”I am proud to say that I am a very different person today than to that broken twenty one year old. At forty, I’m happily married and feel so fortunate to have experienced what I have in the past twenty years. The thought that I could’ve never had those years and not only robbed my own life, but destroyed so many lives around me, is beyond eerie. I would not wish that moment of darkness upon anyone”.
✨3.25 stars✨
⚠️TRIGGER WARNINGS BEFORE YOU READ THIS BOOK/REVIEW: attempted suicide, depression, anxiety, death threat, homophobia⚠️
Prior to reading this, whenever I heard/saw the name ‘Anthony Callea’, I’m immediately transported back to my 15 year old self discovering ‘Live For Love’ for the first time and loving it.
Unfortunately, it didn’t inspire me to look further into him, but that is one fond memory I hold quite dear to my heart.
It wasn’t until I saw this book in a Big W clearance section that I thought back to that memory and was intrigued to find out more about him.
When I saw that the audiobook was available on Audible’s monthly sale catalogue for April, it felt like the right time to pick this up.
Starting with some positives:
The number one thing that I found important when it came to speaking about some of the topics he discussed, Callea included a content warning and some important resources for people to reach out to right before the first chapter.
In most autobiographies/memoirs, you see the author mainly put them towards the end of the book, after the last chapter.
While it’s a good thing that some are adding these resources, I find it to be quite counterproductive when a author or celebrity writes about different traumatic times they’ve been through and the reader feels the same trauma (whether they’ve been through the same thing or are empathetic) but doesn’t know who to reach out to until they get to the end of the book.
I loved reading about his childhood, family background, and his humble beginnings prior to going onto Australian Idol .
Callea also spoke quite candidly on his struggle with his sexuality and his journey throughout the music industry.
After reading about some of the stuff Callea went through in the mid 2000’s, such as almost being outed on live TV and eventually being outed by a live traffic reporter, I’m glad that the majority of the world has changed their attitude towards people in the LGBTQ+ community.
Now onto the negatives:
While Callea has a beautiful singing voice, the audiobook narration left little to be desired. The narration sounded like he was reading off a script at some points (which is funny because technically he is 😂) with little/no emotion. It felt quite jagged and clunky from the words I was reading from the physical copy while also listening to the audiobook.
Some of the content he wrote about also left little to be desired. Callea would write about certain topics/people and he would write either “more on that later” or say that he couldn’t talk about specific things that he had brought up.
At around the 65% mark, the writing style seemed to go downhill.
The way Callea was writing about certain stories felt quite immature and juvenile.
Also, the name dropping was rife throughout the book. Thinking back on what I’ve read, it’s funny how Callea mentions his experiences with big celebrities such as Celine Dion and Whitney Houston but barely scratches the surface with the celebs he’s friends with in Australia, such as Brendan Fevola.
Overall, I somewhat enjoyed reading this.
This isn’t against Anthony, I’m sure he is a wonderful guy and I would definitely love to have a drink or two with him (not that I’d get the chance 🤣). But this book felt a little lacklustre ✨🌻