Viens dans mon lit
Viens sur mon coeur
Je vais te conter une histoire
Blaise Cendrars
William Boyd is one of the storytellers I have opened the doors of my heart for. He has been a companion on my literary travels around the globe since the early 90s, when I picked from the shelves of the British Council Library in Bucharest a book with an intriguing title by an unknown author: An Ice Cream War
So, in a way, he and I grew up together, developed a fondness for a certain style of presentation, for a certain focus on the intimate details of a life against a background of real world events. In his later novels, William Boyd seems to have found his true voice in fictional biographies. The current title is a fair example of this trend of looking at the whole journey before drawing any conclusions about the relative value of a life, of a story.
“Never say you know the last word about any human heart.”
Henry James
Logan Mountstuart, the writer of the journals presented to us in this volume, lived from 1906 to 1991, traveled from Montevideo to London, to Paris, Barcelona, the Bahamas, Switzerland, New York, Nigeria, Vietnam and back to Paris, a dancer to the music of time in the manner of that other great biographer, Anthony Powell, who, incidentally, is one of the young men Logan Mountstuart meets in Oxford during his years there studying history.
I don’t think the mention of Powell is accidental. Few events are in this apparently rambling novel, but I know Boyd has been fascinated by the Logan story for many years, putting him as a guest star in other novels. I think Powell's cameo appearance is here as an artistic statement, as a commentary on that similar series of novels about a man caught up in a dance to the music of time. Anthony Powell is justly renowned for the quality of his prose, and this I believe prompted Boyd to state his own artistic credo in the words of Logan:
The studied opulence, the ornament for the sake of ornament, grows wearing and one longs for a simple, elegant, discursive sentence. This is the key difference: in good prose precision must always triumph over decoration.
Powell is not the only famous artist name dropped in the text. The list is very long and includes Ian Fleming, met by Logan during the war as he worked for the secret services, Pablo Picasso, Ernest Hemingway during the Spanish Civil War, Jackson Pollock and other New York abstract painters and so on ...
I could go on, including a list of the literary works, biographies and fiction and criticism published by Logan Mountstuart himself. Or I could draw a roadmap of his sentimental journey, from losing his virginity to the lover of his best friend, to his marriage to an earl’s daughter, illicit affairs followed by a marriage destroyed in a V bomb attack, and other love affairs followed by late life loneliness.
But William Boyd is more interested in the overall pattern that emerges from Logan’s experiences:
A horrible thought: could this be the pattern of my life ahead? Every ambition thwarted, every dream stillborn? But a second’s reflection tells me that what I’m currently experiencing is shared by all sentient, suffering human beings, except for the very, very few: the genuinely talented – the odd, rare genius – and, of course, the exceptionally lucky swine.
Logan is not particularly talented or particularly lucky – in this he is a regular guy like the rest of us. He has his good days and his bad days. In his journals, he tries to make sense of his experiences, with the typical self-centered focus of the artistic mind who believes the world revolves around his personality.
Why am I lying so much? To Mother, to Lucy, to Vanderpoel, to Ben ... Is this normal, I wonder? Does everybody do it as much as me? Are our lives just the aggregate of the lies we’ve told? Is it possbile to live reasonably without lying? Do lies form the natural foundation of all human relationships, the thread that stitches our individual selves together? I shall go and smoke a cigarette behind the squash courts and think more great thoughts.
Logan’s journey is a long one, and takes us from the company of kings in the Bahamas to the bloody trenches in Spain, from the art galleries in Greenwich Village to a secret prison in Switzerland. He is not really a pleasant or admirable fellow, being for the most part too self-absorbed and too self-indulgent to call him a worthy role model for generations.
Yet there is something in his unremitting search for meaning, for artistic expression, that speaks directly to my heart, as the opening quote from a French modernist poet so beautifully captures. One of Logan’s books, ‘Les Cosmopolites’ is actually a critical edition about these almost forgotten revolutionaries.
The experience of the trenches in Spain, and later a brush with the Baader-Meinhof anarchists provide more insight for Logan’s quest for meaning:
What do you think of the Communists? I asked him (I was taking notes). ‘Buenos y bobos,’ he said with a smile. Some good ones, some stupid ones.
Shelley was so right: atheism is an absolute necessity in this world of ours.
If we are to survive as individuals we can rely only on those resources provided by our human spirit – appeals to a deity or deities are only a form of pretence. We might as well howl at the moon.
Faustino Angel Peredes – my friend the Spanish Anarchist who died in Barcelona in 1937 – and the credo we had evolved between us on the Aragon front that year. [...]
Our credo of two hates and three loves: hatred of injustice, hatred of privilege, love of life, love of humanity, love of beauty.
After reading Ursula K le Guin, I have myself started to reconsider my dismissive view on anarchism. Boyd, with the voice of Logan Mountstuart, takes me one step further into understanding the movement and its ideals. But we live in the real world, both me and the fictional Logan, and we are all far from living in idealistic conditions. We must learn to adapt to what is possible, find somehow a stoic’s bravery in dealing with misfortune and to avoid the lure of easy, if fleeting, success. Logan, in his later years, is destitute and alone, another thing many older readers could relate to:
I budget like a miser, endlessly comparing prices in the cheapest supermarket, my life a checklist of tiny compromises and adjustments.
There are compensations though for surviving all these turbulent years, for the struggle to make ends meet and for the pains of old age. Most of these compensations are spiritual – in the memories of the good people who shared the journey with and in the wisdom that eventually, hopefully, will emerge from the experiences:
That’s all your life amounts to in the end: the aggregate of all the good luck and the bad luck you experience. Everything is explained by that simple formula. Tot it up – look at the respective piles. There’s nothing you can do about it: nobody shares it out, allocates it to this one or that, it just happens. We must quietly suffer the laws of man’s condition, as Montaigne says.
Montaigne is another of those names who seem to be cropping up more and more often in other books I’ve read [Matt Haig is only the most recent example]. I guess this is life telling me I should revisit him as I come closer to my own seventh decade of life.
Hopefully, some of his ancient wisdom would rub off on me, just as it did on Logan Mountstuart.
Perhaps people are kinder everywhere than maps of the world would lead you to believe.
Not a bad epitaph for such a long journey...