One of the very very rare BL that can actually pull faux-incest off. The common approach to the theme is like this: MC agonizing over having feelings for bro => found out the two aren't related => feeling liberated and the two live happily ever after, which is absolutely anti-climax n hell I always feel like I got scammed after reading those kind of BL. I'd rather read legit incest stories where the MCs have to deal with guilt and anxiety forever. This book was a huge surprise for me. The approach was just so unique and intriguing it truly made me in awe. The bottom was prolly one of the most complex characters that I've ever come across in BL. His repressed depression, the contrast between his cheerfulness and his unconscious yearning for death sent a chill down my spine. His despair and exhaustion with life wasn't portrayed in the more conventional way of using internal dialogue that states clearly how the character feel, but was revealed bits by bits through depiction of his drinking habit, his obsession with his job as a stuntman, his fragmented thoughts, his temporal shutdown of feelings, his playful and extrovert behaviors. He was not overtly depressed, he was not too self-destructive, he seemed fine, even he was trying to convince himself that he's fine. But this is the type of depressed person that's most worrisome because they never give out a clear signal that they need help, and they can leave the world so swiftly leaving people in utter shock. I felt like crying a lot of time reading his pov, thank god someone actually cared enough to realize how mentally unstable the bottom was and intervened just in time. The bottom's way of thinking, his sense of values and of what's important made perfect sense. His mental state was portrayed convincingly with a great deal of sensitivity. Just because the two of them aren't blood-related doesn't mean everything is solved. They've been living together under one roof as brothers for 20 years, that connection cannot be changed so easily, especially when there's also a huge lack of communication and anxiety due to their upbringing environment. It was the moment of "revelation" that pushed the bottom, as well as the top, to the corner, not liberated them. Even until the very end of the book, the relationship between them hadn't reached a point of stability yet, but that's exactly what made the story feel real (man I know this sounds so wrong for a (faux) incest book). Unique storyline, interesting and multidimensional characters, definitely a yes from me.