Esperanza

by Eve Ocotillo

Nearly a century after an engineered virus wipes out most of Earth's population, Tesla is a drifter, moving from town to town, staying alive as best he knows how, and leaving when residents begin to suspect his secret. He's heard stories of the heathen traders, of their societies and their sinful ways, and when two arrive at his latest village, he decides to follow them. He expected many things, but not that they'd make him prisoner for his genes.

A homoerotic romance. Warnings for offscreen violence, racism and homophobia, and dubious consent.

Status: Complete
Word count: approx. 114,815

Genres: M M Romance, Dystopia, Post Apocalyptic, Science Fiction, Romance, Fantasy, Futuristic

330 pages, ebook

First published January 1, 2009

About the author

In the mundane world, Eve Ocotillo plays a scientist. She escapes from the grind by conjuring tough and conflicted men and then throwing them at each other in romantic and not-so-romantic situations. Her stories range from alternate history to contemporary to science fiction and are influenced by her interest in diverse social issues, her fascination with the natural environment, and her fundamentalist upbringing. She doesn’t much like TV, but her Xbox and a new RPG can suck her in for weeks at a time.

That's my book cover blurb. :) I write to feed my id and to learn a little more about myself, my values and belief systems. I believe that my strengths as a writer are in world-building and in strong, complex characterization. Nearly all of my writing explores social issues, and whereas nobody would argue that I'm anything but left, I also have empathy for more conservative value systems and work hard to keep my stories honest and above all, non-preachy.

I consider myself something of a naturalist and think that comes through in my writing; I love examining and describing the natural world. I have a particular affinity for the desert.

Find more of my writing at ocotillo-dawn.livejournal.com. A full description of all available stories is at http://ocotillo-dawn.livejournal.com/.... You will need an account (and for me to 'friend' you) in order to read most of them -- this is about ensuring adulthood, not exclusivity.

-Oco

Reviews

[Shelley · Rating 5 out of 5]

There is just something about this author that resonates with me. I love her work so much!


I promise I’ll do my best to restrain myself from going on too long, but there is just so much food for discussion here AND it’s not often I REALLY love a book so much. But I’ll behave … kind of :)

Esperanza begins with a deliberate unveiling of a post-apocalyptic / post- virus world through Tesla’s eyes as he drifts from one village to the next, never staying long for fear of being discovered for the sinner he is. Alone, always alone. Hiding.

Just allow me to quickly give you a glimpse of Tesla and his world … because this is what they said…

“A long time, anyway, but not so long either, since the Scourge. When the fist of God had come down, that’s what they said…spreading a pestilence to punish his children for a host of depravities: greed, science, abortion, adultery, sodomy—oh yeah, especially sodomy—and other things that God found hateful. Apparently, God hadn’t done a very good job of it, because that list had Tesla on it, and somehow he was still here, along with others like him. But anyway. That’s what they said.”

Eve Ocotillo gives her characters a voice that reaches right into your soul – totally naff thing to say – I know! But it’s true! When I read Violet and the Tom she not only blew me away – she sang to me! I think Esperanza is just as good but in a different way; it’s more of a … thought provoking wholeness that … hums.

I’m SO impressed with her willingness to go the extra mile by creating vision in symbolism; and then giving her stark setting the scope to not only denote the atmosphere, but enhance the raw gritty characterisation of our MC’s – so well done!

There is no scaffolding to prop any element of this story; each and every aspect has the strength to hold its own – such is the realism. And may I just insert a big fat … HUMPH!!! … Because there are not many writers who have the ability to beat my sceptic cynicism into submission so completely.

The relationship between Coyo and Tesla is (affecting) antagonistic from the start – fraught with angry sexual tension that (literally) bites! Ha! But there is more than the issue of being able to love freely. Esperanza might offer acceptance, but it comes with a heavy price and Tesla doesn’t really have a choice but to (seem to) submit to the duty of village cum-cow. I’m not sure what the drama was – I mean – I thought the job had its … perky benefits. Hahahaha…. Sowwwy – I’ll behave …

There is a lot of sex here (Yes! *fist pump*), but there was nothing ‘insipid’ about it at all; each scene functions because of its luscious power – whether it is a display of dominant control or tender loving – the sex counts – and not just to add points to the hotometer. I’m not saying it’s not hot … IT IS! My God …Eve Ocotillo gives really good tongue – I swear!

Now remember I said that this is more than an M/M romance, and it really is. Esperanza is also a thought provoking study of humanity in its most basic environment. Survivors have reverted to insular views of religion, sexuality, and racism. Social equality is undone! Hate and prejudice reins and it’s a case of fear coupled with ignorance – which fuels paranoia – which leads to extremism and ultimately … evil. It is a most credible and terrifying depiction of our future and it just about gave me nightmares thinking to deeply about it. But again, I can’t help but be blown away by the detail in making this a realistic ideology.

Esperanza is a free unpublished work that is not perfect, but I don’t care. I don’t even care that it DID slip into emo meltdown territory at the end – and yes – I would have liked more (I always do) Esperanza just has EVERYTHING that (for me) makes a great read. It’s poignant (<- I hate that friggin’ pretentious word, but I’ll use it), angsty, scary, insightful, swoon worthy, SEXY and beautiful … the landscape, the ideology … everything … it was just … lovely!

Authors Note: Some non-con (in flashback) and dubcon (depends on how PC you are), semi-explicit violence and references to torture (not much worse than first chapter). Themes of religion, racism, sexism and extreme homophobia. Also drug use, illegal today, but anarchy in story time means legal everything. ^^ I wrote this with an eye towards realism, but honestly, there are some ‘yeah right, in your dreams’ moments. Sue me. I’m an amateur.

I have to protest: SHE’S NOT AN AMATEUR!!!

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[Oco]

With the distance of a couple years, I can say that this has a few rough spots. However, of all my work, finished and in progress, it is closest to my heart, touching on themes, kinks, and a part of the world that is near and dear to me.

[ttg · Rating 4 out of 5]

A very good free online dystopian novel set far in the future, where technology is gone, the population has be decimated by a disease decades earlier, the U.S. is broken up into scatterings of isolated, paranoid, racially segregated villages, and being gay is a major sin that is punished by death.

Tesla is a young drifter, coasting from town to town, trying not to let his “secret” out. His attempt to follow some travelers that he’s curious about gets him into more trouble as they take him to their hidden village, but as a prisoner, and Tesla has to face the bitter reality behind his dream for a safe haven.

This is a very well-written, creative novel, and it’s somewhat stunning that it’s just sitting there for free on FictionPress. I could totally see this as a “real” novel that you could buy. It has very believable characters, dialogue, conflicts, and world-building.

My only two issues--One, the pacing slowed down in the second half. There was some punches, but overall, it slowed down for my reading, and I had to really push on.

The other is a “It’s me, not you.” It’s a grim novel. It has darkness, some violence, and some dub-con, but in comparison to say, the non-con King Flesh Cartel, it’s really not that bad. But it is kind of depressing because Tesla is in a bad situation where he’s treated as a prisoner and something to be used by the community, and it’s pretty sad to see him struggle to work hard, and play the role that they want, and then see it not matter at all.

The very slow-burn love between him and Coyo was nice, and added the much-needed heart to the story. Their love is not sweeping, but gritty and confused and painful and dotted with slow realizations as people come to grips with their feelings and what they want. But even with that slow, painful journey, the author does not leave you hanging.

It somewhat reminded me of another free dystopian novel The God Eaters. They’re somewhat alike in their outcasts MCs in an unforgiving future land, struggling against a blind or corrupt government. Both are good stories, although Esperanza was much grimmer for me, whereas The God Eaters had more sweeping romance that alleviated some of the awfulness that happened to the characters.

But grim is hard on me. If you like gritty and realistic with your sci-fi/dystopia, then this story should hit your buttons very well. Outside of the pacing issues, it’s very well-written, and I’m still somewhat shocked she hasn’t pulled this to publish, because it’s a pretty phenomenal novel.

Heads-up, it’s pretty long too. 109,000+ words. And the whole thing can be read for FREE online here.

[Sunny · Rating 4 out of 5]

Slowly unfolding story set in dark, dystopian future. Harsh, and gritty, with sweet, unexpectedly romantic moments.

*And I loved the mini follow up, August Rain, where Coyo and Tesla visit Kevin.
*fans self*
I really wish the author had expanded that.

No matter, I'll make up my own ending :P

[Xing · Rating 1 out of 5]

DNF @ 50%

Here I was, expecting a dark dystopian M/M story filled with an enriching world where the MC is held captive and abused. What I ended up getting was het-sex, masturbating in pouches, and an uninteresting main character that fantasizes about the times he had rough sex with a guy that was probably twice his age.

The story might redeem itself later, but I think I'll rather spend my reading time elsewhere...

[Deja Dei · Rating 3 out of 5]

Eve Ocotillo is a very capable writer. I like her characters and descriptions. This book has an interesting beginning and a good ending, but several fairly dull chapters in the middle. Still, for a free read, I mostly enjoyed it.

Tesla, who I liked right away because of his name, basically moves around from town to town until people realize he's gay and he has to run for his life. A virus has wiped out most of the population, and the people left are backward religious fanatics and rascists who have no technology and can barely scrape out a living. One day he gets tired of pretending and follows two travelers, Sean and Coyo, out into the wasteland, because he's heard of secret cities where people live more comfortably and are more tolerant. The world building is good, and the beginning is very exciting. Tesla as a character is a survivor, is smarter than most people, and realizes how messed up society is. Sean and Coyo eventually agree to take him back to Esperanza, mostly because they need fresh genetic material.

Several of the chapters in the middle of the book are very slow. Esperanza is open-minded and possesses technology from before the virus, but it doesn't stop them keeping Tesla prisoner and demanding his genetic material. There are long stretches where not much happens. Tesla works harvesting food, he talks to the townspeople, he jerks off into pouches, he reads books and eats. It gets pretty boring for a while, until the ending conflict, where it picks back up and is interesting again.

The relationship dynamic is also weird. Tesla is physically attracted to Coyo, but Coyo is nasty to him and forces him to do things he doesnt want to do like jerk off into those pouches against his will. One night Coyo gets drunk and shows up at Tesla's house to rape him. He hurts and humiliates him, though Tesla is pretty proud and gives it right back, then they just kind of do a complete 360 and become lovers. I found it a shaky foundation for a relationship and one I couldn't buy into. It was like they went from hating and abusing each other to being totally in love with no real explanation.

Overall, the book is interesting and the writing is good, but a lot of the dull middle could be cut out, and a lot more attention could have been paid to the relationship between the characters.

[karlakolumna · Rating 5 out of 5]

Plot:
Tesla is a drifter. He moves from village to village, the constant fear of being discovered for who he is, who he secretly desires, always expecting--dreading, really--to wake up with a knife at his throat, in a world that is no longer as we know it. In a world in which a scourge drastically reduced humankind, in which people have gone back to the more conservatives beliefs of religion and fear/hate sins and sinners, blaming them for their misery.

Tesla's only hope for a steady place to live, for a place to call home, lives within rumours about a folk--well-hidden--that is different from all the other villages. Some people make this place sound like heaven, most are calling them a folk of sinners, sodomites, satanists who don't care about a god-fearing, modest and honourable life.

Which rumours are true? Is this really Tesla's only hope of a reasonably happy life? He himself certainly doesn't believe in miracles and fairy tales with a HEA. If he has learned anything in his young life, then it's that people are not trustworthy, that--if there's such a thing as karma--he'll most definitely get what's coming to him, and we're not talking about positive or good things here...

*****

4.5 stars.

Another awsome book by Eve Ocotillo. Seriously, how is this one not published? (Not that I didn't ask myself the same question after having read her other free book "The Violet and the Tom").

Recently, I discovered that there are so many great free online stories out there, and I'm thoroughly surprised at the fact that so many of them made it on my "favourites"-shelf. Positively surprised. So many of them are way better than many published ones.

Without a doubt, Esperanza belongs to this group.


Tesla and Coyo are amazing protags, they both have seen their share of the nastiness of people, of the world. They both have suffered by the hands of men driven by hate and fear.
It was enthralling to watch those two men to finally find each other after a great deal of trust issues, dissappointments, hate, lack of communication and a nearly fatal tragedy.

I higly recommend it.

[Antonella · Rating 4 out of 5]

Slightly under 4 stars, probably. It has some weaknesses, but all together is more brilliant that many published books. I couldn't put it down. Believable dystopia, well written, engaging characters.

[Julz · Rating 4 out of 5]

This is an unpublished futuristic, dystopia, western about a persecuted gay drifter trying to survive in a post-apocalyptic world where being a science loving proponent of man-on-man action is considered a sin unto death but breeding women in puppy mill fashion (not all, only some) is just hunky-dory. After years of close calls, our little hero encounters traders from a colony of “heathens” who still study science and medicine. Thinking he’s found heaven on earth, little dude follows the traders, one pudgy and fatherly, the other hot and studly (guess who the big hero is), and ends up getting captured and taken back to Esperanza, an utopia for the intelligent in a world that has otherwise reverted back to ignorance and paranoia.

We are then submerged in an environment that is pretty much like an old Clint Eastwood movie (not the Dirty Harry series) but with penicillin and radio frequencies. Because smart people know what a drag inbreeding can be, our captive (who is deemed to have superior genes btw) is then harvested of his seed at the encouragement of the hot stud who also happens to be the head of security in this multi-horse town.

We then progress with our heroes as they learn to shake off the horrors of their respective pasts and learn to trust and love each other, while fighting against the evil council members who apparently aren’t so smart after all. There are some dark themes such as rape and torture (mostly in flashback form) and angst that actually found me blurring up and time or two.

This is the second story I’ve read by this author and haven’t been disappointed either time. If you’re a fan of dark erotic with some D/s themes, then this will definitely rate. Don’t let the fact that the author isn’t making oodles of dough from her efforts discourage you from taking the time to check her out.

[Trix · Rating 4 out of 5]

It was an interesting read. Far more than I expected. But in a good way.

The world conjured around the main characters was harsh and unyielding and it was easy to imagine it as a possible future to a world-wide epidemic virus, wiping out not only billions of people but customs and beliefs as well. Ocotillo pretty much summed up with "The whole world had a brand that would never heal, not in any time frame that had relevance. The morals of the After were what they were, and it didn't matter if Tesla fought them, they remained the Word" There was a sliver ray of hope but for the most part, people were driven by fear in out-casting the differences and preserving a set of rules that bound the rest.

Both Tesla and Coyo were fascinating characters, so well portrayed and with a very insightful streak. Each having survived a harsh rite of passage into adulthood, each bearing their scars (physical or not). Tesla seemed like the forever hopeful. Despite bounds of depression and sour reality, he held on to the dream of finding a home and someone to love. And in that, helped Coyo too overcome his imposed solitude and take a chance at happiness. Coyo was for the first part of the story, the loyal guard, finally awakening to the world outside his duties. He fought his inner battle against set in routine and beliefs and realised what was really worth fighting for.

It was an emotional ride as well as an adrenaline packed one. Set against a possible future, the path of these two lonely men crossed and they found happiness at the end of heir journey. A very nice read indeed!

[Fangtasia · Rating 4 out of 5]

Reminiscent of The Stand, the grim landscape and gritty outlook are mirrored in the characters, part of their personality, of what makes them who they are. Facing extinction, humanity is distilled to its purest forms of good and evil. Far from the caricature it could have become as a background for a romance, this story touches on transcendental subjects, like human capacity to love and care, to hold on to hope and survive, to apply ingenuity in the face of almost impossible odds. To be good when it's a luxury to do so.

It also shows how absolute power corrupts absolutely, the ubiquity of prejudice, the pervasiveness of envy that begets hate, and the ease with which ignorance becomes fanaticism and is manipulated into evil. Racism and homophobia, as clearly portrayed in this story, would be back with a vengeance, alive and well in a post-apocalyptic world. No doubt about it.

Don't be fooled into thinking this is just an M/M romance, you'd be doing yourself and the author a disservice. This is much more. Don't miss the chance to meet Tesla and Coyo. They remind me of the following quote by Dr. Seuss: “We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness—and call it love—true love.” Their life experience and kinks lined up perfectly.

Spend some time in the town of Esperanza, you'll thank me for it.

[Deanna · Rating 5 out of 5]

This story is about one of our baser instincts: fear. It is shown through religion, prejudice and homophobia in the first part of the book. 100 years ago "god" sent a plague to earth as punishment for sin. Electricity & medicine are things of the past. Procreation is highly valued & that is not a good thing for young Tesla who is gay. He spends most of his life wandering from town to town. Leaving in a hurry when he is found out.

Tesla finally makes it to one of the towns that he has heard hushed rumors about. They're called heathens by most god fearing people & they have a safe place where scientists, intellects and homosexuals can live in peace. But even this utopia can not escape fear. The town council is afraid that Tesla is not who he says he is & that he plans to expose them to attack from outsiders. But really the council is just afraid of loosing the next election. Fear is inescapable wherever you go.

But this of course is also a love story between Tesla and Coyo, one of the residents of Esperanza the gay utopia :D Coyo has his own fears that he must face.

The writing & editing on this free story is superb & I think this would appeal to the majority of m/m readers. I'm keeping my eye out for more stuff from Ocotillo.

[Barbara Elsborg · Rating 4 out of 5]

I really enjoyed it. The darkness, violence and passion worked. I became involved with the plight of the MCs. I'd have liked a little more world building so I got a better sense of why this had happened and more of the overall picture but there were some great descriptive passages. I could really feel myself in the desert, struggling for survival. A lot of sentences I wish I'd written!
In many ways it's not a love story at all, more a desperate fight for survival and an understanding of the way things are. The two MCs have to go through a lot before they finally come to realise what they feel for each other. The plot itself is thin and it's the relationship between the two that carries the story.

[Bree Cheese · Rating 5 out of 5]

Yes, I am thoroughly smitten with this author! This book is quite a bit different from The Violet and the Tom and not as kinky, so don’t go into this story expecting a similar tale. This is a dark and desolate, dystopian-western. A future where racism, homophobia and forced breeding rule. It’s a story of one man forced to become a drifter going from town to town, hiding his sexuality and trying to stay alive..until he meets others like him.

[Paul · Rating 4 out of 5]

This was a great fan/slash fic. Set approx 100 years after a virus was released known as The Scourge it almost wiped out humanity. So the survivors had turned into crazed religious fanatic. Leaving a few drifters who were usually gay looking for the so called towns that were run like "the before."

It's an age old form of post apocalyptic settings but this one was done really well.

[Nicole · Rating 4 out of 5]

I think this one deserved 4.5 stars, but I rounded down because I just didn't feel it was as evenly awesome as The Violet and the Tom. The first chapter I found difficult to get into. It took me about a chapter to get used to the voice, which is distinctly different in style from Violet (as well it should be, since this is near-future while the other is historical). It took about a full chapter to suck me in, but then, I just couldn't put the thing down--foregoing sleep in order to read more, etc. This is pretty full of sex, which I find a plus, though there's less in the beginning for plot-reasons. Some of the sex is rape-like. Or maybe it is rape. But it's hard for me to credit that if the parties both enjoy it and the rape-ee uses it as masturbation-fodder for years. It's more that the rape-ee is an unknowing masochist or something.

But I digress.

The writing was tight and pretty well-edited, considering she does the editing herself, until the last five or so chapters (out of 22). At that point, I felt like things started unraveling a little--just a little less tight, a little melodramatic, and more typos. If this had been in epub format, I could have marked typos as I went, but with FictionPress and LiveJournal, that's not possible for me so that was disappointing. Anyway, I thought I'd gotten to know the characters pretty well by the climax, but then suddenly, I was surprised (and not in a good way) by how things went. In retrospect, it was necessary that one last thing be resolved, but it wasn't my favorite part of the book.

Finally, I am not a huge fan of drug stuff (and by that, I mean it can ruin an entire book for me if handled in certain ways,) and it really did mess up the end for me. If a character has a really bad experience with drugs in the beginning of a book, then decides they want to use them at the end...well, that rubs me WAY the wrong way. It's unforgivable for me, actually. Makes me feel like it's either the author's fascination showing through, an unnecessary attempt to reconcile characters' likes, or a horrible statement about humanity. In this case, I thought it was all three, and I couldn't take it. Luckily, it was a really small part of the book, and honestly, completely unnecessary to the plot, so I could finish the book. Since that's such a personal thing, it probably won't bother most of you at all.

Overall, I would recommend this book heartily as being well-written and well thought out, with good world-building and some well-developed characters, (especially Tesla). It reminded me a little of Jesse Hajicek's The God Eaters, though I did enjoy that one more. Just like Violet, (and The God Eaters,) this book was better than 90% of the published m/m romance available today. I would have paid for this book gladly in an epub format. Hopefully, when she feels done with rewrites, she'll offer it in that format, or maybe she'll even publish it! Thanks for another great read!

[Lola · Rating 3 out of 5]

OK. HERE's the deal....one wants to be abused and the other wants to abuse. I know it's fictional future but it's a shitty future lol...I much prefer to be obliterated than live in that shit hole where people force to breed other people like livestock. This future sucks, and I was feeling like shit while reading about it. Nice story, but it made me feel like shit after reading it. I wouldn't recommend this book.....

Why I didn't give this book a 4 or 5 star? Because it's a rape fuck fest....a coerced fuck fest. The main character is basically forced into having sex with women...he's not bi, he's gay. That's just despicable....No real flaw otherwise.


I know Coyo is Spanish and all but he reminds me of Ezio Assassin Creed

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[Rebecka · Rating 3 out of 5]

This is also a difficult one between 3 and 4 stars. I really enjoyed the story, and up until 50% or so, it was definitely worthy of 4 stars. Then it got a bit too... soft. I liked the perfect timing in the beginning of the book, nothing rushed, stuff developing naturally, but then things happened too quickly. The story could have gained a lot by being longer and including more Esperanza politics (you never really understand why the council acts the way it does), more Esperanza culture, etc. The world building is successful though, and the writing itself is very good. There are certainly no wasted words, which is nice.

[adrienne · Rating 4 out of 5]

stumbled on this at fictionpress & got suckered in. i kind of hate myself for being shocked that it was good simply b/c it's free on the web.

[Donna · Rating 5 out of 5]

This should be a published book! Very well written and I loved both the MCs.

[Owen · Rating 1 out of 5]

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[Seregil · Rating 4 out of 5]

I think I had read this before, but it is definitely a story worth revisiting. It's very well written and has some intense scenes. It's set in an interesting future when mankind is recovering after a virus that wiped out most of the population and the remaining people have reverted to a more tribal like existence, segregated by race and deeply, violently religious. In all communities there is a fundamental rule of doing everything to ensure a very high natality (because 8 out of 10 children could still die) and therefore people that refuse to procreate are considered sinners and end up dead or exiled (and that was almost the same as dead).
Our main character is a gay drifter that keeps trying to survive, but can't make it for too long in any place before people realize he doesn't have that drive to procreate with any woman he runs across. Even as he tries to settle in with a girl it is still obvious that "performing his duties" isn't exactly a pleasure to him.
Tesla's only hope lies in the rumors of a community of sinners that are trying to live like Before and are practicing evil things such as science, mixing up the races and that believe in the equality of sexes and free love.
He is lucky enough to find some traders that seem to come from this dream like place, but, once he gets there things aren't as perfect as he had hoped. It is much better that in other communities, but they are still human, and still need to survive the virus.... Tesla falls into a love-hate relationship with their chief of security, who bears his own horrible scars.

[iam · Rating 3 out of 5]

this reminded me a lot of a book with a similar setting - Dystopian, fucked up, fractured society, with a "must have sex to survive" mindset. But unlike that other book, Esperanza is, in fact, not (as) trashy.
The focus is not on the sex - and there is a lot of sex, but it is, as advertised, a means of survival.
the whole culture around it is, frankly, quite horrifying and sickening, though not broached as big an issue as it could have been. Especially the way women are treated could have been interesting but wasn't handled in depth (which makes sense, given that the main POV character is a young gay man).
So, big plus points for not being as trashy as other books cut from a similar cloth.
Minus points for the romance being sort of not-there for 60% of the book and then suddenly coming down crashing in a bewildering way. Arguably might be slow burn, but I couldn't really connect with it. Might just be me though.
The ending was a bit unsatisfying for me, I would have loved to see more of the village politics, but again, the POV character couldn't have cared less about it/was occupied with other things, so i can see why they were largely happening in the background.

[Day-thief · Rating 2 out of 5]

I didn't find much about this book, that I enjoyed. The setting in a post-apocalyptic world where anti-scientific and anti-gay feelings are rampant was kind of promising but by no means used to advantage. The plot was fairly slow moving and without interesting twists or developments. The romance between the two MCs fairly uninspired.

But what annoyed me most was that miscommunication was used as the prime plot device: nobody tells Tesla anything valuable (although they could easily) and Coyo is not capable to put anything into words (or actions for that matter). Also, why would young Tesla, who had been taught all his life that he is an abomination, easily slip into the role of aggressive and laid-back lover?

[Samira · Rating 4 out of 5]

Wow. This is the first dystopia in ages that actually drew me in by its realism and believable consequences of near apocalypse. I'm not generally a fan of the genre - too strange and depressing - but this one was amazing.
Horrible, yes, depressing with the all too realistic cruelty towards the main character, and also with the hypocrisy of quite a lot of the people out there, but never strange. It has got its roots firmly in today's narrowmindedness, petty cruelty, power hunger, lack of knowledge... like a continuation of today's world with only one addition - the virus - and a few years more, not a completely different world. That was wonderfully done.

[Claudie ☾ · Rating 2 out of 5]

I wonder, is this a case of 'it's not you, it's me'? Looks that way to me, because a lot of people really seemed to enjoy this book.
I started it expecting something a little different - gritty, apocalyptic, brutal. Instead, it was quite tame and kind of bland in some places. The initial 'push me pull you' dynamic between the two protagonists began to irritate me rather quickly. Then it resolved into a mushy love story. Sorry, not what I had in mind when I grabbed this.
The idea was good - very good, in fact - but the final effect? Meh.

[Book Gremlin Reads · Rating 4 out of 5]

I really loved this one. The whole idea of the world 'Before' and 'After', the 'scourge'. Everything I loved it. A definite must read for M/M lovers out there as well as anyone who loves a little 'what might be'.

[Dreamer · Rating 3 out of 5]

Read this on-line, wish it was available as a mobi..

[Priya Jain · Rating 4 out of 5]

"Esperanza" by Eve Ocotillo is a homoerotic romance novel set sometime later in the future, when an engineered virus has already decimated Earth's population. It tells the story of Tesla, a young drifter moving from city to city while quietly hiding his true self to survive. His path led him to a secluded village where he became either imprisoned or participated in a society with some very complex dynamics.
The novel has had positive feedback from its readers, with an average rating of 3.84 out of 5 on Goodreads based on 554 ratings and 60 reviews.
One review said, "This is a well-written and imaginative novel-among others-that stands out for its authentic characters, dialogue, conflicts, and world-building." The reviewer noted that the book slowed down in the second half but was enjoyable nonetheless. The darker themes throughout include violence and questionable consent, balancing out the darker tone.
Another came straight out and praised the author's world-building and characterization, adding that "very believable characters, dialogue, conflicts, and world-building make this a great story." They added that "the author really did do quite a beautiful job, and it’s somewhat amazing that it’s available for free on FictionPress."
"Esperanza" can be read free of charge, and so readers will find it online on FictionPress.
Content warnings: off-screen violence, racism, homophobia, ambiguous consent. Reader discretion is advised before embarking on this read.
Eve Ocotillo writes in the homoerotic romance genre. By day, she's a reclusive scientist, and an escape into characters with realistic conflict and value dilemmas gives her a quiet thrill. Raised within her everyday life-quasi-alternate history, contemporary and speculative fiction-laden with issues on social justice.

[Adrian · Rating 5 out of 5]

I love this story. The characters stay with me long after having finished the story. The world she creates stays with me to and I particularly love the way she writes about the desert. I was so happy when I saw there was a follow up story (August Rain). Thinks it been around for ages but I’m a techno cretin and struggle to navigate around sites like goodreads / fan fiction etc. Anyway, when I did find it I read it so slowly as I didn’t want it to end. It’s lovely too but way, way to short. Please can we have some more.