230-Mu Song-Lung Ying-tai-Essay-2008
Barack
2019/07/29
2020/06/24
—— "The so-called father-daughter-mother-child match only means that your fate with him is that you are constantly watching his back in this life and this life. You stand at this end of the path and watch him gradually disappear into the path. Turning place, and, with his back, he silently tells you: don’t chase. "
"Watching" was first published in Taiwan in 2008. It contains a total of 73 essays by Long Yingtai, including writing about father's death, mother's old age, son's separation, friend's concern, brothers' hand in hand, writing about failure and vulnerability, loss and letting go, and writing about perseverance. And absolutely nothingness.
Long Yingtai was born in 1952 in Liáo Village, Kaohsiung, Taiwan. He studied in the Department of Foreign Languages at National Cheng Kung University and obtained a Ph.D. in English at Kansas State University. In 1985, he gave birth to his son Andre. In 1999, he served as the first Director of the Cultural Affairs Bureau of Taipei City. In 2012, he became the first "Minister of Culture" in Taiwan, China. Representative works: "Wildfire Collection", "Dear Andre", "Watching", "A Hundred Years of Thinking", "Da Jiang Da Jiang 1994", etc.
Part of the catalog
1. There are some roads, only one person can walk
1.1. Watching
1.2. Yuer
1.3. Seventeen years old
2. There is a mark on the sand, a sound in the wind, and a shadow in the light
2.1. Find
2.2. Melancholy
2.3. My Village
3. Blooming tea trees all over the mountains
3.1. Nether
3.2. Disarm
3.3. Be young
"When two people walk together, half of their hearts are on the person, and only half of their hearts are looking at the scenery. To really watch, you must walk alone. Walking alone is the private meeting between you and the scenery."
"Shu people Zhang Dai, Tao Anqi. Not a dude, loves the prosperity, a good abode, a funny maid, a good prostitute, good clothes, good food, a good horse, a good lantern, a good firework, a good Liyuan, Good advocacy, good antiques, good flowers and birds, both tea and tangerine abuse, bookworms, poetry demon, toil for half a lifetime, all become dreams. Between the age of 50, the country is ruined and the country is destroyed, and the rest is broken. folding tripod residual disease piano and several books Zhi, Yan lack of a party only. commoner sparse buttercup, often to the famished look back twenty years ago, really Kate. "
In December of the fifth year of Chongzhen, Yu lived in West Lake. In the three days of heavy snow, the sound of people and birds in the lake was absolutely perfect. The day was more set, Yu took a small boat, held a lavender fire, and went to the lake pavilion to watch the snow alone. The rime is foggy, the sky and the clouds, the mountains, and the water are white. The shadows on the lake are just a trace of the long dike, a small pavilion in the center of the lake, a mustard with Yu Zhou, and two or three grains of people in the boat. On the pavilion, there were two people spreading felts and sitting opposite each other, and a boy was making wine, and the furnace was boiling. Seeing Yu Daxi, he said: "How can there be more people like this in the lake?" La Yu Tongyin. Yu Qiang drinks three whites and farewell. Asked his surname, he was from Jinling. Before getting off the boat, Zhouzi murmured: "Don't say that you are idiots, even more idiotics are like sannyasis."
"We tried desperately to learn how to successfully sprint 100 meters, but no one taught us: when you fall, how to fall with dignity; when your knee is broken and bloody, how to clean your wounds and how to bandage; you can't bear the pain. What kind of expressions should you use to face others when you are down? How to treat the bleeding wounds in your heart, how to get deep peace of mind, and how to clean up when your heart is broken like glass? Who taught us, What kind of bravery is really useful when you fall? What kind of wisdom can you survive? How can a fall become a power to travel? Why failure is often the practice of life? How can people who have fallen be more profound and sincere? We have not learned it." "Wisdom must come from loneliness."
"A lot, did not take long on the loose, because people become, life changes, and family, but also with the bad when long for stability, a lot of people into a house; when the desire for freedom, but also a lot of people eager to flee a stable family man. Maybe you met a person who yearned for freedom, and someone who was looking for freedom might fall in love with someone who was looking for stability. Home, accidentally became a place without warmth and only oppression. The outside world is desolate, but home But it can be colder. Although one person is lonely, two people can be more lonely while speaking silently under the lamp." "It's not that people are getting smaller, but you are getting old."
"It turns out that there is a categorical inverse relationship between these two passbooks. Every cent of "money" you earn in that passbook is accumulated with every inch of "time" in this passbook. "In exchange for it. And, even more amazing, the two "currency values" of "money" and "time" are non-circulating, non-convertible, and unequal currencies-once you use it, you can't use the passbook. "Money" is exchanged for the "time" that has already been paid out. No price or any number can be exchanged. Yes, because of this, so how different my attitudes towards the use of the two passbooks are. "Money" is becoming more generous, and "time" is becoming more and more stingy. "Money" can be given to strangers who pass by, while "time" is only given to warm and beloved people."
"Happiness is that the ordinary days remain the same. Happiness is that the ordinary people remain the same." "It costs three to twenty-five dollars to bury a landmine, which is extremely fast; to clear a landmine, it costs three hundred to one thousand. U.S. dollars, but-how to sweep mines? A minesweeper, risking being blown to pieces, lay on the ground, holding a metal rod for mine detection, and stretched out to the ground in front of him all day. He can clear an area of 20 to 50 square meters. This means that it will take 4,300 years to clear one-fifth of Afghanistan’s landmines."
"The dividing line between civilization and barbarism is weak, chaotic, and will break if you pull it." "You look around, there is a red hustle and bustle, but it seems to see the boundless indifferent empty space, those who come are always coming, those who go are always going , Nothing can be grasped or kept; it turns out that all the hustle and bustle of the red dust is the grass rolling by the wind, running in one direction, the end of the wilderness. It turns out that all my present moments belong to others In the past. He who is reluctant to give up, he hurries to get rid of. What you rush to get rid of, others are reluctant to give up. The continuation of life is an eternal transfer process of nostalgia and getting rid of."
"When you haven't seen this flower, this flower is dead with you; when you see this flower, the color of this flower is understood for a while, and you know that this flower is not outside your heart."
Objective things want to have an impact on us. Must act on our consciousness first. When something is not thought of in our minds, what is the difference between it and nonexistence? If the sound of a tree falling is not heard by any person or animal, what is the difference whether it falls? It only exists when its impact is felt. Such as sound, overwhelming wires and so on . It's like in the game , the map of the area that the player has not reached is actually not drawn by the computer. The computer will only render what the player has seen.
" Many, many children are waiting for the first bell ringing in the playground on the playground. The little hands, circled in the palms of father and mother, looked at the surroundings with timid eyes. They are kindergarten graduates, but They still don’t know a law: the graduation of one thing is always the opening of another. "
Like the game , fiction, animation , like , the end of each event, followed by another new thing. Life interesting places , then this is it. Whenever we are sentimental because of the end of the matter and the parting of people , it is actually the beginning of a new journey.
" He was in a long line, waiting for the passport inspection; I was standing outside, following his back with my eyes and moving forward inch by inch. Finally it was his turn, stopped at the customs window for a while, then took my passport back, and flashed in. The door was suddenly invisible. I've been waiting, waiting for a glance back before he disappeared. But he didn't, not once. "
If when you leave , there is a person in your care you watched you leave behind. Then we'd better look back at the other party at the last moment when we disappear from the other party's field of vision , and smile.
" Slowly and slowly, I learned that the so-called father-daughter mother-child game only means that your fate with him is that you are constantly watching his back drift away in this life and this life. You are standing here on the path. At one end, watching him gradually disappear into the corner of the path, and, with his back, he silently tells you: don't chase. "
Parents can only accompany us for the first 18 years of life. Our children only accompany us for the middle 18 years of our lives. And friends come and go in our lives. Only his wife , was able to accompany our most personal life. Therefore, how can one choose a life partner carelessly?
" Will old women be like this? They are getting thinner and thinner, their feet are getting lighter, their voices are getting weaker, their expressions are getting more and more withdrawn, that is to say, people are gradually turning into shadows. Is that so? "
When my own grandmother passed away, she gradually lost her memory. She almost forgot her sons, daughters , and grandchildren . Memory is one of the most precious things of mankind. If there is no memory, am I still me ?
" "You must not believe what the teacher said," Hua Fei smiled. "The teacher told us: Don't believe in this kind of'pure' love. In fact, love lasts mostly because the two have a foundation of'mutual benefit'. Without a'mutually beneficial' relationship, love will not last. I looked at him in surprise and asked, "Do you agree with him?" Hua Fei nodded. I quickly recalled my 17-year-old self: I, and my friends my age, believed in Qiong Yao. All men have deep and painful eyes, and women have cold little hands and cold hands. Hot and crazy enthusiasm. Love is the soul without meat, it is surging and uncontrollable; the love that is beautiful, romantic, pure and destructive is the highest level of love. "
When a man in love , experienced probably really is such a pure spirit can be detached style of physical love. But I think , after experiencing the failure of a passionate first love. This feeling of high fever will probably fade away gradually.
" Tsai Qin's voice has the deepness of the river, the melancholy of the evening, and the lingering lingering of a hangover. She sang in a low voice, the reverberation of the sound and then abruptly stopped, people responded with fanatical applause. She said, you know. It’s my song. What you don’t know is my life, and my life is not important to you. Amidst the waves of applause, I didn’t applaud, but I still looked at her deeply. The “things” she said, It was the death of the fifty-nine-year-old director Yang Dechang. The "life" she said was her own life; but life, except for herself, who might know? A person who once loved so much that he couldn't help himself has died, Cai Qin, where is yours One song is to mourn; which song is to say goodbye; which song is to re-promise; which song is to make eternal preparations for yourself? "
There are not many people in this world who have the will , time , and patience to understand the story of our life. Even if we become famous in the future, people may just envy our talents or status . They never accompany us to grow up together, never comfort us or support us when we were the youngest and most disappointed . One day it will become famous all over the world, but apart from a few old friends , who can know your own loneliness ?
" Today is the night of July 7, the second night that the former traveler Shen Junshan suffered a three-time stroke and fell into a coma. There are fifty thousand people singing happily, applause, laughter, and singing, mixed with the city lights prancing and illuminating. The pink sky is gone. At this moment, Shen Junshan, who has been known as a "gifted scholar" all his life, is in the intensive care unit alone. Of course, the talented scholar is as clear as ice and snow: There are certain things that can only be done by one person. Some are related, Only one person can walk. There are some roads, and only one person can walk. "
" I used to stay in the villa for thirty days without leaving the house. I sat on the balcony and recorded the minutes and seconds of the setting sun and the movement of the point where it touched the edge of the mountain when it fell. Sometimes, trekking birds accidentally flew into the house, I flapped my wings from one bookcase to another, looking for a way out in confusion and panic. On a particularly humid day, I opened the floor-to-ceiling glass door of the balcony and stood in the middle of the living room, guarding a cloud on the top of the mountain in the distance. Looking at this cloud, slowly drifting from the mountain peak, drifting over, across the balcony, into my living room, enveloping me, and then flow to each room, finally divided into small flowers, floating out from different windows , Return to Shanlan. "
This time I experienced the feeling of being dormant for 6 months. Re-read more than 200 books , as if to re-experience the over 200 different life, with more than 200 different friends to talk to. It's hard to say what the gains are from how to do it . I can only wait for the future again when memories of this time, its effect will emerge. At that time, there may be a mottled feeling of time being scattered.
" There is a kind of loneliness, adding a person to talk about, a close dog, maybe it can be reduced. There is a kind of loneliness, the boundlessness of the "exhausted boat" between the boundless world, perhaps can only face each other alone , Practice without makeup. "
"I used to believe in patriotism, but later I learned that there was a problem with the definition of "national". Usually, the "national" defined by those who tempted you to be patriotic is not necessarily cute, not necessarily worthy of love, and more likely to be worth overthrowing. I have believed in history. Later, I learned that half of the original history is fabricated.