I will start off by saying that I both loved and hated this book at the same time. The love overpowers the hate because I think it has a very powerful message in it that everyone needs to know about, even if they don’t ever read this book. And believe me, I don’t blame anyone for not wanting to read this book (unless it’s for homophobic reasons). Because it is deeply and downright depressing, even for Julie Anne Peters. Her most depressing one yet, it actually almost made me cry (the SECOND time around reading it too, mind you, so I was even prepared this time and knew all that was going to happen, and it still left a huge impact on me). It’s such a complicated dynamic, because I feel like it’s easier for us to comment on and criticize a character’s behavior or actions in a fictional setting when it comes to abusive relationships, whereas in real life, we’re more reluctant to do that because we’re afraid of crossing over into the territory of victim-blaming. I don’t, however, think that speaking about how the victim CAN try to do something to make the abuse stop is the same as victim-blaming. On the contrary, we’re probably doing them a disservice if we just give up and say, “There’s nothing you can do, you’re helpless, you have to just wait for someone else to come along and fight the abuser off for you.” Because that’s not true.
That’s why I had such mixed feelings about the way Joanna was acting when Reeve was treating her the way she was, especially the two most cringe-worthy parts—where Joanna loses her job and where she loses her volunteer position at the hospice she loves so much. These were things that Joanna loved and that were helping her succeed at life, so when Reeve took them away and Joanna kept justifying it and saying Reeve didn’t have a choice, it’s not her fault, blah blah blah…and how Joanna still loves her and that’s it’s okay, you just want to SCREAM and shake her. It’s like, can’t you see how much she’s messing up your life??? I feel sad and mad at Joanna at the same time. She’s a good kid and doesn’t deserve to be treated like that, but she blatantly lets it happen for a very long time, and to extreme levels. Is that blaming the victim? I don’t think so. I think it’s drawing a line, a very important line, where you’re not blaming the victim for the abuser’s actions…you’re blaming them for their own (or lack thereof). I’m glad Peters didn’t just make this the typical abusive relationship story. There’s more to it than that. It shows that the abuse does not only affect the person being abused, but the people around them. It affects not only how they treat themselves, but how they treat others (a very pivotal moment in the book is when Joanna shoves Tessa into the cabinet). It affects not only that one relationship, but your entire life, spreading like wildfire. And oftentimes it is because the abuser comes from a terrible environment themselves, another thing Peters set out to represent in this book and succeeded at. I also think it’s time we start talking about the types of abusive relationships amongst people that no one talks about: ones amongst homosexual couples (males abusing males, females abusing females), or females abusing males, which people like to treat like a joke for some reason. Either way, the only kind you really ever hear about is males abusing females. Yes it’s important to continue talking about women who get abused by men as well, it’s just scary that people think that’s the only kind that exists.
My favorite character ended up being Tessa, which is ironic considering she annoyed me to high heaven in the beginning. Of course I sympathize deeply with both Joanna and Reeve, because they are highly flawed characters you’re supposed to become frustrated with and want to turn to several times and be like, “Joanna banana, what are you doing!!!” I’m glad they end up getting the help that they both need, but I squirm when I think about what probably would’ve happened to them if Tessa hadn’t been there. Joanna was pretty responsible and self-reliant before Reeve came in. But love and abuse can really bring out the dark side in people, and weakness. Tessa really took charge at the end and more than made up for her absence in Joanna’s life earlier. Otherwise, Joanna would’ve ended up like Reeve, who ultimately had no one. And Reeve would’ve never gotten into that women’s shelter and she would’ve been all alone. Or worse, with her father…I’m just glad the book had a semi-happy ending, and believe it or not I was sad to see Reeve and Joanna have to leave each other in the end and they might never see each other again. That line where Joanna says she’ll drive away from her one visit to Reeve at that women’s shelter and probably never see her again gave me chills both times. They’d spent so much time together and while some of it was awful, some of it had laughs and joy and happiness from them both too. Them lying on the grass was their last time together and Reeve finally apologized to Joanna for ruining her life, at least in that year. It was sad, but it was a happy kind of sadness because as Joanna said, they both needed to be in a better place. They both deserved better.
Man, does Julie Anne Peters know how to write an ending. Novak told Joanna she knows how to pick ‘em (girls), and I say, Peters knows how to pick ‘em (endings!). I’m so glad she did what was best for both the girls, rather than doing what people might most likely want—for them to end up together. It’s better to let people go if it’s going to save them from a world of pain, than to keep them together just because they’re addicted to each other (usually in a very unhealthy way). What’s disturbing is that there are authors who write about these types of relationships all the time (usually with a “hot” guy) and write them like they’re okay normal relationships, and people support them. Yes, Twilight and Hush, Hush and Eona, I am talking about you guys (not you specifically, Eona, just the bastards in your story who hurt you). I bet if Peters wrote those books, she’d have done it RIGHT, and gotten the girl to see how horrifying that sort of treatment is, how damaging and fucked up, and how she needs to get away from it. Hell, Reeve isn’t even half as bad as the guys in those books, but she’s still painted as more villainous than them. That’s how you tell who the smart authors are.
Other characters:
-Martin was pretty cool.
-Novak-meh. She was annoying for the most part, but she still had her heart in the right place.
-Robbie-oh god oh god, WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE?! ): I sort of thought of him, Reeve, and Joanna as like the Three Amigos or Three Musketeers…there always seems to be a trio, usually one guy and two girls. And I thought it was sweet that Reeve and him practically shared everything together (even though she was mean to him a lot).
-EVELYN. I hated this rich bitch so much. She was horrid from the beginning. She’s one of those idiots who think that because they’ve been through something tragic, they have every right to go around yelling at everyone else about it, even when literally no one is doing ANYTHING to them at all. She’s basically Jude Farraday…*shudder* Thank heavens Peters knows how despicable those kind of people are. Frankly I hated her so much that by the time it got around to the part where Joanna and Reeve were making out in her daughter’s room, I honestly didn’t care. That might sound horrible, but that’s just how I feel. In fact, I’m kind of glad they did it. I think I even smirked at that part. Yeah, I’m merciless and fucked up, what can I say. The daughter didn’t get hurt, but I’m glad Evelyn did, because the bitch had it coming. And I think it was more than obvious that she had a problem with them being lesbians along with what they were doing. As if it made it worse. As if if they were straight, it wouldn’t have been as bad. Evelyn needed to get an ass-whipping, that’s the only thing I desperately wish was added to the book.
The writing was a little off for me. One minute it felt like it was taking too much time to describe a simple action (like pushing a mechanical pencil to get lead out) and then the next it felt like it was going too fast, probably because of some of the cringe-incidents. I could've done without many of the "Joylands" too. I mean, I know they were there to demonstrate the fantasies going on inside Joanna's head, but did there really need to be so many of them? Two or three maybe, but no more.