⋆。°✩ ARC review
Warning: Spoilers May Be Ahead
Let’s start with what the premise of the book is
It’s marketed as a second chance romance between Dawn and Callan, they met in the UK one summer and had an epic fling that ended on bad terms. Fast forward a year later and Callan is in the US to Dawns surprise, what happens when sparks fly again?
Now i’ll admit this is probably one of the first second chance romances I have ever read because honestly it’s really hard to please me with it, I’m a grudge holder and if I feel the persons actions and words don’t make up for whatever the conflict was, then the story is ruined for me plain and simple. Which is unfortunately the case here. Callan ROYALLY fucked up multiple times and there was not one ounce of groveling at all, it was a simple “sorry, but like I’ve got trauma so forgive me please 🥹”, like sorry buddy I need you to actually fucking prove you’re a better person this time.
Also a forewarning it is written in third person, which I didn’t know beforehand and i’m usually not a fan of because it can be hard to stay in the story when you can’t actually understand what’s going through the characters minds, but I think the author did a good job for the most part of still trying to give us insight while in third person.
Now, here’s the hard part for me, I honestly truly believe this would’ve been better suited as a simple fluffy romance with no spice and just fade to black sex scenes, bc…TO ME the sex scenes felt juvenile, like I felt like I was reading about two awkward teenagers who just hit puberty. Their monologue during was just soooo awkward. To give some quotes Dawn looks at Callan and says “Let’s get to the naughty part” as she pulls his pants down?? like what in the middle schooler? And the authors word choices for describing certain acts? Callan at one point “erupted with an animalistic roar” and Dawn “closed her eyes as he continued to pet her” (and for better context he’s “petting” her breasts). Like idk man, this might be someone’s cup of tea but I just cringed during every sex scene.
Okay so now let’s discuss them individually. Dawn, miss ma’am. As much as she convinced Callan to get some professional help, I think she needed it just as much, because this bitch was DELULU. First of all, during the summer when they first met, this girl becomes utterly obsessed with Callan, like insta-love, and is imagining marrying this man within the first week. Bitch, I need you to slow down. And she just plays along with him and is convinced she can stay in Europe and they’ll be together without ever ONCE actually communicating her feelings to this man, or asking him HIS feelings about her?? hello?? And once they rekindle she’s even worse. First, she just accepts his excuse for what he did last summer, like yes okay, he has trauma and that may be WHY he did what he did, but it doesn’t excuse it whatsoever, and she just takes it at face value. Second, this man outright says he’s not promising her marriage, kids, basically not even a serious relationship and she’s like, okay well atleast we’re together YAY. PLEASE STAND UP DAWN PLEASE. Let me provide some quotes as evidence of her level of delusion. “She’d play along. Be the cool girl, up for a fling or whatever non-committal, non-permanent bullshit he’d sold himself on. She’d show him how much they belonged together” “She was convinced he loved her; he just didn’t know it”. Y’all get the picture i’m painting yet? And for the love of god, she was so hypocritical, she consistently nagged on him to get professional help for his “betterment” but the minute he even mentions just simply helping her look for a new job she’ll actually enjoy she says “He had no right to pester her about her career” and she goes absolutely berserk on him, like she was acting crazy man. He has no right? But obviously she had the right to keep telling to get to help, and she had the right to tell her boss about his panic attacks. Because yeah we’ve got double standards for days in this bitch. She’s just, insufferable. I can’t talk about her anymore, or I might pull my hair out.
So let’s move on to Mr. Callan :). Tsk, tsk, tsk. A lot of your issues were mentioned in Dawns paragraph so we’ll keep it a little shorter here. My main axe to grind is the fact that he used Dawn that summer and proceeded to whine and bitch and moan to everyone after she left like he loved her. He repeats over and over that it’s “Just a Fling” (ha see that’s where the title comes in ;) ) but never once expresses this to Dawn, he’s over here treating this girl like his wifey and she ain’t got a clue in the world he’s planning on dropping her on her ass once she leaves. My other problem with this man is something I mentioned earlier, he just doesn’t do enough to make up for his bullshittery. He ditched her at an airport without explanation, withheld his intentions for that summer, shows up out of nowhere still not providing an explanation, wins her back, gives an explanation, and then turns around and immediately jumps down her throat over a misunderstanding and says “You’re in love with me. How sad is that? Loving someone who can’t love you back, who is going to leave you when this thing has run it’s course”. He’s just a terrible love interest. He says and does bad things, weasels his way back in without any proper making up, and everything is just hunky dory. It’s annoying, I’m just tired of reading books with FMC’s that have no backbone.
I’ll give you my one positive, the ending was saved a little with that tear jerker of an epilogue. The letter to his deceased daughter, holy shit it was waterworks central, balling my eyes out. But, again I didn’t feel I got good closure, in the last chapter he shows up again with this whole “sorry, I got help this time so I’m like ready to commit now, let’s go babe”. And she ofc takes him back, and then we jump immediately into an epilogue where they have a kid and they’re all happy and whatnot, so again absolutely no groveling.
If you read all of this, then congratulations babe you’re a real one. I just think this book had a lot of my strongest pet peeves rolled up into one neat little basket so it felt my full wrath. But i’m just here to provide some facts and what you do with them, is up to you.
Thank you to Katherine, WildRose Press, and NetGalley for this eARC in exchange for an honest review <3