FOUR ESSAYS BASED ON LECTURES
Priest and author Henri J.M. Nouwen wrote in the Introduction to this 1979 book, “This small book was born in Rome… I met many holy men and women offering their lives to others was with a disarming generosity. And slowly, I started to realize that in the great circus of Rome, full of lion-tamers and trapeze artists whose dazzling feats claim our attention, the real and true story was told by the clowns. Clowns are not in the center of the events. They appear between the great acts, fumble and fall, and make us smile again after the tensions created by the heroes we came to admire. The clowns don’t have it together, they do not succeed in what they try, they are awkward, lout of balance, and left-handed, but… they are on our side. We respond to them not with … tension but with a smile… The longer I was in Rome, the more I enjoyed the clowns, those peripheral people who by their humble, saintly lives evoke a smile and awaken hope, even in a city terrorized by kidnapping and street violence. It is false to think that the Church in Rome is nothing more than an unimaginative bureaucracy… There are too many clowns in Rome, both inside and outside the Vatican, who contradict such ideas. I even came to feel that behind the black, purple, and red in the Roman churches and behind the suits and ties in the Roman offices there is enough clownishness left not to give up hope.” (Pg. 1-3)
He states, “we may wonder if many men and women in religious communities have not become so deeply affected by the fears and anger of our world that it has become practically impossible for them to be like children playing pipes and inviting others to dance… this suggests that a community in which no real intimacy can be experienced cannot be creative witness for very long in our fearful and angry world. In this situation we need to take a very careful look at the importance of solitude in the life of a community. It might be that by deemphasizing solitude in favor of the urgent needs of our world, we are endangering the very basis of our Christian witness.” (Pg. 12-13)
He says, “Solitude is the place where religious communities find their communal identity. It is the place where as members of a religious community we can listen to God’s call and discern our common vocation… It is very naïve to think that our individual giftedness can be directly translated into a call… There was a time in which a one-sided view of humility led to the negation or denial of individual gifts. Hopefully, that time is gone. But to think that individual gifts are the manifestation of God’s will reveals a one-sided view of vocation and obscures the fact that our talents can be as much the way to God as IN THE WAY OF God.” (Pg. 20-21)
He continues, “Solitude indeed is the place of the great encounter, from which all other encounters derive their meaning. In solitude, we meet God. ln solitude, we leave behind our many activities, concerns, plans and projects, opinions and convictions, and enter into the presence of our loving God, naked, vulnerable, open, and receptive. And there we see that he alone if God, that he alone is love, that he alone is care, that he alone is forgiveness. In solitude we indeed can call God our Father, the loving Father of all people.” (Pg. 28)
He outlines, “I want to look at celibacy as a witness to the inner sanctum in our own lives and in the lives of others. By giving a special visibility to this inner sanctum, this holy, empty space in human life, the celibate man or woman wants to affirm and proclaim that all human intimacy finds its deepest meaning and fulfillment when it is experienced and lived as a participation in the intimacy of God himself.” (Pg. 38)
He suggests, “I think that celibacy can never be considered as a special prerogative of a few members of the people of God. Celibacy, in its distance sense of creating and protecting emptiness for God, is an essential part of all forms of Christian life: marriage, friendship, single life, and community life. We will never fully understand what it means to be celibate unless we recognize that celibacy is, first of all, an element, and even an essential element in the life of all Christians.” (Pg. 45) Later, he adds, “in a world torn by loneliness and conflict and trying so hard to create better human relationships, celibacy is a very important witness. It encourages us to create space for him who sent his son, thus revealing to us that we can only love each other because he loved us first.” (Pg. 51)
He acknowledges, “I am painfully aware that many questions you probably have about celibacy have hardly been touched. I have not discussed how our sexual drives, desires, and needs can be creatively integrated into a celibate life-style. I have not talked about the important relationship between celibacy and community life, and I have not spoken about the value of celibacy for a concrete day-to-day ministry. I wanted very consciously to avoid emphasizing the usefulness of celibacy.” (Pg. 57)
He asserts, “This withholding from God of a large part of our thoughts leads us onto a road that we probably would never consciously want to take. It is the road of idolatry. Idolatry means the worship of false images, and that is precisely what happens when we keep out fantasies, worries, and joys to ourselves and do not present them to him who is our Lord. By refusing to share these thoughts, we limit his lordship and erect little altars to the mental images we do not want to submit to a divine conversation.” (Pg. 74)
He summarizes, “unceasing prayer is not just the unusual feat of a simple Russian peasant, but a realistic vocation for all Christians. It certainly is not a way of living that comes either automatically by simply desiring it or easily by just praying once in a while. But when we give it serious attention and develop an appropriate discipline, we will see a real transformation in our lives that will lead us closer and closer to God. Unceasing prayer as a permanent and unchangeable state of mind obviously will never be reached. It will always require our attention and discipline. Nevertheless, we will discover that many of the disturbing thoughts that seemed to distract us are being transformed into the ongoing praise of God.” (Pg. 83)
He says, “The contemplative life is a life in which time slowly loses its opaqueness and becomes transparent. This is often a very difficult and slow process, but it is full of re-creating power. To start seeing that the many events of our day, week, of year are not in the way of our search for a full life, but rather the way to it, is a real experience of conversion… The contemplative life, therefore, is not a life that offers a few good moments between the many bad ones, but a life that transforms all our time into a window through which the invisible world becomes visible.” (Pg. 96-97)
He explains in the Postscript, “I wonder if every human being has not known in some way and at some time the desire for solitude, for inner vacancy, for prayer, and for contemplation. Don’t all men and women experience the urge to be alone with God, to create space for hm in the center of our lives, to lift up all the needs of the world to him, and to see more clearly where he reveals himself to us?” (Pg. 109)
This book will interest fans of Nouwen’s other writings.