I am now in charge of my life and in the direction that “I” want to be in. It only took almost 30 years to get on this path!! Overcoming both vulnerability and weakness, which I did not recognize at the time.
Remember, there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, especially when you have unrealistic goals. The result is a series of broken relationships.
I suggest you do some soul searching and always remember there is no need to ever be embarrassed or ashamed you've not done anything wrong, nor had I. It is human nature to want happiness, it is healthy, and it warms the soul. My hope for you is to look deep within, regain those boundaries, the fire inside of you. Stop fighting for someone else's happiness and start fighting for your own you owe that to yourself. I could honestly say I've never been happier!! It's the simple things, your health, your children, your family. Be well!!