Sometimes, it is impossible to remember any less than we want — * yet thinking how wrong it is to refuse anything after all, and how, those times we refused each other, we seemed to disappear. * [...] we live in places we imagine for each other, so that it is all right that we never go back. I have imagined a place where we can hear the rain again before it touches ground, where you can hear the sounds of your childhood disguised as the sounds of the cat waiting for birds to approach the feeder. Most of these things have nothing to do with us, we like to think, hoping, really, that we can hide better than our words that mean so many wrong things. * [...] and how love is the most important thing, if only we knew who to love, and when. * This is a poem so reluctant to reveal how it arrived there or to face the outside world, it tries to talk only to itself. [...] I think it has to do with the way the heart tries to understand its own losses by those of others. * There's always a gesture or word we don't see, or hear, showing us too late how we might have cared. * I cannot imagine not holding you closer than our pasts, not loving you this way forever, or to think you would not be there at all, one or both of us caught in the invisible webbing of a moment we never saw.