A Gift
Just when you seem to yourself
Nothing but a flimsy web
Of questions, you are given
The questions of others to hold
In the emptiness of your hands,
Songbird eggs that can still hatch
If you keep them warm,
Butterflies opening and closing themselves
In your cupped palms, trusting you not to injure
Their scintillant fur, their dust.
You are given the questions of others
As if they were answers
To all you ask. Yes, perhaps
This gift is your answer.
This was published a year or two before the poet died, and is filled with such vivid awe of nature and of spirit. There was no poem in this collection that didn't move me. Just, wow. Of a dream, "after I woke, wondering still/what in me he was, and who/ the I was that took that long short-cut with him..."; of impending death, "...A sunset of such aqueous hints, subdued/ opaline gleamings,/ in this green symbiosis of elder and wildening rose, the evening wind is pulsing/...for the first time, the certainty of return/to this imprinted scene, unchanging but for the height/ of green thicket, rising year by year beyond the cobwebbed windowpanes,/ can not be assumed." I think she invents words like wildening that quietly describes simple beauty and attaches it to the world, to love, to dying and aging, to faith. About our connection to the sea, to nature: "When distant ocean's big V of silver/reaches straight up, rearing/between the hills that hold it,/don't' you feel you could go and go/swift as a hurricane till you/flung yourself at its wall..." About fading memory: "In each mind, even the most candid,/there are forests, where needled haze overshadows/ the slippery duff...or else where mangroves, proliferant, vine-entwisted,/ loom over warm mud that slowly bubbles...privacies and the deep terrain to received them." Each time I reread a poem, it becomes my favorite.
In Summer
When the light, late in the afternoon, pauses among
The highest branches of the highest trees,
They stir a little, as if in pleasure. Light and a passing breeze
Become one and the same, a caress. Then the lower branches,
Leaves, or needles in shadow, take up the lilt
Of that response, their green with a hint of blue forming
What, if it were sound, could be called
A chord with the almost yellow of those
The sunlight tarries with.
Agon
The sea was barely crinkled, breathing
Calmly. Islands and shore
Pure darkness, uncompromised,
Outline and mass without
Perplexity of component forms,
The salt grasses at water’s edge
A frieze, immobile. All of this
A visible gravity,
Not sad but serious.
And above,
The light to which this somber peace
Has not yet awoken, the sun
Struggling to rise as one fights sometimes
To break out of fearful dreams
Unable to shout or move- and clouds
In delicate brilliance sweeping
Long aquiline curves, wild arabesques
Across the east, drinking the rising
Light, light, as it streams
Out from that mortal struggle from which
The sun is already gasping free.
Like Noah’s Rainbow
And again-after an absence
Of months, first his, then mine-
When I return greyhearted
To the sunny shore, and find
St. Simon Heron has returned too:
That startled, glad
Intake of breath, that sense
Of blessing! Surely these sightings,
Familiar but always
Strange with unearned joy,
Are a sign of a covenant it’s
Grossly churlish to disregard. Heavily,
I begin to lift my wings.
Looking, Walking, Being
I look and look.
Looking’s a way of being: one becomes,
Sometimes, a pair of eyes walking.
Walking wherever looking takes one.
The eyes
Dig and burrow in the world.
They touch
Fanfare, howl, madrigal, clamor.
World and the past of it,
Not only
Visible present, solid and shadow
That looks at one looking.
And language? Rhythms
Of echo and interruption?
That’s
A way of breathing,
breathing to sustain
Looking,
Walking and looking,
Through the world,
In it.
Primary Wonder
Days pass when I forget the mystery.
Problems insoluble and problems offering
their own ignored solutions
jostle for my attention, they crowd its antechamber
along with a host of diversions, my courtiers, wearing
their colored clothes; caps and bells.
And then
once more the quiet mystery
is present to me, the throng's clamor
recedes: the mystery
that there is anything, anything at all,
let alone cosmos, joy, memory, everything,
rather than void: and that, 0 Lord,
Creator, Hallowed one, You still,
hour by hour sustain it.