mmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM I am sO ANGRY
I mean. In a good way, because I really, really care. More than I thought I ever would when I started this trilogy. It really snuck up on me! I anticipate this series will linger in my mind for a while. It hits a lot of the right buttons to make this stick - the biggest of all being my constant need to mentally compare and contrast cultures and histories and understandings of how the world works. And that's pretty much what this series is.
Before I started this book, I wasn't expecting it to go where it did. But looking back, I find I wasn't all that surprised. Elliott did a good job of laying down all the pieces of the characterizations and personal histories that when the final third of the book laid down the drama, it wasn't a surprise. It felt like this was the only way it could have happened, like we were heading here all along.
So be warned of spoilers beware for all three books in Crossroads so far (dated August 2015), because I'm about to talk about all of it.
Okay?
Okay.
FUCKING. ANJI. I'm sitting here trying to explain just how angry I am, because just. It's not just the feeling of "wow, I hate this character", I hate him and it cuts deeper because I actually did like him. But seeing how Elliott put down the pieces of what was going to happen in a way that's only obvious now that I'm finished, it was obviously correct. I mean, I don't feel the book betrayed my expectations - Anji the person did, and I'm angry that I felt hopeful for him in the first place.
I'm - I can't even articulate it, but I'm trying. The biggest thing my mind keeps coming back to is that he changed the Hundred. He and his chiefs made this thing about adapting to the Hundred and their ways, but when faced with something he didn't like, he dismissed it. He couldn't fathom that things were actually different in the Hundred. Not just that the people believed different things, but that the rules truly were not the same as how he was raised. That really grinds my gears. Anji turned out to be the kind of person who listened to his friends in the Hundred, and then didn't even consider it. He would just go "welp, you're being deceived" and he is so condescending that my gorge rises just thinking about - god, everything.
How he treated/thought of the Guardians, how he could never just stop being threatened by Joss, the fact that he imposed Qin law/punishment over the Hundred, how he got to win over the reeves (god I want to throw up), and I don't even want to talk about him hitting Mai. I was so hopeful that he was learning and growing and expanding his mind. Because of that hope, what he turned out to be in the end is about as revolting as the rest of the villains. He is a fucking villain and his beliefs are repellent.
Him and Mai truly did love each other, I think. So the entire ending was just sickening. I love Mai, she is fantastic. Just a lovely woman. Her refusal to take Anji back gives me life. There was a line where she has this realization, seeing criminals strung up, that Anji was Qin and still a conqueror above all, and beyond my revulsion, it was also just truly sad. Mai and Joss and all the Hundred never changed his mind about anything. He's still just what he is. And how fitting is it that the man most concerned with others being corrupted is the one in the end who couldn't change his mind. As the characters described the slow, gentle turn towards the Shadow Gate, Anji can't even see what he's doing. There is no self-awareness. In the end, Anji was the one who acts without compassion and understanding for others because he is so convinced of his own righteousness. I hate him.
Huuu! Now let's talk about others! Mai had an amazing resolution. I thought she had become a Guardian in the final chapter, until I realized that she actually didn't have a cloak. In fact, I didn't realize it until the four Guardians left in the end and didn't refer to her as one of their own. But yeah, seriously, what a thing. She decides in this book she is not going to be afraid, she's going to be angry, and she's going to stand up to anybody including her husband, because she wants to do the right thing. She takes a brave, difficult way by letting her conscience rule. Not a lot of people can do that.
I can't say how pleased I am that Mai turned out to be the hero in the end. She learns that she can exist by herself. She has her friend Miravia with her, Priya and O'eki, Keshad and Zubaidit, she's loved and respected by everyone around her. Anji's men all adore her. Anji tries to win her back, but she's having none of it. She's made her own family with people who are trustworthy and open with her, instead of being withholding and angry. Mai was having these small revelations all along, that life didn't have be like it was with her old family. And every time she had one of these revelations, she grabbed it with both hands and she WON.
A couple small things before I move on.
Tohon and Shai - I wasn't expecting to be as moved as I was. When Tohon asked him to be a part of his household as his son, I choked up a little. This relationship was under the radar, but was certainly built up enough for this to be satisfying. Tohon was so good to Shai, and Shai was clearly desperate for a real family. I really came around to Shai, he grew up a lot. I wish they could've stayed and been a part of what Mai was building in the Hundred, but I'm glad they found happiness.
Keshad and Miravia. Mmmm... I love Miravia. I'm not so hot on Keshad. SO many times in this book, I was thinking "oh my god, Keshad, shut the fuck up". He's not a good person. He's genuinely awful. Why would I want a darling like Miravia to have to put up with him? But Keshad ... I THINK, really is trying to change, and that was encouraging enough. He had a moment where he was like "The only one who can give me Miravia is Miravia herself, so she's the one I have to convince and everybody else can suck it" (paraphrased). I thought that was the most generous thing he might have ever thought. Anyway, he wasn't really detestable in the last third of the book, so I'll shrug my shoulders and be suspicious-leaning-antagonistic.
The corrupted Guardians' deaths turned out to be pretty anticlimactic! And you know what? I kinda dig that. It totally fit the theme. As we learned more and more about how Guardians worked, that they were all just people who'd been corrupted. That in this world, there may be demons, but great evils can be and are done by regular people who've started to walk down a bad path. That's a core theme in this book. The realization that people who do evil are regular people, that no one is immune from corruption. So it was completely fitting that they died - not like great supernatural monsters finally felled - just like regular people.
(Fucking Anji. I'll never stop being mad at him. He never realized this. Everything bad that happened was "demons" and "being deceived by demons" and never "sometimes people do bad things because that's what humans are capable of".)
And leads me to another point. In a lot of our dear viewpoint characters, we have the benefit of seeing into their minds and hearts. Joss, Marit, Jothinin, Kirit - none of them are totally sure of themselves. They're constantly questioning their own judgment, whether they're doing the right thing, the constant worry that they've already been corrupted. On the other hand, the other Guardians (even including Eyasad) and leaders who fall are the ones who are sure of themselves. They're sure that they're doing the right thing, they're sure that what they've decided to do will work, and they won't let anyone stand in their way.
This is why I can't cut Anji any slack. It goes against the entire grain of the book to go "well, he was doing what he thought was right". Yeah, I know, that's exactly why he's more prone to being corrupted than the Guardians he fears so much.
There's something to be said for an interpretation where readers have Guardian powers, seeing into the stream of consciousness/narrative/thoughts of the characters but always being influenced by our own biases??? So when we see a character like Anji, whose POV we never read from (thereby effectively veiled from our sight), we see him through the lens of what Mai thinks of him (her love of the romantic stories) and what Joss thinks of him (his very simple and good honour, thinking he's found another man like him). And then the reveal happens that during the time that we think Anji is mulling things over and thinking, he's really only keeping his opinions locked down. Anji is near impossible to read, and that fits - everything. I'm impressed with how he was written.
Lastly! Finally! I saved this for the end because it's the part I care about the most. The part that lingered the most, the reason why I was grinning and tearing up and shaking as I finished. Joss and Marit. I am SO HAPPY. I never thought they would be together again. This pair snuck up on me. That they get to be together for a long, long time made me so happy. They had a conversation earlier in the book, the first time they've really spoken since she died. (Dream warnings don't count, okay, neither of them knew for sure it was real.) It was their reunion and I thought it would be a nice way for them to say good-bye.
And then Joss came back from killing Radas and everyone is staring at him but no one is calling him a cloak - but he was! I knew it! He was cloaked in the same way that Kirit was cloaked, he had it but he was still alive, so the power of it was just waiting. So too I was waiting, because nothing says "this character is about to die" more than "hey, Joss, wow, you look younger". That it was Anji who did it had me screaming wordlessly at my ereader because fuck Anji, but I was also bouncing because I was so ready for Joss and Marit to have that moment where they realize that in this one, small, precious thing - it can be like it was before.
And I mean that to the bottom of my heart. Them being able to have one thing simultaneously an old love and now new again defies where the rest of the Hundred is at. Another thing the good Guardians were thinking about (and various other leaders, like some of the reeve marshals) is how the Hundred is changing. Thinking about whether the old ways still have value, or if they're holding onto the way things were for any good reason. A lot of things changed in the Hundred by the end, and we don't know if they'll ever be able to come back. We leave the story right after enormous things have changed and we don't know how much of the Hundred's ways are still the same under Anji's rule.
Which is why Joss and Marit's relationship resuming as both of them become Guardians... Guardians being almost the personification of the old values - it's striking. They're left in the lurch, not knowing for sure if there's any room left for them, but - but! at least they have each other. They know each other's value. These final scenes with the Guardians greeting each other and freeing the other five cloaks was a clear indication of what the story is trying to say: "We don't know what value we still have, but we'll persevere to find out."
That Scar came with Joss is an enormous joy. That Jothinin and Kirit are both still alive, and now the Guardians are this SUPER cute family unit right at the end... I'm in heaven. I know that Anji is screwing up the Hundred (hopefully not beyond repair, and I approve of the fact that they're learning how to defend themselves), and that the Guardians are still in danger, but it was an extremely satisfying journey from start to finish.
I'm a huge believer in considering a story in light of the ending, and this ending is worth it.