✰ 3 stars ✰
“Let it burn; Let it fall; Let the hungry darkness have it all;
Make it stop before it starts;
Quiet this undying heart.”
Broken Hearts & Zombie Parts is a soft but loud, gentle but reassuring reminder of the beauty that lies even in the imperfections. That our physical scars may be visible, but they cannot cut through the emotional divide of what gives our heart the strength and courage to stand strong against those who attack our imperfections. For there will always be someone - truly someone who feels that those flawS and faults are something that make you more beautiful and more courageous and more perfect in their eyes - that the beauty is often in the flaw. 🤍
And what better device exists as that of a camera? One that is crafted to gloss over those visible cracks in us, catered to only show the appealing sides and facets of our true natures. 🎥👥 It is that premise of a duo of friends who put their creative aspirations to their final film, it is that shadowy prospect that a life-altering open-heart operation is going to live a permanent stain upon him that has our sixteen-year-old protagonist Jesse test his own resolve about what really matters and how much face value exists on simply something is only that of face value? 🫀🫂
“Because you want everyone to love each other in the same bighearted way that you love them. But there’s only one problem with that.”
“We don’t all have your heart.”
I love the irony of working on a zombie romcom flick that somehow reflects on Jesse's own insecurities and doubts over accepting such a radical change to himself. It fitted well and I liked seeing him slowly come to realize that he did not have to put so much value on things of face value. It was fun being on set; it was a soft contrast to the more serious tone of what Jesse was dealing with. The characters, themselves, behaved normally - complete with all the relationship drama and misconceived notions one would expect from a YA read. 😅 The chaos, the craziness, the smooth-cutting banter - it all helped to develop the friendships into seeing how they very much needed to communicate with each other more to be a more connected unit. Jesse and Cas were an interesting pair and I enjoyed their dynamic; though, I seriously wish it could have been shown more, rather than tipped off to the side. 😕
As a newbie to William Hussey's writing style, I did find it fresh and engaging; the start, especially drew me in, at how Jesse's personality felt relatable and genuine. 🤌🏻🤌🏻 I wanted that feeling, though, to continue. I don't mind that the tone shifted to that of more of a serious one; one where addressing these important issues seemed more necessary than having it be a romantic-comedy. I felt the romantic comedy aspect, though, was a bit underdeveloped. As much as I did enjoy the start, the rest slowly faltered in humor and enjoyment, as it shifted towards the more serious themes of the plot. 'Not everyone we’re friends with when we’re kids remains close for life. It’s not anyone’s fault. Sometimes we just drift.' 💔 I liked Cas and Jesse's friendship; you know me and my childhood friends love and all. But, I did not see it actually happening; there were no real signs to its development, so that did not quite work well for me. If not for the objective of showing how people are more than what they appear, I did not see any signs of Jesse's boyfriend of interest having any discerning faults, save as they started to pile up as we neared the finish line. 😔
Jesse's relationship with his mother also bothered me. I understand where it finally came from, but his treatment towards her was very unbecoming for a mother-son relationship; even with how unique their relationship is, blocking his mother's calls - especially when she's so concerned for his health and well-being, she, not answering his questions about his father - everything played out so wrongly, I was surprised how it eventually turned into a favorable one, though. 🤷🏻♀️ But, another thing that pained me was how glaringly obvious the miscommunication trope - how each time the characters got close to revealing the truth, it would be pushed aside for a childish reason. If that had been avoided, I think it would have been a much more enjoyable read. 😔
“But for now all I want to do is survive.
Survive and see my friends again.
Screw secrets. Screw lies. Screw this drifting between us. I need them. I always have.”
At times, I thought Jesse was speaking to my heart; at other times, I felt he was pushing his limit. Self-deprecating that he was - plain and pathetic - he failed to see how perfect he was to those who truly loved him. And despite how he managed to hurt everyone close to him, simply because he was hurting on his own, the moment of clarity was a worthwhile one. 🥺 It feels wrong to dismiss Jesse's feelings of wanting to achieve so very much before he is scarred for life; his anxiety and fear over having a visible change to his body does seem valid. ... being open and honest with each other, we’ve finally begun to face our fears head on.' But, what is even more valid is how he learns that perhaps his focus on putting so much emphasis on that part of himself seems unwarranted in face of those who experience so much more rejection, shame and humiliation simply for how they behave, look, and appear. 😢 It is a sharp wake-up call that helps him realize not to bank on perfection, but to embrace the defective. The self-acceptance needed to love oneself - just as you are. In fact, who is to say that it is even defective or different?
Just because it does not live up to the ideal image of what people think is perfect? It is the company around him and the friends he has that teach him not to lay face value on that, and be proud of who you are, as you are. The build-up towards his eventual operation was well-done; the swirl of emotions where everything was hitting him all at once struck a visceral chord within me. 👍🏻👍🏻 The final reveal of Louis' true intentions were - man, I wanted to kick him where it hurts! I loved Jesse's resolve and pride in what he had undergone - not to feel ashamed by it - the good that came out of one of the darkest moments of his life. 'My scar was a badge of [pride, something positive. And it was beautiful.' If anything, for those who are struggling with feelings such as this - a poignant and positive feeling that resonates with even those who are perfect and know that they are more than just what we see of them. 🙏🏻
It had its ups and it had its downs, but it was a book I wanted to read for the longest time; especially with how wholesome a vibe the cover gives. 💜🩷🩵 As someone who carries her own personal and visible scar, Jesse's plight - while it may mean childish to some, does mean something to those who see those who are free of those scars. And if even if somehow it can leave someone with a hopeful feeling of positivity for their slights, then I can say with confidence that William Hussey successfully delivered the message of what he hoped to achieve. ✨