On the vehement surges of waves, of the waiting or the awaitance, acting on love, and crushed upon its oblivion – to every connexion of him and her, they push and pull, loosening or tightening, holding on or letting go, they both render the space of waiting, in the realm of awaitance: as the oblivion of forgetting, or the shining remembrance of its residuals: two individuals, lay side by side as the glimmering waves surged upon them, the warm breeze and soft sand seeped through the crevices of their immediate distance, the affront of presence, confronted with space and presence, and so they continued to move forward, in facing the oblivion, in knowing that waiting participates in such a measure: both waiting, entering the evenness of waiting, even if waiting always exceeds waiting in its evenness with itself.
Then, they went, motionless. letting each of their presence come. In its motionless approach, his pace bounds to her pace. She leans back against him, holding back, letting herself go. They move forward, marking out a path for him to her, for her to him. He says, 'Come', and then in its immediate urgency, they come to this place of attraction. And then she falls, rising up in the one he touches, turning away from everything visible and invisible, leaning back and showing herself, face to face in this calm turning away.
They move away from each other, while thus approach each other — the coming and going of waiting; it's cessation. That's, the motionlessness of waiting: in motion more than any movement. Between them, the in-betweens, the spinal waves-engulfed feet, the gentle breeze-caressed hair, the iridescent light illuminating each of their eyes, not there — in the face of eroding waves, in the speech of sand, in the murmur of the wind, — where she is or there, where he is, but, between them: like this place, with its great staring look, the reserve of things in their latent state.
Can't help but involuntarily comparing it to Lispector's An Apprenticeship or The Book of Pleasures — one that defined the entirety of my being: of being Lori, questioning the act of deserving of love and to be loved. Awaiting Oblivion reaches in another magnitude: it surmounts the latter, vehemently gushing the act of love itself, in its intricate act of pushing and pulling, ebbing and flowing, waiting, but also, forgetting. Thus, both of them lay motionless, occupying the space of one to another, but neverthelessly, hand-in-hand, awaiting the oblivion that will inevitably erode their fleshes. In between adjacency lies each of the similarity, both that still impacts me in such intensity: one is the deserving of to love and to be loved, one is the acceptance of erosion and insatiable decay, of comprehending the subversive definition, in searching from each other's presences, the construction of superseded language in between love and desire.