I should have finished this book a long time ago. (Oh my goodness it has been almost two years! 😱) I just couldn’t do it at the time because I had gotten too emotionally involved with the protagonist and knew he was going to end in self-destruction. I just couldn’t read it!
The ending, though, was something entirely different than what I had been expecting!
***SPOILERS***
It is so weird because I picked out this book hurriedly in a local used book store because the owner had told me that if I bought one science fiction book, I could get one for free! Wasn’t going to pass that opportunity, to say the least, but the book store was about to close and so I didn’t have the time to be choosy about it. I picked this book mainly because of the art work on the cover (not the one depicted on Goodreads here haha), and it sounded vaguely interesting. Once I started reading it, though, I was instantly drawn in and enamored by its psychological depth. This book is so different than what I have come to usually expect of a retro science fiction story! It felt much more mature and dealt with much darker ideas, as it is primarily a psychological thriller. The main character is a kind of psychopathic mathematician who ends up discovering a way to change the structure of neutrons, thus if a machine was built and then activated, it would immediately detonate all nuclear weapons throughout the world. He becomes “ground zero man”, holding the world in the palm of his hand. Yet the main conceit is not what this story is about, but it is really about a man and his wife, as he descends into existential madness. He, Lucas, is married to Vicky, and they have a kind of co-dependent toxic relationship, hurting one another, manipulating one another, and exacerbating one another’s deep set insecurities. In the end, this story becomes something much more akin to Gone Girl than anything science fiction related - which is what surprised me. Lucas is driven to extremes, mostly in part because of his relationship with his wife, as he is a reticent, awkward, “asexual” man obsessed with his work, understanding numbers much better than his understanding of people. Vicky is a needy, insecure, jealous, pragmatic woman, who strives for his love and attention, competing with his work. They love each other, they hate each other, they cannot stand one another, and yet they cannot leave each other. And Lucas’ downward spiral, as he becomes myopic and delusional, believing that he is the world’s “savior” with this “anti-war machine”, is all truly for the purpose of proving himself to his wife, of besting her, of wanting to overcome her once and for all.
The end, unfortunately, is very much in the style of Gone Girl - a despairing dread, nihilistic and gut-punchingly anticlimactic: in the end they have one another forever, and none of it even mattered.
It’s so depressing 😕, but it was definitely a fascinating read, a book I couldn’t put down (until I did for two years).