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Make You Wish You Were Dead
Jane Reyes has a troubled past. No one knows what happened to Jane three years ago when she was 18. She has no memory of what happened. Yet she remembers to keep her mouth shut if she ever did figure it out.
As years pass by she doesn’t talk to anyone anymore. She promised herself she would never speak again until she finally figured out what happened to her.
But one day she gets out of class and is faced with dark hazel eyes, silky brown hair, tan skin with bulging muscles, and a gaze so heated it burns your soul.
But something about him is familiar to Jane.
How could Jane and Rowan be so connected to the point where Jane feels deja vu around him?
As years pass by she doesn’t talk to anyone anymore. She promised herself she would never speak again until she finally figured out what happened to her.
But one day she gets out of class and is faced with dark hazel eyes, silky brown hair, tan skin with bulging muscles, and a gaze so heated it burns your soul.
But something about him is familiar to Jane.
How could Jane and Rowan be so connected to the point where Jane feels deja vu around him?
253 pages, Kindle Edition
First published February 1, 2023
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About the author
Jaclin Marie
11 books693 followersWriting beautifully flawed characters with every word, Jaclin Marie shows how the morally gray isn’t the villain in every story.
She’s always loved seeing the good in everyone, even the awful characters that society frowns upon.Writing her own stories makes the her readers love the flawed parts of her characters.
She started writing when she was 16 during Covid. She found comfort in the stories she would read from her favorite authors and one day she decided to write her own story.
Ever since she has been publishing and writing books left and right. Creating beautiful and unique stories is her passion. She can’t see herself ever stopping.
Connect more with her @authorjaclinmarie
She’s always loved seeing the good in everyone, even the awful characters that society frowns upon.Writing her own stories makes the her readers love the flawed parts of her characters.
She started writing when she was 16 during Covid. She found comfort in the stories she would read from her favorite authors and one day she decided to write her own story.
Ever since she has been publishing and writing books left and right. Creating beautiful and unique stories is her passion. She can’t see herself ever stopping.
Connect more with her @authorjaclinmarie
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May 31, 2023
had to dnf😃 writing was atrocious
July 9, 2023
Я передумала, це таки 1😅
Гарна обкладинка, інтригуюча анотація, але як же ж погано написано. Хотілося закочувати очі і зітхати від усіх реплік і дій головних героїв. Я очікувала максимально похмурий і депресивний роман, з тією ж то кількістю тригерів, а вийшло те, що вийшло.
Почнемо з сюжету. У 18 років Джейн зґвалтували і з тих пір вона не розмовляє. Свого ґвалтівника вона зовсім не пам'ятає, але їй постійно сняться кошмари зі спогадами. В неї з'являється охоронець Рован, з яким, понятне діло, в неї зав'язуються стосунки. І звісно ж тільки з ним вона відчуває себе в безпеці і може розмовляти. Що було для мене зовсім не зрозуміло, бо Рован грубий, владний і якийсь скажений ревнивець. Ну добре, спишемо все на її підсвідомість.
Коротше, читати було дуже важко. Але кінець був неочікуваним і пояснив деякі вчинки головних героїв.
Проте, в останні розділи впихнули все, що тільки можна, всі тригери, і застереження, до того історія була майже ванільною.
Також я була в шоці з батька головного героя. То пздц. Другими словами й не скажеш. І якби ж то, та ситуація якось вплинула на Рована, так наче ні, психологічних проблем він не мав. Просто в кінці вилили цю інформацію, а для чого не зрозуміло. В мене був істеричний сміх, коли я то прочитала😂, хоча то зовсім не смішно.
Загалом, якби було краще написано, то вийшла б дійсно непогана історія, тому що задум і сюжет прикольні, на відміну від реалізації.
Гарна обкладинка, інтригуюча анотація, але як же ж погано написано. Хотілося закочувати очі і зітхати від усіх реплік і дій головних героїв. Я очікувала максимально похмурий і депресивний роман, з тією ж то кількістю тригерів, а вийшло те, що вийшло.
Почнемо з сюжету. У 18 років Джейн зґвалтували і з тих пір вона не розмовляє. Свого ґвалтівника вона зовсім не пам'ятає, але їй постійно сняться кошмари зі спогадами. В неї з'являється охоронець Рован, з яким, понятне діло, в неї зав'язуються стосунки. І звісно ж тільки з ним вона відчуває себе в безпеці і може розмовляти. Що було для мене зовсім не зрозуміло, бо Рован грубий, владний і якийсь скажений ревнивець. Ну добре, спишемо все на її підсвідомість.
Коротше, читати було дуже важко. Але кінець був неочікуваним і пояснив деякі вчинки головних героїв.
Проте, в останні розділи впихнули все, що тільки можна, всі тригери, і застереження, до того історія була майже ванільною.
Також я була в шоці з батька головного героя. То пздц. Другими словами й не скажеш. І якби ж то, та ситуація якось вплинула на Рована, так наче ні, психологічних проблем він не мав. Просто в кінці вилили цю інформацію, а для чого не зрозуміло. В мене був істеричний сміх, коли я то прочитала😂, хоча то зовсім не смішно.
Загалом, якби було краще написано, то вийшла б дійсно непогана історія, тому що задум і сюжет прикольні, на відміну від реалізації.
December 15, 2023
DNF. It was giving bad wattpad writing.
April 20, 2023
4.75⭐️
I fucking ate this book up omggg😭
The entire plot of this book was so good, I was completely obsessed from the very first chapter. I loved Rowan and Jane soooooo much, they gave me life and I couldn’t get enough I literally read it in less then a day.
I was so proud of myself because I guessed the plot twist just before it happened but I was still in shock when it read it, idk what it is but plot twist in romance books is just gonna do it for me every single timeeeee.
Jane is so extremely strong I love her so much she deserves so much happiness and I loved that she was able to find that in Rowan, they truly helped each other so much. Seeing everything that Jane went through from the prologue broke my entire heart. I also loved how she stood her ground when it came to Rowan (I love a fmc who keeps the mc on his toes)
Rowan MF VALENTINO. I love him. The way he treated Jane was so adorable from how he cared for her to how he loved her and helped her heal was so heartwarming, even through he came off as this tough guy who didn’t really care about anything he was so sweet and patient with Jane. AND I have to bring up the bookstore scene OMGGG I literally died and came back to life after reading it, as if I needed more of a reason to love him 😫. After reading what he went through I just wanted to give him the biggest hug, he deserves the entire world.
(I also want to say that this book wasn’t the most well written and the dialogue was a bit childish at times BUT between the plot and the characters I just completely adored it)
I fucking ate this book up omggg😭
The entire plot of this book was so good, I was completely obsessed from the very first chapter. I loved Rowan and Jane soooooo much, they gave me life and I couldn’t get enough I literally read it in less then a day.
I was so proud of myself because I guessed the plot twist just before it happened but I was still in shock when it read it, idk what it is but plot twist in romance books is just gonna do it for me every single timeeeee.
Jane is so extremely strong I love her so much she deserves so much happiness and I loved that she was able to find that in Rowan, they truly helped each other so much. Seeing everything that Jane went through from the prologue broke my entire heart. I also loved how she stood her ground when it came to Rowan (I love a fmc who keeps the mc on his toes)
Rowan MF VALENTINO. I love him. The way he treated Jane was so adorable from how he cared for her to how he loved her and helped her heal was so heartwarming, even through he came off as this tough guy who didn’t really care about anything he was so sweet and patient with Jane. AND I have to bring up the bookstore scene OMGGG I literally died and came back to life after reading it, as if I needed more of a reason to love him 😫. After reading what he went through I just wanted to give him the biggest hug, he deserves the entire world.
(I also want to say that this book wasn’t the most well written and the dialogue was a bit childish at times BUT between the plot and the characters I just completely adored it)
April 25, 2023
DNF
Sorry, but this book was not good. The writing was bad and not very immersive. The dialogue and inner monologue were robotic and unnatural at times. I liked Jane well enough but Rowan was just weird and a little entitled. Jane has clearly suffered a heavy trauma and he talks to her like shit, treats her like a child but is so quickly possessive of her? And he has a hero complex and wants to be the one who saves her? She has mutism and he is determined to "fix" her so he taunts her about it in order to get her to talk. And don't even get me started on the nickname 'Fawn'. It was just not a well written book and I had no desire to finish it to see if it got any better.
Sorry, but this book was not good. The writing was bad and not very immersive. The dialogue and inner monologue were robotic and unnatural at times. I liked Jane well enough but Rowan was just weird and a little entitled. Jane has clearly suffered a heavy trauma and he talks to her like shit, treats her like a child but is so quickly possessive of her? And he has a hero complex and wants to be the one who saves her? She has mutism and he is determined to "fix" her so he taunts her about it in order to get her to talk. And don't even get me started on the nickname 'Fawn'. It was just not a well written book and I had no desire to finish it to see if it got any better.
December 16, 2023
I.. had a hard time rating this because I was so conflicted on this story. I enjoyed some parts and loved Jane!! She had a rough ROUGH moment in her life, and it happened in the Prologue, like be warned there is on page Rape.
Now what made me go meh was Rowan first meeting with Jane, and he's a douche!! Like you're a bodyguard never met this woman in your life, and that's how you talk to her?! Like I enjoy alphaholes, but to say stuff about her being mute and saying stuff that was pretty cruel didn't make me enjoy him. He grew on me at 70%, but most of the book I was like naw.
Low angst, om drama, no cheating, drama, sexy times, no virgins
Recommend-meh maybe
Cover-⭐️⭐️⭐️
Heat level-🌶🌶🌶
Prologue
Slowinsta
Push away
Violence
Rape
Ptsd
Non-con
CSA (touching and grinding)
Domestic violence
Mutism
No condom
Gaslighting
Hea
Epilogue
Now what made me go meh was Rowan first meeting with Jane, and he's a douche!! Like you're a bodyguard never met this woman in your life, and that's how you talk to her?! Like I enjoy alphaholes, but to say stuff about her being mute and saying stuff that was pretty cruel didn't make me enjoy him. He grew on me at 70%, but most of the book I was like naw.
Low angst, om drama, no cheating, drama, sexy times, no virgins
Recommend-meh maybe
Cover-⭐️⭐️⭐️
Heat level-🌶🌶🌶
Prologue
Slowinsta
Push away
Violence
Rape
Ptsd
Non-con
CSA (touching and grinding)
Domestic violence
Mutism
No condom
Gaslighting
Hea
Epilogue
April 29, 2023
♡ Tropes:
• Dark romance
• Bodyguard×Mafia princess
• Resilient FMC
• Mute representation
• Possessive FMC
• Dual POV
• Spicy
♡ This incredibly amazing book was my first Jaclin Marie's book, and is definitely not my last. I absolutely loved every single thing in this book (except maybe for the fact that I would have loved seeing more of the two of them) and, even though I'm not part of the mute community, I think it was pretty realistic, and I LOVE when the representation is truthful and representative. Jane was so strong and resilient. She didn't give up, even during the worst moments. And Rowan... Rowan Valentino... I LOVE him! I want to MARRY him!!! For what he did for her and for them, absolutely no one would have done it. This is why he's THE book's boyfriend. And, if Rowan wasn't already perfect, he has a nickname for Jane... He calls her "Fawn". That's it. That's all it takes for me to fall in love with a man who exists only through ink on paper.
⚠ Be sure to check the TW before reading this book. The topics aborded are not for everyone. Respect your boundaries if you think this book might trigger you. ⚠
♡ Thank you so much Jaclin for sending me an ARC of your book; it was *chef's kiss* ♡
• Dark romance
• Bodyguard×Mafia princess
• Resilient FMC
• Mute representation
• Possessive FMC
• Dual POV
• Spicy
♡ This incredibly amazing book was my first Jaclin Marie's book, and is definitely not my last. I absolutely loved every single thing in this book (except maybe for the fact that I would have loved seeing more of the two of them) and, even though I'm not part of the mute community, I think it was pretty realistic, and I LOVE when the representation is truthful and representative. Jane was so strong and resilient. She didn't give up, even during the worst moments. And Rowan... Rowan Valentino... I LOVE him! I want to MARRY him!!! For what he did for her and for them, absolutely no one would have done it. This is why he's THE book's boyfriend. And, if Rowan wasn't already perfect, he has a nickname for Jane... He calls her "Fawn". That's it. That's all it takes for me to fall in love with a man who exists only through ink on paper.
⚠ Be sure to check the TW before reading this book. The topics aborded are not for everyone. Respect your boundaries if you think this book might trigger you. ⚠
♡ Thank you so much Jaclin for sending me an ARC of your book; it was *chef's kiss* ♡
May 13, 2023
Tiktok tricked me again!!! The writing was so atrocious. It was giving bad wattpad writing. No seasonings no spices no nothing
July 6, 2023
Навіть не хочу коментувати наскільки ця книга жахлива, ні логіки, ні адекватності героїв, нічого
April 25, 2023
3.5 ⭐️ rtc
April 19, 2023
I know I'm going to hell when I die but god, if heaven felt like the way I was feeling when I was kissing her, touching her, then I'm damn sure going to do everything in my power to make sure I go to heaven with Jane.
3.5/5⭐ - 2/5🌶️
That was a bittersweet story, focused mainly on the fmc's nightmares of the past and the gradual retention of her strength. Rowan's and Jane's relationship had so many turns and a hefty amount of banter, but in the end, it acted as their salvation.
Their relationship passed majorly through a fake-hate state that involved so much irritation and arguments. However, once the heat bloomed there wasn't turning back. It grew fast to an invincible fire, burning any obstacles in its way.
The book was advertised as a very dark romance, but as a dark romance reader, I only considered it dark toward the end. There are of course some traumatic experiences stated in the book, but those are described briefly and with a lack of detail. Perhaps, the book can be a good introduction to dark romance.
Unfortunately, individually the mcs didn't catch my attention. As a pair though, they were interesting to read. Their chemistry wasn't sizzling hot but they developed their own connection.
This was a new to me author and I enjoyed her book. One thing I should state though is the plot line had either holes, loose ends, or in some cases things mentioned were left unexplained and characters were unreasonably introduced.
ARC Review
Did I like it? Partly yes.
Would I reread it? No.
3.5/5⭐ - 2/5🌶️
That was a bittersweet story, focused mainly on the fmc's nightmares of the past and the gradual retention of her strength. Rowan's and Jane's relationship had so many turns and a hefty amount of banter, but in the end, it acted as their salvation.
Their relationship passed majorly through a fake-hate state that involved so much irritation and arguments. However, once the heat bloomed there wasn't turning back. It grew fast to an invincible fire, burning any obstacles in its way.
The book was advertised as a very dark romance, but as a dark romance reader, I only considered it dark toward the end. There are of course some traumatic experiences stated in the book, but those are described briefly and with a lack of detail. Perhaps, the book can be a good introduction to dark romance.
Unfortunately, individually the mcs didn't catch my attention. As a pair though, they were interesting to read. Their chemistry wasn't sizzling hot but they developed their own connection.
This was a new to me author and I enjoyed her book. One thing I should state though is the plot line had either holes, loose ends, or in some cases things mentioned were left unexplained and characters were unreasonably introduced.
ARC Review
Did I like it? Partly yes.
Would I reread it? No.
April 27, 2023
The writing got increasingly worse as the book went on. I truly never thought this book would end it was PAINFULLLLL. The actual plot was interesting but the writing through me out of the scenes completely.
May 31, 2023
3.5/5.
honestly wasn’t as bad. it’s basically straight up wattpad writing. apart from the smut, it was okay not the best but eh . when rowan got the tattoo, i feel in love.
honestly wasn’t as bad. it’s basically straight up wattpad writing. apart from the smut, it was okay not the best but eh . when rowan got the tattoo, i feel in love.
March 26, 2023
-FREE ARC EXCHANGED FOR AN HONEST REVIEW-
So Rowan and Jane’s story starts off at a rough start. It’s an emotional rollercoaster throughout the first chapter. I am not going to lie and say I didn’t cry but I do. I am an emotional person I don’t know why lol.
But as the story progresses things between Rowan and Jane wake up. There little dates are adorable and how they spend time one another is so heartwarming. Seeing Rowan so OBSESSED with Jane because my heart happy.
THE FUCKING BOOKSTORE CHAPTER GUYS! HOLY SHIT! Jaclin didn’t lie when she said that we were going to like that chapter and let me tell you I DID! All time favorite chapter from this book and even she said it was her favorite chapter so that says something!
Make You Wish You Were Dead releasing April 21st ❤️🔥
So Rowan and Jane’s story starts off at a rough start. It’s an emotional rollercoaster throughout the first chapter. I am not going to lie and say I didn’t cry but I do. I am an emotional person I don’t know why lol.
But as the story progresses things between Rowan and Jane wake up. There little dates are adorable and how they spend time one another is so heartwarming. Seeing Rowan so OBSESSED with Jane because my heart happy.
THE FUCKING BOOKSTORE CHAPTER GUYS! HOLY SHIT! Jaclin didn’t lie when she said that we were going to like that chapter and let me tell you I DID! All time favorite chapter from this book and even she said it was her favorite chapter so that says something!
Make You Wish You Were Dead releasing April 21st ❤️🔥
June 9, 2023
Rating: 2/10
Hot: 0,25/5
Length: reading abandonment by 51%
Tropes: dark romance, Bodyguard×Mafia princess, dual POV, insta love.
TW/CW: post-traumatic stress disorder, intimidation, non-consensual sex, rape, cruelty, murder.
Авторка книги зробила попередження перед прологом, але все одно я була шокована його вмістом. Ця книга мала елементи мафії, травматичні події, проблемну родину, закоханість з першого погляду та незграбний сюжет - все, що я так "люблю".
Після досягнення лише 18% книги, я зупинилася, але все ж переконала себе дочитати її до кінця. З кожною наступною сторінкою мені ставало ще гірше, оскільки написання було занадто простим, а підозра про те, хто винуватець, стала занадто очевидною. На позначці 51%, я втратила будь-який інтерес до книги та просто перегорнула сторінки, подивившись на останній розділ, щоб підтвердити власні підозри.
Хоча книга повинна бути про мафію, я не знайшла у ній жодного відчуття належної атмосфери. Крім того, персонажі були поверховими та надзвичайно прохідними, а діалоги - незграбними. Було відчуття, що навіть штучний інтелект міг би написати краще.
Загалом, я не рекомендую гайдати час на цю книгу та не можу зрозуміти, чому вона має достатньо високі оцінки. Я раджу формулювати власну думку, але витрачати час на цю книгу немає потреби.
Hot: 0,25/5
Length: reading abandonment by 51%
Tropes: dark romance, Bodyguard×Mafia princess, dual POV, insta love.
TW/CW: post-traumatic stress disorder, intimidation, non-consensual sex, rape, cruelty, murder.
Авторка книги зробила попередження перед прологом, але все одно я була шокована його вмістом. Ця книга мала елементи мафії, травматичні події, проблемну родину, закоханість з першого погляду та незграбний сюжет - все, що я так "люблю".
Після досягнення лише 18% книги, я зупинилася, але все ж переконала себе дочитати її до кінця. З кожною наступною сторінкою мені ставало ще гірше, оскільки написання було занадто простим, а підозра про те, хто винуватець, стала занадто очевидною. На позначці 51%, я втратила будь-який інтерес до книги та просто перегорнула сторінки, подивившись на останній розділ, щоб підтвердити власні підозри.
Хоча книга повинна бути про мафію, я не знайшла у ній жодного відчуття належної атмосфери. Крім того, персонажі були поверховими та надзвичайно прохідними, а діалоги - незграбними. Було відчуття, що навіть штучний інтелект міг би написати краще.
Загалом, я не рекомендую гайдати час на цю книгу та не можу зрозуміти, чому вона має достатньо високі оцінки. Я раджу формулювати власну думку, але витрачати час на цю книгу немає потреби.
March 23, 2023
“𝚒 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚛𝚞𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚖𝚎 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚒 𝚕𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝚖𝚢 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚗 𝚑𝚎𝚛. 𝚠𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚍𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚢 𝚖𝚎𝚗 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚎.”
With all of her little teaser posts, my girl Jaclin made me incredibly eager to read this book, and she was kind enough to give me an ARC so I could start reading it early. And my expectations for this book was met.
This book is followed by a young woman named Jane. She underwent such a harrowing event that it rendered her mute. I adored the way Jaclin portrayed a strong woman who express herself through signing, particularly when she refused to take crap from Rowan.
Jane's father hires Rowan to serve as her bodyguard. I loved how possessive and obsessed he was of her. and the way he pushed her to find her voice.
I can’t wait for everyone to read this book. Definitely recommend. The spicy scenes are ✨ immaculate.✨ Please do read the trigger warnings before hand.
Excited to read more books from Jaclin.🫶🏻👑
With all of her little teaser posts, my girl Jaclin made me incredibly eager to read this book, and she was kind enough to give me an ARC so I could start reading it early. And my expectations for this book was met.
This book is followed by a young woman named Jane. She underwent such a harrowing event that it rendered her mute. I adored the way Jaclin portrayed a strong woman who express herself through signing, particularly when she refused to take crap from Rowan.
Jane's father hires Rowan to serve as her bodyguard. I loved how possessive and obsessed he was of her. and the way he pushed her to find her voice.
I can’t wait for everyone to read this book. Definitely recommend. The spicy scenes are ✨ immaculate.✨ Please do read the trigger warnings before hand.
Excited to read more books from Jaclin.🫶🏻👑
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
April 8, 2023
arc review
☾⋆｡ 𖦹 °✩ make you wish you were dead by jaclin marie
wow that like all i have to say after finishing this book kind of speechless right now like i knew i was gonna love Rowan and Jane’s book after getting that little glimpse of them in Thalia’s book but actually reading their book and getting to actually know everything bc that happened and the things they had to go through don’t even get me started on the things we learn about rowan and the things that he did for Jane at the end of the book <3 new book bf alert also the how rowan got Jane to talk iconic but just everything about their relationship like they are literally the definition of opposite yet they just both fit so well together
from the way rowan treat Jane OBSESSED i don’t think i would be able to get over him but also the plot twist in this book 1000% would have never seen it coming like when we got a hint that it would have been ****** i was like are you sure i think it is the father but turns out they were both guilty in different ways i am absolutely disgusted with those two people also it got me a bit annoyed when he called Thalia messy idk way it not like he is exactly wrong but i don’t know
either way i really enjoyed Rowan and Jane’s story and i 100% recommend it it definitely on the more darker? emotional side so read the trigger warning but otherwise definitely recommend
☾⋆｡ 𖦹 °✩ make you wish you were dead by jaclin marie
wow that like all i have to say after finishing this book kind of speechless right now like i knew i was gonna love Rowan and Jane’s book after getting that little glimpse of them in Thalia’s book but actually reading their book and getting to actually know everything bc that happened and the things they had to go through don’t even get me started on the things we learn about rowan and the things that he did for Jane at the end of the book <3 new book bf alert also the how rowan got Jane to talk iconic but just everything about their relationship like they are literally the definition of opposite yet they just both fit so well together
from the way rowan treat Jane OBSESSED i don’t think i would be able to get over him but also the plot twist in this book 1000% would have never seen it coming like when we got a hint that it would have been ****** i was like are you sure i think it is the father but turns out they were both guilty in different ways i am absolutely disgusted with those two people also it got me a bit annoyed when he called Thalia messy idk way it not like he is exactly wrong but i don’t know
either way i really enjoyed Rowan and Jane’s story and i 100% recommend it it definitely on the more darker? emotional side so read the trigger warning but otherwise definitely recommend
April 17, 2023
Ngl, i found this book hard to get into at the start (but I have been in a reading slump since last year so that could be why) but I wasn’t giving up because I’ve waited so long for this book. And it did not disappoint.
I absolutely loved this book, and Jane and Rowen’s relationship (I knew I’d love them 2 together since getting a glimpse of them in Thalia’s book-but didn’t know I’d love them this much). The plot was a bit slow in places but you get that with any book, and it didn’t change how much I love this book.
I’ve followed jaclin since her wattpad days (blinded by series/the de Luca series etc.) and you can just see how much she’s improved with each book she’s released.
So immensely proud of jaclin and how far she’s come <3
I absolutely loved this book, and Jane and Rowen’s relationship (I knew I’d love them 2 together since getting a glimpse of them in Thalia’s book-but didn’t know I’d love them this much). The plot was a bit slow in places but you get that with any book, and it didn’t change how much I love this book.
I’ve followed jaclin since her wattpad days (blinded by series/the de Luca series etc.) and you can just see how much she’s improved with each book she’s released.
So immensely proud of jaclin and how far she’s come <3
March 28, 2023
4.5🌟
"𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘐 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶"
*might contain tiny spoilers?*
I've been eagerly waiting for this moment. Me reading this after all the teasers miss girl Jaclin have been posting and being selected to be one of the ARC readers is really an honor ♡
LEMME TELL YOU WHEN I SAY I CRIED IN JUST THE FIRST 20 PAGES. I FCKING SOBBED. Y'all ain't ready fr
I loved the characters, their personalities, the way they were presented, it was all🤌🤌
Jane and Rowan both went through so much in such a young age at that. They didn't deserve anything that happened to them. When I read about what Rowan went through I could not hold in anymore. I felt so bad for him cause he did not deserve all that. But they both were so strong after going through such traumatic experiences🥹
ROWAN BEING 𝙊𝘽𝙎𝙀𝙎𝙎𝙀𝘿 WITH HER LIKE ODNDHBSJS ROWAN IS THE MAN. THE STANDARD. HIM BEING SO SOFT WITH HER LITERALLY MELTED MY HEART.
(also Andrew and Christian, sincerely, fuck you.)
HOPE Y'ALL LIKE IT AS MUCH AS I DID AND SUPPORT JACLIN ALL THROUGHOUT!!!!🫶🫶
"𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘐 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶"
*might contain tiny spoilers?*
I've been eagerly waiting for this moment. Me reading this after all the teasers miss girl Jaclin have been posting and being selected to be one of the ARC readers is really an honor ♡
LEMME TELL YOU WHEN I SAY I CRIED IN JUST THE FIRST 20 PAGES. I FCKING SOBBED. Y'all ain't ready fr
I loved the characters, their personalities, the way they were presented, it was all🤌🤌
Jane and Rowan both went through so much in such a young age at that. They didn't deserve anything that happened to them. When I read about what Rowan went through I could not hold in anymore. I felt so bad for him cause he did not deserve all that. But they both were so strong after going through such traumatic experiences🥹
ROWAN BEING 𝙊𝘽𝙎𝙀𝙎𝙎𝙀𝘿 WITH HER LIKE ODNDHBSJS ROWAN IS THE MAN. THE STANDARD. HIM BEING SO SOFT WITH HER LITERALLY MELTED MY HEART.
(also Andrew and Christian, sincerely, fuck you.)
HOPE Y'ALL LIKE IT AS MUCH AS I DID AND SUPPORT JACLIN ALL THROUGHOUT!!!!🫶🫶
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
September 6, 2024
Um wow.. hard to get through in the beginning because it really needs to be edited, but the ending was crazy. Got super dark
August 21, 2025
1⭐️ i fear this felt very watt paddy, and that plot was not meant for 220 pages. good concept, poor execution
March 27, 2023
Rating: 5/5 ⭐️
Spice: 🌶️🌶️🌶️
(ARC REVIEW) This is for sure on my top 5 reads so far in the year! I adored this book so much! Rowan and Jane definitely have my heart!! Everything in this book was perfection! It is a bodyguard Romance so immediately it’s a yes for me! The back story to why Jane went mute broke my heart completely! Rowan’s past broke my heart!😭 Although this book broke my heart I still loved every second of it! 🥹 I cried and laughed. Also the spice! Especially in that library!😮💨🤌🏼 I just adored this book so much!
Favorite quotes:
“The world is ours and she and I are perfect.” 🫶
“Don't ever let the fucking pawns bring down the queen” 😮💨
Spice: 🌶️🌶️🌶️
(ARC REVIEW) This is for sure on my top 5 reads so far in the year! I adored this book so much! Rowan and Jane definitely have my heart!! Everything in this book was perfection! It is a bodyguard Romance so immediately it’s a yes for me! The back story to why Jane went mute broke my heart completely! Rowan’s past broke my heart!😭 Although this book broke my heart I still loved every second of it! 🥹 I cried and laughed. Also the spice! Especially in that library!😮💨🤌🏼 I just adored this book so much!
Favorite quotes:
“The world is ours and she and I are perfect.” 🫶
“Don't ever let the fucking pawns bring down the queen” 😮💨
March 28, 2023
I want to write a lot about this book but I don’t want this review to be a reveal big things
But him taking her for ice cream>>>>
The bookstore scene>>>
Him being patient yet possessive 🥵
Tropes-
Girl and her bodyguard
He is grumpy and she is mute
Mafia World
He wants to right all the wrongs
But him taking her for ice cream>>>>
The bookstore scene>>>
Him being patient yet possessive 🥵
Tropes-
Girl and her bodyguard
He is grumpy and she is mute
Mafia World
He wants to right all the wrongs
April 18, 2023
ARC Review!!!
This book was absolutely exceptional!!!
This book was a breath of fresh air to read. The characters felt close to me, as if they were a part of my life and I was listening to their story.
Jane was an absolute gem!
I felt I could relate to her so much. On her trauma, personality and outlook on life.
This book was definitely one I will remember!!!
❤️❤️❤️
This book was absolutely exceptional!!!
This book was a breath of fresh air to read. The characters felt close to me, as if they were a part of my life and I was listening to their story.
Jane was an absolute gem!
I felt I could relate to her so much. On her trauma, personality and outlook on life.
This book was definitely one I will remember!!!
❤️❤️❤️
June 13, 2023
I love this book so damn much. It was a scrumptious story of a bodyguard breaking code and failing in love with his client, with a twist. I read it all in one day, couldn't put it down. I just hate how Rowan would talk about her wanting to fuck Callen like the topic of sex wasn't uncomfortable to her. TO BE FAIR, he didn't know what happened at the gala. When she ran out of the car and called him later, she was completely unaffected by his words earlier and it made me cringe. Also, I hated how quick she opened up to sex. I wanted her to consider everything just a bit more like a victim in real life would. HOWEVER, everyone deals with their trauma differently. I know a lot of people who would seek sex more as a way to cope, and people who would completely avoid the topic in general. I just wished the book would let her be a bit more uneasy before deciding she trusted rowan. She even said it herself when she said that she learned her lesson from trusting people again.
I'M ALSO HELLA PROUD OF MYSELF THAT I KNEW WHO IT WAS THAT Y'KNOW JANE. I KNEW THE MOMENT HE WAS INTRODUCED AND THE AUTHOR MENTIONED HIS HAIR COLOR BUT NOT HIS EYES.
I'M ALSO HELLA PROUD OF MYSELF THAT I KNEW WHO IT WAS THAT Y'KNOW JANE. I KNEW THE MOMENT HE WAS INTRODUCED AND THE AUTHOR MENTIONED HIS HAIR COLOR BUT NOT HIS EYES.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
April 25, 2023
thank you to jaclin for an ARC of this book!!
do check CWs and TWs before diving into this book!
firstly, this book had such short chapters i was so grateful i literally breezed through this book through bus rides on the bus to school.
i loved jane, she was honestly so sweet but she had that fire in her which i really related to, she has been through something which made her mute at her own accord, but she has proven time and time again how strong she is.
rowan, he is literally amazing. we love that he is honestly so protective of her, the way he was so so loving but morally grey??? yk i ate that up. he also has a way with words, making words literally sound poetic when he was showing his true emotions.
the two of them worked so well with one another, they were practically made to complete the other.
they showed me what two people molded together are. there were so many parts where i felt as if my heart was being ripped apart into pieces and i was being stabbed half to death okay. there was this one quote that made me stupid smile, "that makes us, jane and rowan." i wanted to sob tbh.
the amount of quotes from this book that made me feel things :')
do check CWs and TWs before diving into this book!
firstly, this book had such short chapters i was so grateful i literally breezed through this book through bus rides on the bus to school.
i loved jane, she was honestly so sweet but she had that fire in her which i really related to, she has been through something which made her mute at her own accord, but she has proven time and time again how strong she is.
rowan, he is literally amazing. we love that he is honestly so protective of her, the way he was so so loving but morally grey??? yk i ate that up. he also has a way with words, making words literally sound poetic when he was showing his true emotions.
the two of them worked so well with one another, they were practically made to complete the other.
they showed me what two people molded together are. there were so many parts where i felt as if my heart was being ripped apart into pieces and i was being stabbed half to death okay. there was this one quote that made me stupid smile, "that makes us, jane and rowan." i wanted to sob tbh.
the amount of quotes from this book that made me feel things :')
March 22, 2023
"I'm going to make you wish you were dead in a few minutes",
Screaming. screaming. Damn the book as lit
Highlights from MYWYWD.
#Their first sex: Just loved the fact she didn't go all crying and shit.
#Christian Valentino fucking raped his son, like whaaaatttt. Rowan should have killed him slower.
#Asshole Andrew Valentino getting knife fucked in the ass??? Yh girl, totally getting your vibe.
#Learning Thalia's hubby died made me cry and go get Thalia De Luca, because how can I not.
The book was amazing, can't wait to see what Jaclin does next. I'm so honored to be part of the ARC team, just so you know girl. Happy Release Day ahead 🎉
Screaming. screaming. Damn the book as lit
Highlights from MYWYWD.
#Their first sex: Just loved the fact she didn't go all crying and shit.
#Christian Valentino fucking raped his son, like whaaaatttt. Rowan should have killed him slower.
#Asshole Andrew Valentino getting knife fucked in the ass??? Yh girl, totally getting your vibe.
#Learning Thalia's hubby died made me cry and go get Thalia De Luca, because how can I not.
The book was amazing, can't wait to see what Jaclin does next. I'm so honored to be part of the ARC team, just so you know girl. Happy Release Day ahead 🎉
started-dnf
September 7, 2023[DNF'd by 50%] I appreciate the trigger warnings the author placed early on, especially since the story starts with a traumatic event. From what I could force myself to read, it has the bodyguard trope, some mafia vibes, insta!love, and dark romance tones.
Unfortunately, by the 43% mark, I felt like I was forcing myself to finish a book I'd started to want to skim through because the writing felt off from the beginning. I told myself it was simple enough writing, we could get to the end and find out how this ends, but my suspicion of who the culprit was became too obvious, and I lost interest. Once I hit 50%, though, I couldn't keep going.
It has those mafia vibes, though I don't feel it was ever fully presented except to explain where all these families and people knew each other from (though that could have to do with where I stopped). It was apparent that the characters surrounding the story were from other books. Would I have appreciated the story more if I read those books? I don't know. I'm leaning on no, though. This story didn't draw me in. The characters didn't draw me in. I felt less lost in the story and more like my head was trying to escape it. The dialogue felt too...staged? And I could not get myself to like Rowan. Could not.
Some important notes that bear mentioning: reviews are highly subjective, including mine. My opinion is meant to give an overview of what I saw/felt when I read it. What I see might not be what you see, and what I don't like might be what you enjoy, which is fine. My advice to anyone looking into a book? Read the premise; if it interests you enough, give it a chance, and it may surprise you—or not, but at least then, you'll know.
Unfortunately, by the 43% mark, I felt like I was forcing myself to finish a book I'd started to want to skim through because the writing felt off from the beginning. I told myself it was simple enough writing, we could get to the end and find out how this ends, but my suspicion of who the culprit was became too obvious, and I lost interest. Once I hit 50%, though, I couldn't keep going.
It has those mafia vibes, though I don't feel it was ever fully presented except to explain where all these families and people knew each other from (though that could have to do with where I stopped). It was apparent that the characters surrounding the story were from other books. Would I have appreciated the story more if I read those books? I don't know. I'm leaning on no, though. This story didn't draw me in. The characters didn't draw me in. I felt less lost in the story and more like my head was trying to escape it. The dialogue felt too...staged? And I could not get myself to like Rowan. Could not.
Some important notes that bear mentioning: reviews are highly subjective, including mine. My opinion is meant to give an overview of what I saw/felt when I read it. What I see might not be what you see, and what I don't like might be what you enjoy, which is fine. My advice to anyone looking into a book? Read the premise; if it interests you enough, give it a chance, and it may surprise you—or not, but at least then, you'll know.
April 26, 2023
TikTok tricked me.
I struggled so hard. I'm sorry, the writing was like a 12 year old writing fan fiction. The run on sentences, the weird way everyone talks, lack of character depth..It was just cringe and so difficult to read.
No one speaks like the people in the book. No humans that I am aware of, anyway.
MMC literally doesn't let her out of the car until she talks but later says:
"She doesn’t want to talk, so I’m not going to force her to talk. That is the one thing I will never do to Jane. I know Jane has been through a lot and her talking to me normally is something I will never risk to lose. Forcing her to talk is one of the worst things that I can do to her because so many people try to do that with her already"
Some examples of just painful sentences:
"Cause I might be going to California soon and wanted to see if you will be there at the same time I will and I wanted to see if I could room with you while I am in California."
"Jane is the reason I learned to do sign language because whether she knew it or not."
"I'm a little surprised that he is asking a lot of questions because usually in the car he won't talk at all or even when we are just sitting next to each other doing nothing he won't ask me anything even though I could have signed to him"
"
They are always sneaking off and leaving me alone, which I hate and have told her so many times, but her excuse is always the same by saying it was Alexander's fault, which sometimes it is because Alexander distracts Thalia a lot."
I struggled so hard. I'm sorry, the writing was like a 12 year old writing fan fiction. The run on sentences, the weird way everyone talks, lack of character depth..It was just cringe and so difficult to read.
No one speaks like the people in the book. No humans that I am aware of, anyway.
MMC literally doesn't let her out of the car until she talks but later says:
"She doesn’t want to talk, so I’m not going to force her to talk. That is the one thing I will never do to Jane. I know Jane has been through a lot and her talking to me normally is something I will never risk to lose. Forcing her to talk is one of the worst things that I can do to her because so many people try to do that with her already"
Some examples of just painful sentences:
"Cause I might be going to California soon and wanted to see if you will be there at the same time I will and I wanted to see if I could room with you while I am in California."
"Jane is the reason I learned to do sign language because whether she knew it or not."
"I'm a little surprised that he is asking a lot of questions because usually in the car he won't talk at all or even when we are just sitting next to each other doing nothing he won't ask me anything even though I could have signed to him"
"
They are always sneaking off and leaving me alone, which I hate and have told her so many times, but her excuse is always the same by saying it was Alexander's fault, which sometimes it is because Alexander distracts Thalia a lot."
January 27, 2024
4.5/5
I really enjoyed this book! The pacing was great, and the mute representation was done well, (but this is coming from someone who is very much not mute…in fact a person who never stops talking🫠, so technically I can’t give a hard opinion on that…but whatever from a readers perspective it was done well)
Jane was a strong female lead who went through a very difficult traumatic thing (don’t wanna spoil it) that caused her to go silent with fear, her muteness was a different twist to the story and I loved seeing her grow stronger and stronger, day by day,
Her bodyguard Rowan was just yummy 😩🤚🏻 the man was ✨obsessed ✨ with her and I was here for it, there were so many little twists and moments that had me gasping 😭
There’s so much I wanna say but can’t because I don’t wanna spoil! Definitely recommend you guys read this! I read it in like 2 and a half hours! (Though I did read like half last night then woke up at 6 am to finish…but in total it was about 2 in a half-ish hours)
Really excited for Jaclin and her new upcoming release!! Thank you so much to her for providing me an arc to read! I had a blast. 💗
I really enjoyed this book! The pacing was great, and the mute representation was done well, (but this is coming from someone who is very much not mute…in fact a person who never stops talking🫠, so technically I can’t give a hard opinion on that…but whatever from a readers perspective it was done well)
Jane was a strong female lead who went through a very difficult traumatic thing (don’t wanna spoil it) that caused her to go silent with fear, her muteness was a different twist to the story and I loved seeing her grow stronger and stronger, day by day,
Her bodyguard Rowan was just yummy 😩🤚🏻 the man was ✨obsessed ✨ with her and I was here for it, there were so many little twists and moments that had me gasping 😭
There’s so much I wanna say but can’t because I don’t wanna spoil! Definitely recommend you guys read this! I read it in like 2 and a half hours! (Though I did read like half last night then woke up at 6 am to finish…but in total it was about 2 in a half-ish hours)
Really excited for Jaclin and her new upcoming release!! Thank you so much to her for providing me an arc to read! I had a blast. 💗
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