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First published August 29, 2019
“I’d been livid and my friendship with Tony was on shaky ground for a long time. In the end, my daughter forgave me, of course with me not telling her the full extent of my feelings for Lani, and I forgave Tony, because if Molly could forgive me then I could forgive him. I’m not saying I didn’t punch that fucker in the face once or twice, but eventually, I got over it.”
“He stops right in front of me. I don’t want to be the first one to speak.
Luckily he doesn’t make me. “She’s mine?”
“Of course she’s yours. I called you and left you a message, but you never bothered to respond.”
“I-I deleted all of your messages without listening to them.” Well, that hurts more than it should. “You should’ve kept trying until I answered.”
"Anyway, I heard your message and I was honestly terrified. What was I going to do? I wanted to call you right away, but I kept chickening out. Then it was because I figured you were better off without me. You scare me Lani, and you always have. I didn’t expect to have such strong feelings for you, but after we met that all changed. Time kept passing and when you never tried to contact me I thought maybe you had not gone through with the pregnancy or that maybe you lost her…Then I was scared what it would do to the shaky relationship that Molly and I had, which is all on me, not her."
I lean forward. “I’ve thought about her a lot over the past three years. Do you think it was easy to let her go? I’m almost forty-five years old and I’ve never felt a connection like that before."
She throws her head back and starts to laugh. “You felt such a connection to her that for three years you disappeared out of her life, out of the life of the child you created, and you have a girlfriend.”
“Damon, you’ve done nothing but talk about Lani and your daughter since you found them.” She stands up and moves toward me. “Are you still in love with her?”
Am I? Was I ever? I know I’m not in love with April, and as I look at her, I know that’s how she feels about me. How did I not see it? Because I’m a selfish asshole, that’s why. “I honestly don’t know.”
“No one knows that I knew that Lani was pregnant and I made the decision to stay away. I hate myself every time I look at Lani or Sophie. I hate that Lani struggled financially while I was trying to move on with my life.
It makes no sense that I assumed that she’d be better off without me. I had convinced myself that since she didn’t try to contact me again that she didn’t have the baby or she lost it, which is terrible, I know and I hate that I even considered that.
I need to make sure she knows how much I love her, because I do, and how much I love our daughter. Then maybe it’ll help her forgive me for being the worst possible human on the planet.”
“Umm… you didn’t use a condom. I’m not on birth control.”
“Fuck, I’m so sorry. I was tested a few months ago and the tests were negative. I’ll take care of you, whatever happens.” Damon strokes my cheek and I believe what he says.”


