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384 pages, Paperback
First published September 19, 1985
"Say, for example, you were in a situation where your loyalties were divided. Where you could feel the pull of both but had still to choose one or the other."

"What it is, Jim, beyond even smashing capitalism, is stopping fascism. If we don't we'll be back to slavery and barbarism, not just unemployment. It's coming across the whole continent. I saw it myself in Vienna. There was Italy and Germany and now there's Spain. We've got no choices left; we've got to stand against it now."
"I keep getting this misplaced idea of class, from these younger ones since the war. They make it subjective, though they're supposed to be Marxists. But class is objective: objective membership and objective affiliation...What they especially don't realise is the kind of clarity, the kind of hardness if you like, that we learned in what was our own class. To grow up in what was very consciously a ruling class...
"Once you've seen the world from a ruling-class point of view, you always know the real score, you see through all the little evasions and compromises, and you know in your own life that you just have to be on one side or the other. There aren't any other real places...It's what we can give to the Party, wherever we come from: what can be given, especially, by those of us who know how the ruling class thinks."
"The full details are awful, of course, but it's all being put right, it's all being corrected."
"How do you correct the dead? But I mean beyond that. To the already disillusioned, the already sceptical, comes a new fear..There's a whole long sequence of misconceptions and errors, some of them crimes. Unless you're armoured by blind faith you watch it as it goes, you try to unravel it. But still as you unravel it you are knitting something else. Knitting up some new position, some new personality. And all that is your actual growth...And when any of it comes close it's a tearing, a tearing from that past, from that otherwise composed and lived-through past..."
"We all thought...we were thinking for ourselves. And we were just kids being taken for a ride...Getting older makes that worse. Seeing the same follies the third or fourth time around...I'm past those perfectionist fantasies of the Left."
"My only guilt in the matter is that I was born."
"I have the strong impression that a gravely weakened Party is now tagging along behind any column it sees moving: Trotskyites, Anarchists, Flower Children, New Left..."
"...Someone like you can look back and identify this or that error, this or that disappointment or deception. But that's not really what they are or what they cost. Only we who lived them know the true cost. And a terror then comes, not so much in any danger of disgrace or punishment but in the appalling reminder that none of us at any time , can know enough, can understand enough, to avoid getting much of it wrong."
"...What you once called communism...is a frame for your ego. For your indifferent self and for its interests...What you once thought about communism...is no more than a projection of what suited you at the time. The fact that for others each belief is substantial merely enabled you to deceive them. For with them it is a bond. It imposes trust and continuity. It is that imposition which makes their choice real...
"You are unfit to relate to others, and because of that you corrupt every belief you assume."