A true account of a lowly confederate private, in his own inimical style, written from memory 20 years after the fact. This funny, self-effacing author is actually quite remarkable. He deflects “real” accounts to the history books, but describes the life of a foot soldier, the doldrums and hard work, along with the actual terrors of war with the hail of lead and explicit rendering of human flesh. I must say, for a supposedly illiterate soldier at the very bottom of the tier of a failed war effort, Watkins must have really improved himself after the war. His style is often poetic and philosophical, the musings of a middle-aged man of the time of his trying, surrounded by a prosperous family. His memory of events must surely have been supplemented by history, as his company H, or “Aytch”, from Tennessee traversed the territories throughout the border states, the deep south and Virginia. Much of his experience is the troops critical of the leadership, although certain leaders the men revere to the point of following them to the gates of hell. And, make no mistake, these boys endured a hellscape almost beyond belief (but that is the point of this book, to bring it to us, which it did in spades). I recall Shelby Foote often quoted this book in Ken Burns’ PBS Civil War series. That is because the writing is so fine, so descriptive, so true. I even learned about Chickamauga and Missionary Ridge on the Tennessee river, an area I have visited while fishing on the lake by the same name (and where I caught a 5.5 lb largemouth this spring). Volunteers to the southern cause, before forced conscription, had their terms extended involuntarily. In fact, Watkins was one of the very few survivors of his regiment, surviving through sheer luck through many harrowing experiences. These soldiers were chronically under-fed, and often literally starving, through years of hardship in the elements. Notably, most of the time was spent in camp or marching from location to location, not only physically demanding but the sheer boredom was nearly unbearable in between flashes of horror.
Watkins captures the initial patriotic fervor, as today, at the outset of war when the great “cause” of protecting home, being a real man among one’s peers and impressing the ladies was the driving psychological force. That never seems to change, it was my mindset at this age (boys need that red badge of courage) and always precedes the anguish and cries for mother heard so often on the battlefield. I’ll let the author speak for himself so you can decide whether you want to read. I found it lively, entertaining, and it lived up to my expectation of being a rare, best of kind, memoir:
p. 14: “One evening, General Robert E. Lee came to our camp. He was a fine-looking gentleman, and wore a moustache. He was dressed in blue cottonade and looked like some good boy’s grandpa. I felt like going up to him and saying good evening, Uncle Bob! …his voice was kind and tender, and his eye was a gentle a dove’s. His whole make-up of form and person, looks and manner had a kind of gentle and soothing magnetism about it that drew every one to him, and made them love, respect, and honor him. I fell in love with the old gentleman.”
p. 25: The penalty for being AWOL was severe, sometimes ground for execution. It also generated tremendous hatred and resentment in the troops, when administered too harshly or unfairly: “And when some miserable wretch was to be whipped and branded for being absent ten days without leave, we had to see him kneel down and have his head shaved smooth and slick as a peeled onion, and then stripped to the naked skin. The a strapping fellow with a big rawhide would make the blood flow and spurt at every lick, the wretch begging and howling like a hound, and then he was branded with a red hot iron with the letter D on both hips, when he was marched through the army to the music of the ‘Rogue’s March’.”
p. 25: “We became starved skeletons; naked and ragged rebels. The chronic diarrhea became the scourge of the army. Corinth became one vast hospital. Almost the whole army attended the sick call every morning. All the water courses went dry, and we used water out of filthy pools.”
p. 31, the confederate man had more to lose and was widely regarded as superior in fighting spirit, though bedraggled in resources. Here is a snippet, in thrall just after a victory: “We were in an ecstasy akin to heaven. We were happy; the troops were jubilant; our manhood blood pulsated more warmly; our patriotism was awakened; our pride was renewed and stood ready for any emergency; we felt that one Southern man could whip twenty Yankees. All was lovely and the goose hung high.”
p. 52, the soldiers were not above stealing from their own, due to desperation, as they came across farmhouses. Here is a better time, when the author and a couple of scouts had a respite from the war and a real meal in a warm and welcoming home: “They had biscuit for supper. What! Flour bread/ Did my eyes deceive me? … At the head of the table was the madam, having on a pair of golden spectacles, and at the foot the old gentleman. He said grace. And, to cap the climax, two handsome daughters. I know that I had never seen two more beautiful ladies. They had on little white aprons, trimmed with jaconet edging, and collars as clean and white as snow. They looked good enough to eat, and I think at that time I would have gen ten years of my life to have kissed one of them.”
p. 58, the author muses on his experience: “A soldier’s life is not a pleasant one. It is always, at best, one of privations and hardships. The emotions of patriotism and pleasure Hadley counterbalance the toil and suffering that he has to undergo in order to enjoy his patriotism and pleasure. Dying on the field of battle and glory is about the easiest duty a soldier has to undergo. It is the living, marching fighting, shooting soldier that has the hardships of war to carry. When a brave soldier is killed he is at rest. The living soldier knows not at what moment he, too, may be called on to lay down his life on the altar of his country. The dead are heroes, the living are but men compelled to do the drudgery and suffer the privations incident to the thing called ‘glorious war.’”
p. 85, our author in the midst of a major battle, near the Georgia line, on one of the hottest days of the year: “I have heard men say that if they ever killed a Yankee during the war they were not aware of it. I am satisfied that on this memorable day, every man in our regiment killed from one score to four score, yea, five score men. I mean from twenty to one hundred each. All that was necessary was to load and shoot. In fact, I will ever think that the reason they did not capture our works was the impossibility of their living men passing over the bodies of their dead. The ground was piled up with one solid mass of dead and wounded Yankees. I learned afterwards from the burying squad that in some places they were piled up like cord wood, twelve deep.”
p. 87, what this author thought they were fighting for: “Only trying to protect their homes and families, their property, their constitution and their laws, that had been guaranteed to them as a heritage forever by their forefathers. They died for the faith that each state was a separate sovereign government, as laid down by the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution of our fathers.”
p. 97, at the gates of hell: “About this time our regiment had re-formed, and had got their breath, and the order was given to charge, and take their guns even at the point of the bayonet. We rushed forward up the steep hill sides, the seething fires from ten thousand muskets and small arms, and forty pieces of cannon hurled right into our very faces, scorching and burning our clothes, and hands, and faces from their rapid discharges, and piling the ground with our dead and wounded almost in heaps. It seemed that the hot flames of hell were turned loose in all their fury, while the demons of damnation were laughing in the flames, like seething serpents hissing out their rage. We gave one long, loud cheer, and commenced the charge. As we approached their lines, like a mighty inundation of the river Acheron in the infernal regions, Confederate and Federal meet. Officers with drawn swords meet officers with drawn swords, and man to man meets man to man with bayonets and loaded guns. The continued roar of battle sounded like unbottled thunder. Blood covered the ground and the dense smoke filled our eyes and ears, and faces. The groans of the wounded and dying rose above the thunder of battle…They lie today, weltering in their own life’s blood. It was one of the bloody battles that characterized that stormy epoch, and it was the 22ndd of July, and one of the hottest days I ever felt…While I was sitting her, a cannon ball came tearing down the works, cutting a soldier’s head off, spattering his brains all over my face and bosom, and mangling and tearing four or five others to shreds. As a wounded horse was being led off, a cannon ball struck him, and he was literally ripped open, falling in the very place I had just moved from.”
p. 99, Watkin’s has a sense of humor, as when he drank some especially impure home-made whiskey: “All I can remember now, is a dim recollection of a nasty, greasy, burning something going down my throat and chest, and smelling, as I remember at this day, like a decoction of re-pepper team, flavored with coal oil, turpentine and tobacco juice.”