The Last Sweet Mile: A Journey Of Brothers: A Memoir

by Allen Levi

"How does one write about that for which there are no adequate words?"

When Allen Levi's brother Gary was diagnosed with inoperable brain cancer, neither realized they were about to embark on the best year of their lives. More than mere brothers, Allen and Gary were best friends, life-long bachelors, one a lawyer turned singer-songwriter, the other a globe-trotting missions worker. Their relationship was one of rare and powerful beauty, and in this rich memoir, Levi captures the small yet telling details of a life lived to the fullest-right up to the finish line.

Like Sheldon Vanauken's A Severe Mercy, The Last Sweet Mike gives us a tale of both great loss and great hope, demonstrating that love is a refining fire, brotherhood a holy gift, and death itself a doorway to a wedding feast. The Last Great Mile is not only a testament to the life of Gary Levi, it is a testament to the hope that shaped and sustained him.

Genres: Memoir, Biography, Nonfiction, Autobiography

227 pages, Hardcover

Published January 1, 2015

Reviews

[Chrystal · Rating 5 out of 5]

I'm sitting here with tears running down my face as I've just closed the book. I don't know how to put into words how this book has left its mark on me. It is filled with such hope in the midst of great grief. Quoting from the end of the book, you are Left "empty but full" in your grief. One of the biggest lessons for me personally in this beautiful story of friendship, loss, and a life well lived is: Our sadness has purpose, listen to it and led it lead you to the one who loves you more than you could ever imagine. I highly recommend it. Thank you Allen Levi for loving your brother so well and for knowing that this story needed to be told.

[Allen Allnoch · Rating 5 out of 5]

Often humorous, often heartbreaking, yet full of hope throughout, this beautifully written memoir is one of the most poignant and moving stories you'll ever read. Allen Levi is a rare breed: An intellectual who doesn't act like one. Rather, he's a humble and down-to-earth soul who is deeply committed to his family, friends and community, and who has quietly touched more lives for good than most of us will ever even think about. In short, as we say in the South, Allen is "good people." Likewise was his brother, Gary, the primary subject of this book. The world needs more men like the Levi brothers.

[Ian Hassevoort · Rating 5 out of 5]

Love Allen Levi. Read Theo of Golden a few months ago and loved it so I read this one too. This is a beautiful book. Suffering and tragedy transformed a way to commemorate and celebrate a life well lived and a God well pleased. Reading about Gary’s life has inspired me to love God better and seek after him more. Everyone should read this book.

[Laura Ellison · Rating 5 out of 5]

I met the author’s parents last year when I was home for Labor Day. I heard they were about to celebrate their 65th anniversary and I congratulated them and asked what their best and worst years were. Mrs. Levi said, “I’ll have to think about the best year, but the worst year was definitely the one in which we lost Gary. It was so difficult.” After a few moments silence she continued, “Actually, that was our best year, too. The way our family came together to love him and how close we all became, it was both the best and the worst.” It reminded me of the film “Beautiful Collateral” which I had seen a few months before. In this world, there will be ashes, it’s about finding the beauty in those ashes that make it worth living.

This book is the obituary of a man who lived more intentionally than anybody I’ve ever met. It’s told by a brother who loved him well. There are some sad parts, there are many funny parts, but overall, you will come away being blessed by a deeper knowledge of Gary, Allen, and Jesus. The way these two brothers love each other and others will make you wish you loved everyone in your life as deeply and intentionally as they do. It was a joy and a pleasure to see Christ’s love and servant attitude demonstrated throughout the pages of this book.

[Maggie Daniel · Rating 5 out of 5]

I don’t think I can accurately describe the impact this book has left on me. I think I ended up highlighting the entire thing, but I’ll share a few of my favorites below. This book captured everything I love and believe in. Not only do I get to love the gift of hospitality, but we’re actually called to be hospitable. It reminded me of the incredible gift and joy of siblings — a bond truly like no other. Most of all, this book points to the goodness and sovereignty of Christ. I want to love others & love the Lord like Gary did - like Allen does.

“A dinner table is a good place to put the gifts of God on display: the living word (conversation), the bread of life (a well-prepared meal), the rose of Sharon”

“so a sunrise was simply beautiful. A beehive was simply fascinating. An old friend was simply wonderful. God good. Christ enough.”

“what is friendship, rightly lived, but the unheroic call to a thousand small conversations, countless prayers, and a myriad of encouraging words from one person to another over a lifetime? What is it but the bearing of burdens, the sharing of gifts, the asking of uncomfortable questions, and the possible discomfort of necessary confrontation?”

“You cannot love Christ too much. You cannot serve Him too fervently. You cannot enjoy Him too deeply. You cannot know Him too well.”

[Santiago Frank · Rating 4 out of 5]

I want to go live with this man on his farm for two weeks and learn from him. A sad yet beautiful story.

[Jennifer S. · Rating 4 out of 5]

Such a tender testimony of the bond between two brothers, namely how one cared for the other during his final days. The perspective the author's brother had on life was humbling and encouraging, a living witness of meekness in God's kingdom.

". . . . a life well-lived meant doing small things well over a long period of time. He was heroically unheroic, at peace with his obscure place in a very big picture. This does not mean he didn’t want to be impactful. He did, and precisely because he took his small role seriously, he was.
. . . . the unheroic life of secret generosity and radiant goodness."

[Andrew Cowart · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is a book about a man named Gary. It is, of course, also a book about death. Allen Levi walks us into that shadowy valley with an oxymoronic combination of seriousness that knows the weight of death well and hope that seems to be unimpressed with its limitations.
This book is orients us towards the Kingdom, both on earth and in heaven.
“The best is yet to come”.
Maranatha.

[Stella · Rating 5 out of 5]

Better the second time :)

[Michele · Rating 4 out of 5]

Precious. Encouraging. Inspiring.

[Jonah Salyards · Rating 5 out of 5]

5/5 Stars. Real, encouraging, edifying, and a lovely tribute from one brother to another. The way Gary glorified God in the “small things” of life is inspiring. Looking for a good and godly role model? Read this book and learn of Gary, but more importantly learn of Gary’s God, the Lord Jesus Christ.

[Sarah Grace · Rating 5 out of 5]

Beautifully written book. I loved everything about it. It challenges me and encourages me to live a life where loving Christ is my highest priority, coming in close second is loving others with His love. Gary’s life was inspiring simply because he sought to imitate Jesus. Laughter & tears both occurred. I’d recommend to anyone!

[Terri Smith · Rating 5 out of 5]

Deeply touching, Christ-centered memoir of Allen Levi's brother, Gary, and the last year of Gary's life. I know my rating reflects a bias: I have long been a fan of Allen's music and know bits and pieces about his family via the blog he writes (much less frequently these past few years). It is a heartbreaking yet beautiful story of life, death, family, and brotherly love, all within the framework of an unapologetic Christian worldview. You'll be enriched by reading it. It's available through Allen's website, allenlevi.com.

[Emily · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was beautiful, loving tribute to a brother and the life he lived for Christ. It read like a eulogy that spanned chapters instead of paragraphs and with time after the loss to process and share. It was heartbreaking yet so hopeful.

“Increasingly, I am convinced that the Kingdom of God moves forward most enduring when ordinary people do small things kindly and well over a long period of time.”

[Wendy Blankinship · Rating 5 out of 5]

After reading Theo of Golden, I decided to try another of Alan Levi’s books. This time it was his story of the year he spent with his brother before his brother lost his battle to a brain tumor… Heartfelt, Christ honoring, tearjerker story of walking with and serving someone through their last days on earth readying with family for a brothers journey to spend eternity with Christ. Whew.

[Noelle Sanders · Rating 5 out of 5]

Phenomenal. Unapologetically wept the entirety of my flight. Excellent verbiage put to grief/ joy/ pain/ suffering/ delight/ hope/ and a life well lived. I will be thinking of this for a long time and don’t adequately have the words right now for how this impacted me and pointed me towards Heaven. “The best is yet to come….” 🤍

[Bo Kyle · Rating 5 out of 5]

I dare you to read it. Boy oh boy that was a somber sweet read. It was like going to a really good funeral. The ones that inspires you to be a better man or woman. You leave humbled and caught up in the Glory of God. (Highly Recommend, I dare you!)

[Erik Rostad · Rating 5 out of 5]

A heartbreaking but hopeful letter to family that Allen Levi wrote in honor of his brother Gary. This covers the final year of Gary's life as he passed away from brain cancer. Gary's life was a life well-lived and this book brought laughter, sadness, and expectancy.

[Kristen Usher · Rating 5 out of 5]

Difficult, but beautiful. This book made me intensely grateful for family and for a common faith in the Lord that enables us to live, and by God's grace, someday also doe, well.

[Forrest Collier · Rating 5 out of 5]

Fantastic book. Great encouragement and reminder that to live a life of faith is to live a life of servitude. I must decrease so that he will increase.

[Cameron Barham]

“I don’t wish for any of us to remember (Gary) as anything other than what he was-a man deeply flawed and conscious of it, but deeply forgiven and conscious of that too.”, p. 5

[Jessica Steed · Rating 4 out of 5]

if my kindle could’ve taken a screenshot of me as finished this book, it would’ve been me drinking a ranch water with tears streaming down my face

[Emily Geyer · Rating 5 out of 5]

10,000 ⭐️ 😭

[Guada · Rating 5 out of 5]

I remember being 18 years old, idealistic, ready to embark on a new life after high school by leaving home and striking out on my own. I had naïve, grandiose ideas on how my life would end up if I followed an arbitrary schedule with a set of arbitrary rules that I created for myself: finish school, get married at 24, have a child by 26, all while going to law school or maybe even embark on becoming some renowned journalist the way my maternal great-grandfather was. I also had other plans on striking it rich if I chose the Pop Star route (I’m embarrassed to even mention it here, but alas, there is an unseen American Idol audition footage somewhere out there in the ether) where I planned on utilizing an imaginary large platform to help imaginary people and champion imaginary causes, and to give back to the community I grew up in with all the pomp and circumstance that affords. With the advent of social media, everyone I grew up with would get the opportunity to see how far I made it. An island-girl from a small town, on a small island who went from the middle of the Pacific to the Big Leagues. If I follow my rules, that’s how I thought my life would go: big and visible.
Oh, how I failed. Miserably. Life doesn’t ask you what you want or how you want it.

Although I finished school, got married at 24, and had a child thereafter, I did not plan for a divorce, single motherhood, doing work for minimum wage just to make ends meet while caring for a child, and starting life all over again in my mid-30’s. Choosing to have my daughter and to live for her is one of the best decisions I have ever made, but outside of that, I felt like I lost so much time because of the small, little, horrible decisions I made along the way.
What I failed to understand then is what Gary Levi—the younger brother of author Allen Levi of his book The Last Sweet Mile—–exuded in his life: that “a life well-lived means doing small things well over a long period of time” and that the “unheroic life of secret generosity and radiant goodness” is how to get there. Allen Levi wrote this book to chronicle the 1 year he spent taking care of his younger brother, Gary, after Gary had been diagnosed with an inoperable malignant brain tumor. Despite the emotional and physical hardship on their entire family during this year, Allen says that every day of this final year of Gary’s life was one of the best years they had personally endured: each day was a reminder that he is small; that humans are “frail, transient beings” amid the “immensity of space, the incomprehensible miracle of the molecular world, the vagaries of economies, the depth of cruelties committed and powers abused all drive home the realty that any single life, against the back drop of creation and history, is a microscopic ephemera.” It’s wonderful, too, but definitely microscopic. And when one realizes one’s smallness and that there exists a far greater other-ness outside of oneself, one can’t help but look outward.

In a culture that values the visible and newsworthy, self-glorification and large audiences, words like “reckless, radical, passionate, extreme, and crazy seem to be the new template for what constitutes a genuinely worthwhile life to live.” Rather, Gary taught me (and the author) how to be counter-cultural by being “passionate (without being ostentatious), radical (but not always in visible ways and rarely set out to be).” It’s easy to explode with hot fire in the moment, but it’s much harder to have a slow burn that lasts over time. Perseverance is hardly anyone’s strong suit. It requires endurance not many naturally have. Allen says that the cancer season was a clear lesson in “being small” against things he couldn’t control, and a lesson in doing unseen and silent faithful acts by showing up every day to care for his brother despite his sadness, his anger, his weariness, and his knowledge of the likelihood that, although he believed in miracles, his baby brother was going to die soon. Whether Gary intended to or not, he was inviting big brother Allen to the quiet and humble unheroic life.

“What, after all, are marriage and parenting but the unheroic call to lives of daily self-denial and attentiveness to the needs of others? What are they but a million small decisions made over a lifetime? The love of spouse for spouse, or that of parent for child, can be, at times and often for long seasons, draining and unrewarded and, heaven forbid, unfulfilling. It is hard, unheroic work, but it is also irreplaceable. What kind of world will it be if the humbling work of making family is altogether lost to our insistent call for individual happiness and self-fulfillment?
And what is friendship, rightly lived, but the unheroic call to a thousand small conversations, countless prayers, and a myriad of encouraging words from one person to another over a lifetime? What is it but the bearing of burdens, the sharing of gifts, the asking of uncomfortable questions, and the possible discomfort of necessary confrontation?
My brother’s role at present is to be sick. My role at present is to be present. His is to be weak and forgetful. Mine is to be available and remembering. His is to be needy. Mine is to serve.”

Gary reminded me so much of my Dad who passed away in late January. My Dad, too, was on a downward hill of health issues for a year before the complications of his diabetes exacerbated the pneumonia he finally succumbed to. And my Dad, too, lived a quiet, humble, unheroic life in which he made the small, consistent decisions each day to love people by praying for them, inviting them over for coffee, and feeding their physical bodies as well as their spiritual ones.

When I read this book about Gary, I read about a man who had zero intention of me (or you) ever knowing how he lived or how he loved. But he lived greatly and loved much anyway.

The author wrote a song that captures the life of Gary, and as I read the lyrics, it wonderfully captures the life my Dad lived, too. It goes:
I did not save the world today,
Or change the course of history,
I walked the small and quiet way,
The life that God has given me.
I woke up with the morning sun,
I sat awhile to think and pray,
I did my work till the day was done,
But I did not save the world today.
I tried to live with gratitude,
To do the good that I could do,
To love the people close to me,
My neighbor and my family,
To share the kindness I’ve been shown,
To trust the Love that is my home,
To celebrate the tiny part I play,
But I did not save the world today.
I hear the politicians speak,
Such big ideas and lofty claims,
My life, to theirs, seems small and weak,
But in Gods big hand we weight the same.
The saints and poets seem to know,
The law behind the ocean tide,
The world gets changed and moved along,
By little gestures multiplied.
So I try to live with gratitude,
To do the good that I can do,
To love the people close to me,
My neighbors and my family,
To share the kindness I’ve been shown,
To trust the Love that is my home,
To celebrate the tiny part I play,
But I did not save the world today.

In lieu of saving the world today, may you love your friends and your family well, may you do your desk job the best way you know how, may you offer a smile to a breaking heart, and may you cook your meals with a sprinkle of love and a dash of joy.

[Alice W · Rating 5 out of 5]

A tender and thoughtful heartwarming read

A deeply considerate truthful story of devotion to a dying brother. And, a book of hope for everyone. Words of tenderness, sorrow, joy and laughter. A story for everyone.

[Mary · Rating 5 out of 5]

What a beautiful tribute to a beloved brother! Allen Levi does a fabulous job at making you feel as if you know Gary, or want to know Gary. His writing will make you laugh until you cry and weep with those who weep. He artfully shows the life well lived by a man that lived wholely and completely for Christ.

[Lucy · Rating 3 out of 5]

The writing is good, but the first quarter of the book is all about Christianity, which, although spiritual, doesn't interest me that much. I wanted to learn more about the character, who sounds like a living example of Theo in the author's Theo of Golden, which I loved. However, with so much time devoted to the main character's deep religiosity I decided the book no longer interested me. Did not finish.

[Rebecca Harris · Rating 2 out of 5]

Very slow reading.

[Grace Rypkema · Rating 5 out of 5]

This story was so difficult to read at times, but tells such a beautiful story. I not only read this story, but felt it deeply. It prompted me to think of my own experiences and spend time with memories that are not easy to process. I am in debt to Allen Levi for being able to put so much of my own grief into the words that I have not been able to find.

[Maria · Rating 4 out of 5]

I recently read Allen Levi’s book, Theo of Golden. I loved it so much that I was keen to read anything else that Mr Levi had written. Allen has a beautiful writing style. The Last Sweet Mile was sad, yet filled with hope, a story of “a man deeply flawed and conscious of it, but deeply forgiven and conscious of that too”.