“I’ve gotten used to playing the supporting character.”
Thank you netgalley for the ARC!
This book is like a 90s romcom comfort movie. But make the MC Arab and autistic. Basically, it’s perfect.
First, I want to say I’ve seen a lot of reviews about this book. And after reading it, I think a lot of these complaints…would not exist if this was book written by a white author. Nearly every rom com I’ve read or watched that features a white MC has received glowing reviews, and it does nothing more or less than what this book has done. That, and a lot of people who aren’t autistic are claiming to understand autism better than the author who wrote this. Frankly, it’s annoying that this book is getting worse reviews than any of the very problematic books I’ve read written by white authors that don’t include any mental disorders. Keep that in mind when scrolling through these reviews!
Characters: our main girl Jessie is a 15 year old about to step into high school for the first time. If that’s not terrifying enough, she was also just diagnosed with autism. Having felt like the odd one amongst her family and friends her whole life, this comes as no surprise to Jessie. But in order to maneuver her way through high school, she decides to keep it a secret and try to appear as “normal” as possible.
I absolutely adored Jessie. From the cover, I was expecting a basic short quirky MC who’s naturally pretty and gets everything without much effort. One page in, I could tell I was wrong. Jessie is so fun to read. She’s very aware of herself and the people around her, she analyzes social situations and people and tries to understand her place in all of it. But she doesn’t let anyone step all over her, and can be blunt and tends to straight to the point. I think she’s by far the most interesting character pov I’ve read so far. I liked how distinct her voice was, and I know a lot of it had to do with her autism. This gave me a lot of perspective on the way autistic people think and feel. Even though Jessie resonated with me personally, I could still tell there were differences in the way me and her responded to situations and people. But I absolutely loved reading about her.
Romance: Jessie meets two boys in this book, the first is your average bad boy and the other is a much more shy, quiet type. (I won’t spoil who she ends up with). I really liked how the romance ended, I was definitely rooting for the endgame couple throughout the whole book. I do wish we got to explore their relationship a little more before the end, but I liked the development of their friendship over the course of the book.
I heard a lot of people complain about how oblivious Jessie was to the interests of one of the characters. Which I’m kind of surprised people found an issue with! Jessie’s sister mentions that she gets tunnel vision around her crushes, and Jessie goes on to do just that. She becomes hyper focused on one person, one relationship, one goal. It takes all her attention and her interest. I wasn’t surprised at all when she didn’t quite realize anyone else was interested in her romantically until they came out and said it. It was slightly frustrating, but definitely more rewarding at the end.
Family: okay, this is probably where my main issues lie. I really liked Jessie’s family! I liked her relationship with her father which resonated with me on a personal level, I loved how much her brother cared about her. Her sister was an interesting character, but she definitely bothered me. I didn’t like her all that much, but I can appreciate the development their relationship went through. But overall, I just didn’t feel like I was reading about a Palestinian family. This might just be a personal thing, but the fact that she was Palestinian was brought up maybe twice. I was SO excited to see a girl from the same place as me get to fall in love and live the rom com life, but she didn’t feel very Arab to me. I related to Jessie on many levels, but not at all culturally which was a bummer! Her family didn’t seem all that interested in bringing up their past, and when they come to travel to Palestine…it was met with annoyance from the kids.
In my experience, Palestinians grow with a lot of love and longing for the homeland. It really affects our choices and our personalities. Jessie’s dad had this, but everyone else seemed to have adapted completely into the western life, and that was really disappointing to me.
All in all, I really enjoyed this book. I hope we can see more romances like this with characters who are shamelessly themselves. I highly recommend it if you’ve enjoyed books like The Summer I Turned Pretty and To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before!