I have to admit that there is something to be said for an author who can so easily manage to take me on a journey between the past and the present. Andre Alexis is very clever at it. The honesty and maturity of the novel made for a very delightful, although short and somewhat sad, read.
I loved the use of poetry and the almost charming quality that the author gave Thomas MacMillan(his main character) as he is remembering his childhood as an older person. The remembrance of an unusual childhood for Thomas and how we come to perceive the world through many of his experiences, is revealed through a letter created from images in his memory from his early life.
Would you say he is neurotic? Definitely. Psychotic? Possibly. Whatever it is, Thomas seems potentially dangerous. For at least the first half of the novel you might say he isn’t an overly likable character.
A period of intense self-examination for him, seems to be prompted by the deaths of his mother and Henry, the only father-like figure that he has ever really known. Actually though it seems that this character has never really “KNOWN” anyone. He seems socially-challenged BUT for the first time in his adult life, he’s contemplating the possibility of a serious relationship of his own, BUT all of his self-examination is leaving him with several key questions about life and love.
“Did I know anything at all about anyone?”
“Can one love what one doesn’t know?”
Clearly, he’s come to the conclusion that one CAN’T love what one does not know, and that if he, himself, is to have any chance at love, he must let someone (preferably Marya) know him. Some insight (BTW, he’s a little obsessive/paranoid almost, he’s got a routine based on time) has led him to believe that his developing relationship with Marya, whom he has known for about a year, could be in trouble. One might suspect that his difficulty with intimacy could be the root of the trouble. As the reader, you only gradually come to recognize this as he sets out to show himself to Marya, (and basically understand himself as well) through the printed word.
I think the author tries to show us that Thomas seems to feel the key to interpreting himself, lies in his childhood and so he makes an all-out effort to explain himself by recounting, in a LONG letter to Marya, what he remembers of it. That’s his way of letting Marya GET TO KNOW HIM. I think the author has you doing quite a bit of reading between the lines. There’s no wallowing in self-pity or outright placing the blame on any one particular family member or individual by Thomas. His pain is revealed only indirectly and so is his plea to be understood in light of these experiences.
The further Thomas gets into his letter to Marya, the distance established between Thomas and us the reader diminishes. His gradual return to a more normal state of mind(if there really is such a thing for any of us), a sort of understanding of his past, the emergence of a gentler personality, and the amusing fact that he is often, intentionally or not, extremely funny makes you start to like him and root for him. In the end, you begin to love Thomas, in all his messy, obsessive complexity, because in spite of everything, HE HAS OPTED FOR HOPE. You come to realize how much personal courage he has because he is determined to reach out, attempting to break a cycle of coldness and distance.
I liked the book but had a strange unsatisfied feeling when I was finished. I wanted to know more about Henry, Katerina, Thomas & Marya.
I will most definitely read more of Andre Alexis’ books. I enjoyed his writing style.