When control is your strength, but suddenly it’s all out of control…
Whenever Addison goes to ‘special’ club Protocol, she cannot stop herself from fantasizing about the hot Viking at the bar, better known as Thor.
Even when her life is falling into pieces, she keeps on dreaming about that Beast giving her the biggest relief she needs.
Luckily for her, Thor is attracted to the curvy redhead too, and the hottest one night stand in the world is about to take place.
Both Thor and Addison know that only one night is on the table, but the pull is too strong. Yet everything changes when Thor’s eleven – year – old son is standing at his door. A son Thor didn’t know about and is autistic.
Thor never expected to be a single dad, as his whole world is turned upside down. And Addison isn’t sure she can take care of Matty, as she cannot even take care of herself…
But how will things go when the attraction between the Viking and the redhead is too hot for words?
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I am a big fan of Lasairiona’s books, and I know even before reading one word that I will absolutely fall in love with her characters and the story.
With the new Protocol series I knew things would heat up even more compared to her other books, but when you love an author, you love all her sides!
But I have to admit, after those first few chapters, I was a bit afraid the focus would be too much on the physical activities, and not the development between Thor and Addison. Yet this is also my own fault, as I just ignored the blurb and headed straight into the book.
Now, I am not a prude, and have read several books which included very heated moments. So I was fully prepared and even curious to read about the one night kink fest! And I knew this author would make me fan myself as for sure things would get hot hot hot!
And hot hot hot they were! And there were a lot of those moments!
And that was why I was a bit scared it would turn into a story with too much focus on the activities and not on the characters.
But I was wrong wrong wrong! And I am not afraid to admit it!
First of all, we have Addison. Poor Addison! Not only does the book start with her losing her job, and the risk of ending up homeless, but she also doesn’t have a real support. Her family is all too ready to point out ‘all’ of her failures, never actually giving a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on. They are all there to point finger at her, showing her how she just fails at everything and what kind of screw – up she is.
And that angered me so much, because haven’t we all screwed up at least once in our lives? Reading about the incident that took place when Addison was younger, made me even more angry! Yes, Addison should have been ore responsible, but she grew up goddamnit! Just because she messed up once badly, doesn’t mean she is an irresponsible person, who will f*ck up at every occasion!
I got even more furious to see how her own family made Addison doubt about herself in so many occasions, even afraid to chase her own dreams. Dreams that are worth taking the risk if I may say so.
But Addison is also an amazing woman, a curious woman and a woman that in many ways felt so recognizable to me.
I loved to see how Addison being a real person, not a character that is perfect inside and outside. No, she has her own insecurities, and her being ‘curvy’ added only more to her charm.
Her curiosity made it easier for mine, as she had questions I had myself, and I got answers to all of my questions thanks to that shared trait.
And we have of course the same attraction for the same man, being Thor.
Having that kind of name, it’s easy to imagine his features, and I have to admit, if he were real (if anyone knows that kind of person for real, DM me! 😊) I would have the same fantasies as Addison did!
While at Protocol and even between the sheets, Thor screams Alpha man from every pore, we also see a completely different side. He cares about his one night stands, even if they are only in his bed for one night. And even if he is very dominant, the aftercare and wellbeing of his partner is just as important as his satisfaction, if not even more important.
And while he emanates Alpha from every pore, we see his gentler and more ‘human’ character the moment Matthew/Matty appears on his doorstep.
We see this amazing Viking struggling not only coming to terms on being a father, but parenthood in general, and even more specific, being a dad to Matty.
How can you not fall in love with Matty? I can only try to imagine what it’s like to be autistic or how to be parent of an autistic child.
Yet I admired both Thor and Addison in their search for finding an answer to all the problems Matty has to endure.
My heart broke seeing Matty struggling so much, even about things that I never stopped to ponder about. Yet my heart warmed also to see how Matty in his own ways opens up and feels at home with Thor.
From the moment Matty arrives on the scene, the story takes a more heart – warming turn, while before it more a heated book.
We see Thor and Addison trying to adapt to a changed world for them. But we also see them relying more and more on each other, comprehending each other in a way the both never expected. And they also learn from each other, inside the bedroom but mainly outside.
I just *devoured* this book, as it was a heated story (and I am not talking about the bonus scenes!) but it was also a story about two people with their own issues and demons. Even when things seems to go terribly wrong, Lasairiona shows us that making errors is human, and that even when trust seems to be broken, with time and patience, trust can come back, even with a vengeance!
And Lasairiona shows us also that real life comes with challenges. But it’s those challenges that make life exciting and worthy. Because when something (or rather someone…) unexpected stands at your front door, it can be the start of a life you never imagined.
And having the right person by your side, will make this new direction (or rather slightly changed) direction an amazing journey.
Lasairiona has truly warmed me up for this Protocol series, and I cannot wait to read more in this series!