I really disliked this book. I couldn't find any redeeming qualities to it, or any of the characters involved.
I purchased this book because the premise sounded really exciting and interesting. I had completely different expectations to what it would be about, and was hoping for more of a "thriller" type instead of this self-destructive piece of writing.
Suzanne is by far one of the most unlikable characters I've ever read about. She isn't only self-destructive, but she is also selfish, disturbed and slutty. I would have been more understanding had I thought this was a result of her rape, but she was like that even before her rape, and she admits to it herself.
First few chapters, I was really intrigued by where this book was going. I thought Maureen Gibbon was going to do something incredible here in that she connected a rape victim with a rapist and had them establish some form of a correspondence. The letters started off interesting, with each person telling their story - Suzanne of her rape, and Alpha of his raping. You feel anger and disgust and hurt and I thought wow, this book is going to be great!
But then, things get strange and then stranger. Suzanne is a sex maniac, she can't seem to not have sex, despite her rape. Again, I stress the point that this was the case even before she was raped. She has sex all the time. In fact, we later find out that the reason she got raped was because she wanted to teach her boyfriend at the time a lesson for ignoring her, and so she goes out with an older guy who ends up throwing her to his friend who rapes her brutally.
Despite that, I refuse to accept that there is ever an excuse for rape. I refuse to accept that it can be redeemed, that you can serve time and then be forgiven for your crime. You have destroyed a person's life, you have taken something away from them that they will never have back, you have changed their lives and scarred them, how can that be OK?
And yet...and yet, Gibbon makes us feel that it could be OK. That there is redemption. That because a guy is handsome or because he says the right things, we can overlook his crime. That's how she made me feel with her development of Suzanne's character, which was so distorted and wrong in so many ways. Her own friends tell Suzanne she is sick and has sick tendencies. Suzanne herself admits to always going after the dangerous men - all very telling signs of her mental stability. However, and for the umpteenth time, what drove me crazy was that she was like that BEFORE her rape. That is a point that was emphasized many times by Gibbon that it made me think it didn't matter that she was raped to the overall story, because she did not change from the girl she was before her rape. She still went after the wrong kind of guys, she still went after sex and she still put herself in dangerous and promiscuous situations. What angered me even more was how the relationship between her and Alpha turned sexual, the letters they wrote one another, the visits she paid him in prison, doing whatever he asks of her, her submissiveness was disgusting. She felt it too near the end, when she shaved herself down there in order to please him, and watching his crass language towards her. It was so off-putting, I just couldn't believe the shit I was reading.
This was a small book, but it was filled with sex scenes intertwined with very frustrating scenes in which she continues to submit to this rapist. Could it be just me who felt this way about this book? I found it so disrespectful towards rape victims. I really hope Maureen Gibbon isn't writing from personal experience because then I will apologize, but it won't change how I feel about the book.
I almost wish this book was written from Alpha's rape victim's perspective instead.