This book is horrible, one of the worst I’ve ever had the misfortune to read. My review was almost 11 ½ pgs of pure rant and trying to cut it down was so much to contend with, I couldn’t even touch it for over 2 yrs. This is so atrociously bad, I wish I’d never laid eyes on it. I’ve never read such crap in all my life.
I expected this to be one of the greats, a must-read, &like Mulan. I instantly didn’t like Takiko. The author tried her hardest to make her bad, and when an author tries that hard, it’s going to work. She ensured that I HATED her. She is one of, if not the, worst characters I’ve ever read. Everything the author had her do and say was reprehensible. It’s like she wanted us to hate her. I can’t believe this was written much less published.
Takiko is 11. She thinks her maid’s stupid and all servants are stupid (they did talk crap about her dad, but still). She’s boastful and cocky. She pointed out her aunt (an adult) had no talent and never would, like she’s superior. She’s a masterful artist, couldn’t stand to be instructed by her aunt, who she considered a beginner.
Her dad was going off to war and she didn’t show 1 ounce of worry. She swelled with pride, got tired of him talking when he should be riding off to battle. Most kids would be worried about their dad getting killed, but not her. She thinks of what she can gain. The servants would admire her then. All she cared about was herself.
Her dad dies, and she says she wanted him to go and be a hero and killed him. Then later she decides she hasn’t, she’d only wanted what he wanted. Way to absolve yourself of all guilt. And a mature thought for an 11 yo..
Her aunt found a distant relative, a potter, for her mom to marry. Her mom told Takiko the news, but she’s bored because she’s not the center of attention. She’s eager to be on her way and delighted they’re leaving, doesn’t want to live with her aunt. She didn’t even care that her mom had to marry an ugly man so soon after her husband was killed in battle. Her aunt kept hugging and kissing her before she left and Takiko was impatient. She sucked.
She considers her step-dad, Goro, to be a brown creature. He’s no taller than her, has arms that hang down to his knees, eyes like slits in a face as brown as a chestnut. He’s part Korean. He says what a pretty child and goes to touch her hair and Takiko the brat shrinks away, saying “No. Don’t let it touch me” as if he’s a monster and not a person.
Her mom was stern and cold with her after, and Takiko thought she was doomed to hell, that her mom belonged to the devil or that he’s the devil and bewitched her mom. She refused to speak to the servants, because they’re part of the terrible household, and doesn’t want to eat. Her childishness ruined the story.
Goro came up to her once and she cringed. The day of the celebration Takiko bowed to him and apologized for her rudeness and called him father. He said there’s nothing to forgive—what isn’t true—and she fled to the kitchens. She should have been grateful he was so nice. She didn’t deserve it.
Goro came to her room the night of her bro’s birth, worrying that it’s going to be like him and he said if it is he’ll want to kill it. I was absolutely astounded that the author had him go so far as to say he’d want to kill his baby. Takiko thought her handsome samurai dad never got an heir, but Goro got a beautiful son so fast and it’s unfair.
He taught her pottery and when she didn’t do good he laughed and she pouted and told him not to laugh at her. He praised her work over the next months and it annoyed her because “it confirmed her fears that the pottery was less than good” because he didn’t praise her music like that. Poor u.
Takiko’s body begins to change and she’d watch her mom nursing and “something like tenderness would stir in her own young breasts.” Ew. That’s nasty. This suddenly turned into sex. ed class.
Takiko considered Ichiro to be a brat of a man-child. Funny coming from her. He goes missing and Goro finds him near the river. In crazy behavior Goro calls him a silly little fool and hits Ichiro’s legs with a switch. He tears up, but it was bad to call him a fool.
All of a sudden she’s 13 and the merchant, Kamaji, noticed how beautiful she is. He tells them they should take her to court because such beauty and talent are of the Gods. Takiko’s flattered. “If she had such beauty and such talent, wasn’t it right that she should share it?” Give her a bigger ego. Just what we needed.
She’s jealous of her brother &bored but the main reason she wants to go is because she eagerly accepts his words and needs to have it acknowledged and praised.
“But who liked her because her hair shone and her breasts made a gentle sloping line under her garments?” She needs admiration, solely for her looks, not praise from Fusa and Goro for being clever and eager, not from her mom, but from boys who’ll notice these things, and who would notice that around here? “Fusa’s clottish nephews?” Judgmental and conceited.
At the palace there was a man in the shadows who said “I find her chilled and trembling on the forest floor and fain would bear her gentle to my nest.” And Takiko, suddenly this knowing, sexual being at 13, blushed and shook. “The meaning of the couplet was self-evident, even a person as naïve to court life as she understood the poet’s intent.”
Takiko was at the temple to pray and he was there, in a monk’s robe but samurai’s top knot. He put a hand on her knee, called her a nightingale, and his hand burned through 12 layers of garments, her heart crashed through her breast and her throat was dry. Quite a reaction. I had no patience for her blossoming sexuality. He gave her a message for the princess and Takiko realized he’s an enemy Genji spy&the princess’ lover. That sucks. But she wants him to touch her. He has a warm, mannish odor of clean skin. She’s only 13. And why would she want to get with a man who’s having sex with someone?!
Takiko thinks of him, her enemy, her mistress’s lover, and felt it was a shame she didn’t even know his name! Do find out what the name of the man your mistress is sleeping with. Maybe you can share him. And she cries. Wth. YOU JUST MET HIM. It’s the 2nd time they met, the first that she’s even seen him. This was so freaking stupid.
Princess Aoi told Takiko not to love a man because love is cruel. And Takiko, the idiot, thought it was too late because she already loves, &knows how cruel it is. Make me laugh! And Takiko is just glad Aoi gave her his name, Hideo!
She wanted to leave because she’s jealous of Aoi, but she didn’t want to because she might not hear of Hideo. Instant love from a 13 yo for someone else’s man.
The Genji are coming and they flee. She’s stupid enough to be excited, like the enemy attacking the city isn’t a bad thing. In the carriage she has ample time to think of “giving herself up completely to her passion” with Hideo, him writing her a love poem and him climbing in her window…She imagined having sex with someone’s lover! And how would she even know about sex? This immature, juvenile 13 year old is by turn so childish it’s painful and then so mature it’s creepy. She giggled because her sleeves tangled around Mieko’s neck, and Lady Chujo tells her to be quiet, silly girl. Exactly. She is a silly girl.
She’s homesick—surprised, cuz she was excited to leave—and thought of her monkey father, realizing she loves him. She still called him that! Cheiko and Fusa cry when they learn Takiko left with the imperial family. She wasn’t worth it, proven when Takiko said she’d never felt more alive since she left Goro’s house. Ungrateful brat.
She taught everyone to make pottery, used water “that she as the master knew to be necessary.” How conceited. How nice the family that she’s glad to be rid of taught her skills she can use to show off and be superior. It’s important to be more beautiful, sing and play better, and do everything better than everyone else.
She wished Hideo could see her tan and felt disloyal, because that would mean the Heike and Genji would battle and Munemori wasn’t ready. Is she really longing for the battle in which her own Heike clan would battle the Genji, so she could see the enemy?
With no warning at all, the author skipped 7 months. She wrote things that aren’t rational and are just plain wrong. Takiko was excited about the fight at the fort. She admired the colors and flags, and the cries of battle and horses were “removed and fascinating.” Any girl should be scared and worried for the men. She had her be entertained.
Takiko was annoyed when Lady Chujo grabbed her sleeve and said they’re falling back. She said the woman’s ugly face was twitching agitatedly. If this author pointed out 1 more time that someone was ugly I was going to lose it. She can’t help she has a big nose. Takiko pointed out the Heiki were only falling back in the east, reciting her dad’s battle tales—something she’s never seen. Has to be wiser than adults.
The Genji won and they had to leave on a ship. She realized Hideo was one of the Genji, “1 of those terrible horsemen who flew down the mountainside as though on the back of the War God. As though spewn from the mouth of Heaven—or Hell. Were they Gods or demons? How awful they were, how magnificent!” Wtf. I tried to keep it together, but this dumb*** admired the enemy force who killed her OWN PEOPLE. I can’t fathom such stupidity. She prayed the loudest with the women to cover her traitorous heart.
She has no respect for elders, snaps at royals and contradicts them. She forgave the instrument its lack of perfection. How nice of her. General Munemori isn’t as fat as he was last year, but he’s still fat with a hanging stomach and rotten teeth. She’s repulsed which is understandable. His retainer gives her a note: “Upon my exile shines a crescent moon, let me find comfort in its golden rays.” She shouts for Meiko and throws it at her. They both think it’s bad and it was actually funny when she thinks of writing back: “The crescent moon looks down upon the fatted goose, and all her warmth turns cold.”
Hideo came when she was in the garden and she actually considered him the enemy. She burns at his touch, and thought his whisper was more exciting than his low voice, so it was ruined. He said it will be over and they can forget about clan and emperor and wraps his hand around her body. She wonders must he torture her so? Major eye roll. He asks how many men are there and she doesn’t answer. He says “Give me a few minutes. Let me get halfway up the hill. Then call anyone you like.”
Hideo tells her he doesn’t want his death on her hands and by the Gods he couldn’t bear to take hers. How dramatic. She called the guards when he was up the hill but no one believed her because he was gone. She bore the humiliation and is glad no one believed her, thought she did her duty as Heike. She for some reason thinks she did something heroic by being willing to betray the life of a stranger over her clan and emperor..Not quite. She waited for him to get away like he told her to.
Munemori didn’t want her because she’s hysterical and lost her favor. She lost her audience and tossed her hair, questioning what they know of music or true beauty. What a snob.
Everyone thinks she’s crazy cuz she cries a lot. She goes to a temple and he comes. He led her to a hut and sat her down, thinks she’s beautiful and lovely. Next chapter picks up with her walking back, clearly after it happened. Hideo slips a note, a traditional “next morning” poem. How could a 13 yo sleep with an older stranger, who slept with the princess and is an enemy? I couldn’t believe she slept with him! Who writes this?! Weren’t girls raised to avoid situations like this, or does she think it’s ok to have sex with the first man who offers?
Takiko marvels that he risked his life for the custom, snuck into the enemy’s camp to leave the poem. Everyone knows she’s in love but she can’t share his identity. “His life was more precious to her than eternal salvation.” She’d gladly go to hell as a traitor..?
Goro came and she could barely talk, expected Hideo—stupid bcuz obviously he’s not going to come inside the enemy’s palace—and told her their house was burned and her pregnant mom fled, wants her to come. Takiko was upset, said he asked too much. All she can think of is Hideo but she spins it that she plays for the emperor and she’s as imp as a Heike soldier and if her family can’t see that she’s sorry. Goro said she’s going to break her mom’s heart, and she thinks he’s unfair, cruel and self-righteous. It’s like she wanted readers to die of high blood pressure while we read her horrid creation.
Their place is set on fire and they go to the ship. Takiko says she’s going to watch the battle and give the men courage by her presence. High opinion of herself. Lady Chujo pointed out the danger and forbid it. But once again every1 sides with Takiko, like she’s so wise, saying the men will be cheered by their confidence. Lady Chujo has a soldier put up their flag and the Genji shoot it, proving their arrows can reach the ship. The soldiers later get onto Lady Chujo about attracting attention. Not Takiko tho, no one gets onto her for having the idea to go on deck. A plague fell on Goro’s house. Fusa, Cheiko, brother and unborn baby, all die. Goro curses Takiko, saying to hell with her. Bcuz Takiko hadn’t come, he’d had to send for Fusa, who knew there was a plague in her village but came anyway. Hear hear!
Takiko, 15 now—surprised she wasn’t pregnant—prayed for Hideo but was still irritated with Goro. Aging 2 years didn’t make her any more mature.
Almost all of the royal family jumps overboard to drown instead of be taken by Genji. So cruel that so many not only died but killed themselves. Takiko points out that a lady’s nose is red, huge, comic and more grotesque than ever. WTF is wrong with her that she’d say that at a time like this? “Not Lady Chujo, so ugly, so grotesque, even in the valiant act of death.” Takiko deserves to age and lose her beauty and him turn away in disgust and choose someone younger and more beautiful. She deserves to know the pain of not liking her looks and knowing the man she loves desires another. A plague on her.
Takiko dreams of being free “but to dream thus when those about her faced the annihilation of every dream seemed like further evidence of her traitorous nature.” At least she knows she sucks. How about character growth and changing your nature? At least the mob spit on her a lot. A small portion of what she deserves.
She thinks of going to Fusa’s nephews who spoke in guttural bursts of 1 syllable and wiped their noses on their sleeves, &everyone in town seems stupid. How freaking judgmental of her. When is she going to stop? Everything she thinks is mean.
She goes to Goro’s and finds an ugly piece but the bottom of the lid has a gold nightingale. I’m hoping he got so mad at the thought of her he was imagining the piece was her neck and when he sees her in person he’ll wring the real thing.
Kamaji says Goro is a strange little man and she’s mad. Suddenly protective of the man you call a monkey? How quaint.
She questions herself why Goro hates her. Gee, no idea? She can’t picture her mom ugly and dying. Gotta include the ugly part. Far be it from her to admit family was ugly, even in death, even with the plague. She considers Goro to be a monster, would leave but has to stay so Hideo can find her, clings to it like a baby monkey to its mom. Is she really referring to the creature she used to describe the ugliness of her stepdad?
She vows to keep at the field bcuz Goro doesn’t think she can. “I will show the little monkey I can be as stubborn as he is.” She’s as terrible as ever. It never occurred to her she’s responsible for her mom’s death. She deserved to die with the blood of her family on her hands.
She insists Goro killed Fusa’s nephew for stealing, ran out like an idiot, screaming no, what have you done you monster and how could you? She goes to grab the poker, he calls her a fool—at least the author knows what kind of character she created—and tells her to watch out. She trips—like a fool—and hits her cheek on it. She says it’s all right. She gets her footing and dignified posture, says she isn’t hurt. But then, oddly, after she had time to stand up, get her posture and talk, only then does the searing pain hit her. Strange. This moron actually has the nerve to say he killed her too. What kind of dumbass tries to take something from sum1, falls, gets hit and then blames them? He said watch out &he was afraid, even said her name. Giving every indication he tried to stop it & felt bad. She showed no growth whatsoever. May she die a slow death.
Pg. 156 she calls him a dwarf &his shadow grotesque. How about some humanity? He says he didn’t kill him and moans. And she’s like did he expect her to bear his pain &hers? Omg. He feels bad u got hurt and u consider it a burden? Die.
She thinks of Lady Chujo. “She smiled at the thought of Big Nose looking down at her...” She didn’t just go there. She’s dead, and for the love of god would you quit f&%$ing talking about ppl’s looks. Takiko has a scarred face and still won’t f&%^ing stop calling ppl ugly. The author thinks it’s ok to make fun of ppl. Learn a f&@ing lesson. I hoped the scar nvr left her face and Hideo turned away in revulsion and preferred another.
At least she knew what her MC deserved. Exactly what I wished happened. She’d never forget the look on Hideo’s face: revulsion or fear. He said he’d come back but she knew he wouldn’t. I almost laughed! I definitely smiled like the Grinch.
Instead of being crushed at her turn of fortune and loss of beauty, she thinks everything makes sense. Goro wanted to go with her to the capital bcuz it isn’t safe for women. She says no one takes her for a woman-HA!-&laughs and he says he does. She shouldn’t laugh; she should cry. She deserves misery. He asks if it’d embarrass her to walk with him and she sharply asks why it would. You little b%&$, YOU’VE SPENT THE ENTIRE TIME MAKING FUN OF HIM!
He says kids laugh and he’s very ugly. She says so am I. Having a scar, rough hands, and dull hair isn’t the same. She deserves to know what it feels like to have ppl laugh for features she can’t help. I was glad her beauty was ruined.
Goro made an offering for her &got her a gift. “His funny little bow with his long arms sweeping the ground” and monkey eyes bright. He stumps off. Wtf. &the author literally only uses the word “stumped” to describe how he walks.
Takiko wants to repay the debts of her pride and sins that brought her family and clan to ruin, wants to enter the convent and make amends. The empress asks about the gift and Takiko blushes. Wth? I had a suspicion ever since she went to him. Goro bought her an expensive garment with birds on it. And the offering is the crooked jug with the beauty inside. It must mean that beauty is more imp. on the inside. It’s a reverse tho, she’s ugly on the inside! The empress suggests she heal ppl with her music instead. She says the only ppl are Goro and peasants and thought to tell him he shud marry, he doesn’t have an heir. He needs many sons and if he married sum1 else she’d have nowhere to go. They’re used to each other, she’s strong &a good age to bear children. For the rest of this life she plans to serve, cook, work, warm his bed and bear him 12 children. I was worried it was going here since she got back, cuz her mom slept with him. He’s her step-dad! How freaking nasty to sleep with sum1 ur mom slept with. At the end she has a girl and Goro stumps once more into the room. She says it’s only a girl, he says isn’t that what you are. I was so grossed out and glad to be done with this piece of trash.