3.75 stars (rounded up)
I love it -- not in love with it -- but I do enjoy it. It got me teary eyed at one point. Although there are also some niggles -- which I think some of the fine reviewers out there have pointed out.
I admit, that it takes time to get into the story, to actually care for either Nigel or Jeff. For the most part, it is basically because I cannot, for the life of me, imagine Nigel as 40 years old rock star. He seems too childish, too erratic, too self-oriented. Jeff, on the other hand, feels washed out for someone in the later age of 20s. However, at the same time, I appreciate the change of roles. It is so easy to make the older man as the mature, washed out bodyguard, while the younger man is the snobby rock star. That makes it quite interesting.
But, yes, I don't like the story right off the bat. In fact, I think it's the BEAR (actual, wild bear) scene that did it for me (I forgot around what percentage, but it was on my status); where the story started to get interesting for me -- that I started to see Nigel and Jeff in a different light. Because then both Nigel and Jeff show their vulnerabilities. Nigel -- with the needs to take care of someone, being the caretaker instead of just the taker. And Jeff -- with his needs to belong, to have someone he can lets himself go, instead of just being protector like when he's in the Army.
Then I spent the rest of the story analyzing the characters and highlighting some of the words -- the tender words, like, "Hold me. Hold me. Isn't obvious I'm falling apart" (Chapter 8) or that hint of the characters, "Forty is me losing track of what I'm getting up for anymore. I've done everything I said I'd do. Bucket list completed" (Chapter 12) .
I start to see the layers that Z.A. Maxfield given to the characters. Who Nigel is underneath, and who is Jeff underneath. They start to "matter" for me. When they were separated for awhile, because Nigel must went on tour while Jeff wanted to do something that mattered to him, so he wouldn't be dependent on anyone, I pondered. When it got to the point where Nigel choked on stage when he sang his legendary "Light a Candle" and dedicated that song for people who matter to him, well, I got all teary eyed. And that always means that it's a good book in my eyes.
... but yes, it is not without flaws. I find it hard to emphatize with Jeff's sister, Dee, who is also Nigel's enabling best friend. Up to a point where I am so annoyed by her, especially during the last hospital scene. I also wonder about who is responsible behind the 'leak' that interrupts Nigel's one night out at a bowling area. And what the heck happens to the baby that he is submitted to the hospital?
Nevertheless, for me, the good things outweighs the flaws...