The best-selling memoir Confessions of a Kamikaze Cowboy tells the fascinating story of actor Dirk Benedict’s journey from the big sky country of Montana to the hustle and hype of Hollywood. It also describes his odyssey of self-discovery and growth as he changes from struggling actor to celebrity, from meat eater to vegetarian, from cancer victim to cancer victor. Brilliantly written―insightful, witty, and always challenging― Confessions of a Kamikaze Cowboy may change the way you perceive actors, and even make you reconsider the truths in your own life.
If I were to compare this memoir to two of the best written memoirs I’ve ever read, Frank McCourt’s ANGELA’S ASHES and Gerda Weissmann Klein’s ALL BUT MY LIFE, I would say that the writing itself does not merit the five star ratings that I easily gave to the other two.
Dirk Benedict himself would agree. I’m sure of it.
But, when I compare the impact that this memoir has had on my own life, I can not help but give it five stars.
I first discovered this book in the early 1990s, probably a year or two after it was written. (The book was originally published in 1991).
I’d been a vegetarian for almost 10 years at that point, but I wasn’t eating responsibly. Yes, I’d eat salads (I’ve always felt blessed that I prefer salads to almost any other meal), but I didn’t have a reliable protein source, and I’d often feel so out-of-whack from all of the raw vegetables with nothing to ground me, I’d finish off my healthy salad with a snack bag of peanut M&Ms (my preferred poison, at the time).
I often felt lightheaded, suffered bad menstrual cycles and had frequent headaches and migraines. I started dating a man (who would go on to become my husband) who was a vegetarian, but was also eating a macrobiotic diet. Within weeks of our dating, he had given me a copy of Michio Kushi’s THE MACROBIOTIC WAY and this book, CONFESSIONS OF A KAMIKAZE COWBOY.
Before long, I had a new stack of books and an entirely different grocery list. My kitchen was completely transformed, and, after a nasty detoxification period, I entered into a decade of the most decadent, gorgeous health I had ever known.
Four dogs, three kids, two cats and one flock of chickens later. . . I recently found myself sitting with a new friend, describing the health I had experienced for a decade, following a macrobiotic diet. I was explaining how exhausted, depleted, and dependent upon our very misguided medical system I feel these days. Also: lost, on the topic of food.
You know the deal. It’s turned into a whole THING. People claim it’s “common sense” how to eat, but that’s not really true anymore. There’s a lot of confusion over HOW to eat and WHAT to eat, and the macrobiotic diet, in general, has gone out of fashion.
But, that’s not good enough for me. I remember, vividly, how I felt eating a macrobiotic diet: centered, calm, filled with life. The whites of my eyes were completely clear, I had no bags, whatsoever, under my eyes. I was thin, without trying to be, my bathroom habits were flawless, my skin was gorgeous and I felt RADIANT.
The notion that there exist incurable diseases is as false as the one that claims the Earth is flat.
So, about a month ago, a light bulb went off in my tired brain: How about going back to your roots, kid? Have you or have you not learned something during your time here? The part of me that is fighting the hardest for my vivacity put on her combat boots and sneered, “Watch me.”
I’ve always wanted to reread this memoir, but it couldn’t have been more timely for me than it is now.
Yes, Dirk, I’m with you, baby. I’m a Kamikaze Cowgirl, and I’m wondering if you’ll still honor the challenge you made, in 1991, that you’d cook for me for a year if I did three things for 10 days? I’m there, my rice cake, but I won’t hold you to it, though I would love to meet you out for a cup of Kukicha.
If you have no idea what this 30 year old memoir is about, I’ll give you this quick summary: American actor, Dirk Benedict, was diagnosed with prostate cancer, at the age of 30. Things fell apart for him, quickly, but he refused to go down, AND he refused any help from the medical community. He adopted a macrobiotic diet and took a vow of silence, for 6 weeks, in a cabin offered up by Michio Kushi himself and started the process of healing himself body, mind, and spirit.
Quick update: Mr. Benedict is alive and well, at 80. This picture was taken last week of Dirk Benedict, at 80, and Erik Estrada, at 76. Rock on, you two!
Dirk Benedict’s memoir isn’t what you might think. It is NOT touchy-feely. He is not a people pleaser. He is outspoken, and, if he doesn’t insult you AT LEAST twice, there’s probably something really odd about you.
He ain’t playing. I don’t always agree with him, but I think I can credit him with saving my life twice now.
(I’m only 8 days back on a macrobiotic diet and I already feel like I can see in the dark and lasso a bull. Just saying).
How many of you have shared the dream of this Kamikaze Cowboy to be free of all cravings? Could it possibly be that this paragon of nature, this quintessential creation of God who has walked the moon, built the pyramids, discovered nuclear energy, is a slave to a dish of ice cream?
This was a very interesting read and a surprise delight. We all know Dirk as the handsome "Face" from the A Team, but who knew he was so well spoken, literate, and so insightful? This was a fascinating telling of how he found out at a very young age that he had prostate cancer and the lengths to which he went to cure himself through natural means. I absolutely loved his realization that every time someone announced that they were going in for surgery they never came out the same and still ended up dying sooner rather than later....that everything on the planet is made to balance our appetites if we have some self-control...and that asking, "why me?" is a silly question. His understanding of the fact that your choices bring consequences, whether you like it or not is so refreshing from a world of entitled minds. He ate meat heavily for 20+ years because that was how he was raised, so even though he chose to become a vegetarian and deserved the good health that his personal choice afforded, one summer of living under his new regime wasn't enough to rid his body of the 20 years of choices before it. He accepted sickness, pain, and physical changes, all because he knew that his choices were leading him to a better place and he stuck to the path come what may. I enjoyed hearing new ideas on health from his voice, and have recommended it to others since finishing it.
While I don't agree with everything he says, it an easy and interesting read. He has a unique perspective as a cancer survivor as well as being able to tell the story of 'finding himself'. I found two things odd. He speaks poorly of why authors write, yet doesn't seem to hold that opinion to himself. And, he is proud of himself for finding his calm - of letting things go, yet his last chapters read 'angry'. In addition, he has made it quite clear how disgusted he is with the new Battlestar Galactica series. A man who has found his inner peace would not give a damn about that. It's an interesting example of one man's perspective of himself versus an outsider's perspective of that man.
If, like me, you're rapidly approaching middle-age, you might remember Dirk Benedict as Templeton 'Faceman' Peck from the A-Team. If you're even older, you may remember him as the roguish Starbuck from Battlestar Galactica. This book is his own story about his change of diet, from meat eater to strict vegetarian, culminating with being diagnosed with prostate cancer when he was only thirty and his decision to use an extreme version of his diet to purge his system of this unpleasant and potentially fatal intruder rather than use conventional medical treatment. Given that he's now a healthy guy in his mid seventies, it evidently worked for him.
This was an interesting read; I knew that Dirk's cancer battle was going to form a large part of this book, but I didn't anticipate how much of it was going to be devoted to his regime of healthy eating and his belief in the Eastern ideas of balance, yin and yang. Although I'm glad I read it I would've preferred a book that was more like a normal autobiography and more about the film and TV work he was involved with. Still, although I don't agree with everything he said, I enjoyed it; and I have to give him kudos for being a far more erudite writer than I'd imagined.
If you're a fan or are studying the medical affects of healthy eating, you may find this book of interest. Not recommended for doctors.
Pretty disappointing, party because I love Dirk Benedict so much, and partly because I thought it would have more useful information.
It suffers from the same issues as many books of this type, where the author feels so enlightened that it grows into a sort of conceit where everyone else will tell you wrong, and not one in a million people would get this, and even other people who claim to be doing this probably don't get this at the level that I do--this despite the fact that the kamikaze in the title comes from the reckless manner in which he tried things.
I certainly don't doubt that brown rice is good for you, and I am willing to believe that using principles of yin and yang to balance your diet might work, but there must be much better books for figuring that out, and I am sure he is wrong about the urine.
I was hoping for more of a autobiography about his acting career, but I do appreciate the authors wit and voice in describing his lifestyle and remedies. He is not shy about putting everything out there and kudos for his courage.
Confessions of a Kamikaze Cowboy by Dirk Benedict is a refreshingly raw and unorthodox memoir that goes far beyond what you'd expect from an actor's life story. Known for his roles in Battlestar Galactica and The A-Team, Benedict reveals a deeply personal journey of self-discovery, not only as an actor but as a human being confronting his mortality.
What stands out most in this book is Benedict’s honesty. He doesn’t sugarcoat his experiences or try to craft a glamorous Hollywood narrative. Instead, he offers a vulnerable account of battling prostate cancer, making the radical decision to reject conventional treatments, and embracing a macrobiotic diet that he credits with saving his life. His take on healing is unconventional, even controversial, but he presents it with conviction, inviting readers to reflect on their own health, choices, and mindset.
But this isn’t just a health memoir—it’s also a candid exploration of the highs and lows of a career in Hollywood. Benedict’s anecdotes from the acting world are as entertaining as they are insightful, offering a glimpse into the rollercoaster of fame with both humor and humility. He peppers the narrative with wit, keeping the tone light even when discussing serious topics like illness and recovery.
Benedict’s reflections on life are thought-provoking, touching on the connections between physical health, spiritual well-being, and personal responsibility. His philosophical musings are woven into his story in a way that feels natural and engaging, giving the reader much more than just a peek into his personal history. You come away with a sense that this is a man who has truly lived—and learned—from every moment, the good, and the bad.
This book is a testament to resilience, to thinking outside the box, and to forging your own path—even when it means going against the grain. For anyone interested in personal growth, holistic health, or simply a different kind of Hollywood memoir, Confessions of a Kamikaze Cowboy is an absolute must-read.
Five stars for this fearless, enlightening, and entertaining memoir that challenges the norm while staying deeply human.
" Confessions Of A Kamikaze Cowboy " racconta l'affascinante storia del viaggio dell'attore Dirk Benedict, dai cieli del Montana al trambusto e al clamore di Hollywood. Descrive anche la sua odissea di scoperta di sé e crescita, mentre si trasforma da attore in difficoltà a celebrità, da carnivoro a vegetariano, da vittima di cancro a vincitore del cancro. Scritto in modo brillante, perspicace, arguto e sempre stimolante, questo libro può essere una spunta a riconsiderare le verità della propria vita. " Confessions Of A Kamikaze Cowboy " potrebbe cambiare per sempre il tuo modo di vedere i medici e la salute e metterà in discussione i tuoi preconcetti su come affrontare la malattia e assumerti le tue responsabilità.
Dirk Benedict è un attore noto principalmente per aver interpretato il ruolo del Tenente Starbuck in " Battlestar Galactica " ( 1978 ) e, soprattutto, per aver dato vita a quel fantastico personaggio che è il Tenente Templeton " Faceman " Peck dell'A-Team.
Livre vraiment intéressant mais très particulier dans l'approche qu'a Dirk Benedict de la nourriture et la santé . j'ai l'impression de sentir dans de nombreux passage la colère couvé sous son écriture ( peut être que cela vienne de ma traduction , l'anglais n’étant pas ma langue maternelle ) j'ai personnellement préféré son second livre biographique " and then we went fishing"
Very strange. Very interesting. Very different. Very honest. Do I believe that Dirk Benedict is a very cool and earnest guy, yes. Do I believe the benefits of his macrobiotic diet, no. Enjoyed his health and food story which was 90% of the book, but would have liked to read more of his adventures and life stories. Still a good read, and I am glad I read it!
I met Dirk Benedict at a Comic Con event in June of 2015. I had always been a HUGE fan and had expected a brief photo-op and for him to dismiss me and return to his star-duties. Contrary to my expectations, he was a wonderful, thoughtful person. He spent at least 30 minutes speaking with me, my husband and my two children. I was intrigued by his thoughtfulness, which led me to the desire to read this book.
First, it's NOT what you'd expect. I appreciated the mix of health/lifestyle with memoir/life story but I would have preferred more of an equal mix. That said, I still give this 5 star because I feel that he believes this IS his life story. Regardless of what we are interested in hearing, this is what really happened.
Not to mention the fact that I've always been in and out of healthy diets.. mostly IN them.. this was another reminder of the importance of, and meaning of, food in our lives... and how the status quo can become normal even if it's terrible.. we must always pay attention. One of the reviewers said there was TMI on the health front... but isn't that the entire point? To have "Face".. the most handsome man of his time going public with such unattractive details is the whole point of it. While I don't agree with everything (I believe in compromise and a meeting between eastern and western medicine), I lean more toward Dirk's beliefs and hope that western medicine eventually catches up with this insight. I'm glad that we've progressed since the writing of this book.. and I know that, at least, while he was at Comic Con in my city this year.. there were many restaurants he could have chosen that would have met his needs.
Erstmal gestehe ich, dass ich das Buch nur aus reiner Lust und Neugier gekauft hab, und Hernn Benedict nicht wirklich zugetraut hab, gut schreiben zu können. Dafür ist eine Entschuldigung fällig. Ich fand es sehr angenehm zu lesen.
Oh, und es ist sehr bildhaft geschrieben. Fast zu bildhaft. Bisher wusste ich nicht, was man alles auspinkeln kann ... uuuhh Also was ist das Buch? Ist eine Biographie? Ist es ein Ratgeber? Eine Ansammlung geistreicher (?) Anekdoten? Irgendwie alles davon, doch ersteres am wenigsten, aber auch kein Unterhaltungsbuch.
Wieso ist es ein schwieriges Buch (mal abgesehen davon, dass es aus all meinen Genrebegriffen rausfällt)? Weil es rein um persönliche Erfahrung und daraus gezogene Schlüsse und Ansichten geht - und Dirks Ansichten sind erstaunlich kontrovers.
Ich bin mit diesen esotherischen Ansichten groß geworden, jeder, der dafür nicht offen ist, sollte die Finger davon lassen. Fans von Dirk können sich trotzdem ranwagen, einfach weil so viele Details und Anekdoten wiedergegeben werden, und weil das Buch stellenweise einfach saukomisch ist.
I loved this! The overall message seems to be that there's no point trying to search for the meaning of life or of living your life according to some code or another. There is no code; it's just about you. But it's also about consequences. However you choose to live your life will have consequences for you and for the world around you. Accept those, and you've pretty much got it.
The other reason I liked this is because it shows Dirk's intelligence, depth and insight. He's not the cardboard cutout, two-dimensional characters that you sometimes see him portray on the screen, but much more than that. Someone that I'd like to get to know for HIM!
Oh, and page 13. Definitely worth reading for page 13!!
One time I decided that I wanted to read the autobiographies of everyone who was on the A-Team. This turned out to be impossible, since Hannibal and Murdock and Amy never wrote books. But Face did! And it was actually pretty good.
I would not recommend searching out this book, but if it's sitting right in front of you, go ahead and picked it up.
This book was the tipping point to make me a vegetarian. Srsly. There's a LOT of stuff about vegetarianism in here and for some reason it stuck with me. I know it's silly but it's true.
I adore Dirk Benedict. Yes, this is THAT Dirk Benedict, the one from Battlestar Galactica and the A-Team. But this book has little to do with his career. Here he talks in depth about his bout with cancer and how he survived it through natural treatment. This book is a must read for everyone. You will never look at your life, or your body, in the same light. I'm not a person who reads books about healing, and I can honestly say this book is life altering.
Wasn't sure what to expect from this book ... In truth, I only read it as i had a bit of a crush on Dirk Benedict back in the 'A Team' days. I was immediately hooked though! This book is his journey of battling cancer with out medical intervention. Despite the subject matter this isn't a heavy read. It's beautifully wrote and left me feeling in awe of this guy who stuck to his guns and did what he had to do ....
Mm. Lo de la macrobiótica me interesa y puede que mire de informarme un poco más, y está muy bien escrito, pero lo cuenta demasiado en plan adoctrinador y con un punto de vista muy extremista. Expresa algunas opiniones que no me gustan, pero está bien por conocer su experiencia y, al ser un libro que trata sobre él mismo, sobre lo que ha vivido y lo que piensa, tiene derecho a ser todo lo subjetivo que quiera.
My husband and I read this back in the late 1980's and enjoyed it. Very cute memoir. It is really a 3.5 star book (if that) but I have very warm feelings about it. The author is "The Face" in the TV show The A-Team back in the early 80's and then got cancer, got buddhism and his cancer magically went away! Who needs modern medicine?
I remember reading this book ages ago. It was really the first biography that I walked away thinking "I really didn't want to know that" in a TMI sense. Isn't amazing that certain people can grow in your eyes the more that you learn about them. Other people seem better off left as icons.
All I know of Dirk Benedict is that he played Face on The A-Team in the 80's. But he has a very commanding voice and witty style of writing that shines in this autobiography. His cure for cancer is a bit ... unique, to be sure, but I thoroughly enjoyed his memoir.
an old boyfriend gave this book to me as a joke and i don't know why i kept it. it probably doesn't actually deserve 4 stars, but i really liked it anyway. the cute one on the a team, dirk benedict's got interesting views on diet and i can kind of get behind them.
El Equipo Ako rubio guaperasak idatzitako liburua. Osasunaz ari da. Nola gaixotu zen, zergatik eta nola sendatu zen, ikasgai makrobiotikoak jarraituz. Uneka astuna egin zait. Baina esperientzia pertsonalak ezagutzea beti egiten zait interesgarri eta hau ere bai. Uneka hori ere.
It's surprisingly funny and thoughtful. Not to mention inspiring! I know a few cancer survivors who like Dirk refused surgery and looked to diet to cure their cancer. Some are 20 years past their initial diagnosis so I'd say it's safe to say it works. Another reason to become vegan :)