I really struggled to get through this one. I never found myself eager to pick it up, and honestly, I could see a younger version of myself enjoying it more than 33-year-old me. Stories centered on sex and drugs no longer feel compelling or tantalising to me.
They don't challenge me or offer anything new, which is what I like to get out of literature. This book, in particular, felt mundane.
And yes, life often is mundane but I couldn’t help feeling like it’s a form of narcissism to believe people want to read about your uninteresting and monotonous existence.
The lifestyle depicted here strikes me as a consequence of the sexual revolution, which I view as largely disastrous for women. Many women bought into the lie the patriarchy sold them that casual sex is in any way empowering or liberating, but all it really did was normalise men’s poor behavior. Call me a prude if you want, but I just don’t see the value in reading about graphic sexual acts.
I just never need to read about a woman’s mouth being cum into. I have no desire to know the intricacies of other people’s sex lives.
What does that add to the story? How does it elevate the narrative? I’m even less interested in reading about a woman being used and discarded by a man.
Perhaps sex was different before the era of porn addicted coom brain men, but it can’t have been worth the trade-off for the way these men treat women.
The dialogue in this book was, for the most part, unnecessary. It didn’t advance the story, and much of it felt like pointless yammering. I could have skipped entire chapters without missing anything of value.
The characters and their lack of a compelling story and emotional depth made it difficult to stay engaged. I spent a lot of my time rolling my eyes at their tediousness. Do they have any interests beyond sex and drugs?
The writing itself was frustrating at times. For example, the statement “women are kinder than men” isn’t inherently true. Men are capable of kindness; they just often choose not to be because society allows them to behave poorly. The book perpetuates this idea by excusing men’s bad behavior as inherent rather than something we enable.
Javo, in particular, is an awful character. He constantly says hurtful and dismissive things, and Nora never calls him out or stands up for herself. She demonstrates no self-worth or respect, which in turn allows him to treat her even worse. He doesn’t respect her, and she doesn’t respect herself. What does she even get out of this relationship? He’s selfish and draining, giving nothing back. Nora said she wishes for something steady and complete but then says there’s no such thing, no such person—perhaps because she keeps settling for men who offer her nothing. It’s a self-fulfilling prophecy.
By page 135, Nora admits she’s begun to hate Javo. She’s late to the game; I hated him from the start.
I often wished something dramatic, like Javo’s death would happen, just to inject something real into the narrative. Instead, we get repetitive declarations of “love” devoid of any real emotion. Despite the time spent with these characters, we know very little about them, and frankly, I didn’t care to know more.
I’ll give the book credit for its descriptive writing, which made it easy to visualise the scenes. Perhaps that’s because I’m familiar with the areas described, I’ve walked those streets myself. However, the writing quickly becomes repetitive and stale. How many times do we need to hear about Javo’s blue eyes? We get it, they’re blue.
A lot of the discussions are pointless and do not propel the story, which is a writing flaw. They never once speak on anything interesting or of consequence.
The dialogue was stiff and unnatural, with little substance or purpose. Much of it felt juvenile, and the few mentions of feminism or sisterhood were superficial, as Nora remains overwhelmingly male-focused.
Then there’s the issue of Nora’s child. Gracie is almost an afterthought in the story. Nora prioritises her lifestyle over her daughter, which is infuriating.
Where is her child while she is constantly getting high and fucking? Who is looking after her? What is this child being exposed to? She prioritises debauchery, hedonism and the men that she’s fucking over her own child. It’s such a selfish existence.
On Gracie’s sixth birthday, Nora doesn’t want to go to the circus. Who cares? She does so little for her child. Surely, she can set aside her own feelings for one day to focus on Gracie’s happiness. But instead, she’s preoccupied with longing for Javo, yet again prioritising a loser over her own daughter.
Towards the end, Nora begins to show a bit of a backbone, which made her slightly more sympathetic, but this was short-lived.
I’m not saying I’m entirely unsympathetic towards her. I can relate to her on some level and maybe that’s why she frustrated me so much. It caused me to reflect on my own past mistakes with shitty men.
The part where she mentioned grieving her previous body was particularly relevant to the way I often feel about myself.
Ultimately, this feels like one of those books that a few people deemed “literature gold,” and everyone else followed suit. But to me, it’s yet another example of the emperor having no clothes.
Two stars, purely for the descriptive writing. I just wish it had been about something worth reading.