that to my untrained eye, what Sutcliff says about physical disability (she said little about any other kind) would not be out of place in a Blogging Against Disablism blog carnival.
Jean and I had, as I think a great many best friends have, a secret world of our own. We had only to say, 'Let's be Lilian and Diana,' and, as though it was a magical formula, step straight into a world that was as real to us as the world of school and parents and cornflakes for breakfast. It was a boarding-school world [...]I would also like to show you something from the end, about a relationship she was in, and what happened to it. But I can't just quote it. That part builds up from early on in the book, from what she's said about about her family dynamics, and loneliness, and how she and her family and English society in the 1940s thought about her disability. It is complex and humane and sad in a way that utterly defies pity.
In the summer after my father retired, Jean came to stay with me in North Devon. On the first morning, we retired to the rustic summerhouse. 'Let's be Lilian and Diana ...'
But the magic formula no longer worked. We tried and tried; but one could only act Lilian and Diana; we could not be them any more. I suppose the break had been too long, and we were just too old. We went on trying for days, searching for the way in. But it was like searching for the lost door to a lost country. Finally, without anything actually being said between us, we gave up and turned to other things. But with Lilian and Diana, something of Jean and Rosemary had gone too...