I might be able to stomach this series, as you get almost a whole host of new characters and a completely different setting with each one. I did have to put it down once, there at the end, when things were dicey. Pretty good.
The woman had a vague and whimsical nature, as if she believed, along with Liza Minnelli, that reality was something she must rise above.
A woman with an imagination wouldn’t have lasted a week in the position.
Again she missed the desert. There, if something bit, one usually died of it. She hated this nickel and diming to death, one bloody sip at a time.
A few of the younger people thought he was a semiromantic has-been. Anna suspected he was a never-was, drinking and talking to rectify a personal history that was a disappointment.
“You’ve got expectant ducks and an empty pickle jar,” Anna summed up the evidence.
They shared a smile that made Anna lonely.
Angelique survived by snaring rabbits with nooses made from the hair of her head.
The lake, at least in the harbor, chose to be kind, and rocked Anna gently to sleep before she had time to think too hard.
He looked awful. His face was gray and puffy and his eyes were bloodshot. The skin on his neck hung loose. He looked like a man who was drinking heavily, sleeping poorly, and was badly hung over. Anna doubted he had eaten his wife. In the shape he was in he probably couldn’t keep vanilla yogurt down, much less a woman.
The dispatcher saw nothing but she heard everything;
shaking hands with her is like catching a butterfly—all soft and fluttering you’re afraid you’ll crush.
Those deep sensitive types get funny yens. Myself, I like bluff hearty types who swat you on the behind.”
Sandra listened with a concentration that flattered most people, including Anna, into telling her things they’d never really intended to.
But the kayak stayed afloat, climbed hills and slid through valleys with a structural certainty of design that lent her courage. She stroked with clocklike regularity, taking deep, even bites of the lake. Shoulders ached. Elbows burned. Anna pushed herself harder. There were times that hurting was a part of, times the fatigue and the fear were necessary ingredients: fires to burn away the dead wood, winds to blow away the chaff, closing the gap between body and brain.
A squat round-bodied man stood above her on the dock. He had a Canadian look.
“We must’ve seen a hundred pairs of shoes. They looked like if you dried them out you could wear them home.” “Did you try them on?” Anna asked casually. Both divers looked offended. “We did not try them on,” Bobo said with cold dignity.
Lucas Vega was what Anna considered an Old World ranger. He believed in wilderness, in the Park Service, in the sanctity of the NPS credo: “. . . to conserve the scenery and the natural and historic objects and the wildlife therein and to provide for the enjoyment of the same in such a manner and by such means as will leave them unimpaired for the enjoyment of future generations.”
he worked for peanuts. Lucas Vega also believed in noblesse oblige. He could afford to. Lucas was the only son of a woman who owned seventy-five hundred acres of San Diego County, one of the last existing Spanish land grants in southern California.
Martini’s Law taking effect. A lot of these guys have a sense of humor that’s not of this world. The ecstasy of the deep? Too much weightlessness?”
Divers, the serious ones with a lot of dives to their credit, had a different way of looking at life. Not as if it were cheap—they strove to stay alive and risked a great deal to keep each other alive—but they seemed to grasp a connectedness that eluded most people, a sense that life and death were two parts of the same whole, like the crests and the valleys of a wave emerging from the same sea. This realization—if it was a realization—created as many behavior patterns as there were divers;
She didn’t much care to go someplace Mother Nature had gone to such lengths to keep her out of.
For a while they sat without talking. Anna got her daypack and dug out a paperback copy of Ivanhoe. It produced a book’s inevitable effect. In cats it stimulated the urge to sit on the pages. In humans it stimulated conversation.
No, she decided, he wasn’t trying intentionally to provoke her. He was just naturally irritating.
“A Submerged Cultural Resource Specialist who doesn’t like diving? What happened? Shark bite you?”
A secure government job with health and retirement benefits. Easy to get for an ex-Navy man with veteran’s preference in hiring. Dig a comfortable little air-conditioned niche and wait out the years until retirement while hundreds of overqualified people worked as seasonals, scraping by winters doing odd jobs, because they wanted to save the world—or at least one little corner of it. It wasn’t hard to understand how Denny had come by his contempt for Jim.
For half a minute the divers lay in a puddle on the boat deck like a couple of unpleasant monsters dragged in with the day’s catch.
Anna rocked back on her heels. She felt as if she’d been punched in the solar plexus. It confused her. She hadn’t known she cared.
It was as if no one could die until she had been informed.
Women could sit with grief, hold its hands, watch it pour from the eyes of friends and children, lie down beside it and help it to rest. Their delicate strength would weave a net strong as spun steel, keep the widow Castle from hitting bottom.
Evidently Lucas had radioed for a lift back to Mott. He had left the Lorelei so Anna could get back to Rock, and she blessed him for being a true gentleman.
and all at once Anna was unpleasantly sober.
wondering what Denny had been to Patience.
There was a sense of gathering, of control; a powerful woman remembering who she was.
Wine is important.
Wine is history, comfort and strength, food and drink, art and commerce. You can’t say that about much else.”
forgotten amid the Sturm and Drang
Remembering Lucas’s pointed stare, she stopped eavesdropping and began searching the deck, not looking for anything, just looking at what was there and what was not.
She had that rare sense of knowing, at the moment it was happening, that she was happy, that life was okay. She stopped talking to better enjoy it.
Sharing: the obvious solution and one that never would have occurred to her in a thousand years.
That Denny really loved her, is my guess. All that history’s got to prove something, right?” “Something besides persistence?”
Only not quite Viking. He wanted to be put aboard a Spanish galleon or an old Civil War gunboat, all decked out, then sunk where there’d once been a reef. He had this mental picture of the fish coming to live on the wreck with him.” She stopped short as if she’d realized the direction her words were going.
He was wearing a turn-of-the-century ship captain’s uniform.
It was the best reason Anna could think of for feeding one’s husband to the fishes.
In its four-thousand-year human history, ISRO had been farmed and mined and fished, hunted and burned and logged.
Anna wandered up the dock answering questions, admiring dead fish, and—one of a ranger’s most difficult jobs—declining free beers.
“Let me slip into something less governmental
“You look like a man with the bends.”
before the weaseling process began?
She remembered she was, after all, off duty and she remembered that there were other things to do with bronzed young men than interrogate them.
“Denny was a little judgmental, it seems,” Anna said cautiously. Hawk laughed. “One of Denny’s favorite sayings was: ‘It’s hard to work well in a group when you’re omnipotent. ’ Denny was always right. He really was.
He saw other people’s twists and bends as clearly as if they’d been laid out on graph paper.”
“Carrie’s disappeared.” Anna hoped it was not along with another case of pickle relish.
She’s been coming home at two and three in the morning with that damp, rumpled look.
I’m alternately pissed off and worried sick. It’s very tiring.”
It was a pleasure to be looking for someone who wasn’t being devoured by a cannibalistic husband, wasn’t floating with old corpses, someone who, at worst, was probably having illicit sex with the busboy.
She had that unpleasant sensation one gets when one turns over the wrong rock. “What the hell is going on?” the nocturnal creature shouted.
On busy days there’d be a line three or four boaters deep waiting to read it before the thumbtacks had even cooled.
When clients paid the 3rd Sister for an adventure it was not unlike making a contract with the devil. There was almost no way out.
unsettlingly old eyes. Ralph Pilcher wasn’t a handsome man, but Anna guessed it had never stood in his way and she felt a sudden stab of pity for his wife. In sympathy with the unknown woman, she moved a couple inches away from his sheltering warmth.
Anna laughed. She was feeling better. She took back her two inches. The hell with Mrs. Pilcher.
The lake wasn’t just cold but frigging, goddam cold, Anna thought as the frigid water struck her face like the slamming of a two-by-four and her sinuses began to ache. Beneath the layers of suiting she could feel her breasts tighten and shrivel.
fear made her utterly obedient.
it’s hard to know a man who defies patterns.
The parks were places apart. Islands of hope, fragments of wilderness in an increasingly developed world, scraps of land trying to be all things to all people: museums, adventures, solitude, recreation, vacation, research, preservation. Different rules, different lusts, different pressures prevailed. People died for different reasons.
Anna told her, glad to be able to drag out all her fears and panics, expose them to Molly’s harsh, reasoning mind.
“Anna, you’ve been out in the woods too long. If he ate her, for whatever reason, doesn’t that seem a teensyweensy bit psycho to you?”
You make more between coffee breaks than the average ranger takes home in a week.” “Jesus! No wonder you eat your spouses.
“Ciao,” Molly said. “Or is it ‘Happy trails’?” Stay off the menu.”
Anna wished the child would sulk and flop back to where she’d come from.
who the fuck cared? The wine was very much in control. Anna noticed her vocabulary deteriorating.
“Can I have some of that wine?” “Nope.” “You drink too much.” Anna was glad she had never had children. Carrie began scooting over to where Anna sat. Anna hoped she would get splinters in her butt, but the gods were not with her and Carrie arrived unharmed.
“Have you seen Carrie? I’m going to strangle her.” “In that case, yes I have. She went thataway.”
She was always a biddable child.
And on a good vintage there wasn’t even the shadow of an impending hangover to sully it.
“Let me get this straight. You have fallen in ‘like’ with a sinister stranger you believe killed a man. Now you want to confront him face-to-face with his murderous deed. Have you picked out a windblown cliff or an isolated tower to go to all alone and unprotected in the dead of a dark and stormy night?”
Cold-blooded killer or not, Anna thought, he was lovely.
“He died on his wedding night!” Anna realized aloud. “You’d think the bride would have noticed,” Stanton said.
Mosquitoes and Frederick Stanton whined.
He grinned, he shrugged, he shuffled.
“The spouse is always a prime suspect.” “Better than drugs?” “Nothing’s better than drugs.” “No more profiles. Do you, personally, think Jo did it?” “I don’t think,” Stanton replied solemnly. “I’m a government employee.” Anna gave up. His reticence had ceased to amuse or challenge. It merely irritated.
Jo Castle lacked passion. She was a trudger.
Jo looked around as if for a place to sit, didn’t see one and lost interest.
“You wait in the boat,” Anna commanded. Looking positively hangdog, Frederick shambled off down the beach
Denny and Donna; cocaine and cannibalism.
No wonder man was always out to conquer Nature, Anna thought. He can’t bear it that she doesn’t love him, or even hate him. She simply doesn’t give a damn.
One of her peers, a fellow ranger, a commissioned federal law enforcement officer, was bound like a piglet. Anna didn’t know what to do with him. Odds were good she was nearly as surprised at the turn of events as he was. And probably in more trouble. The National Park Service would not be anxious to believe breaking and entering to further an employee’s blackmailing another employee to keep her from exposing God knew what. If Scotty pieced together a good story—a practical joke, climbed in the wrong window—Anna would end up at best with egg on her face, at worst on charges for assaulting an officer. She fervently hoped either Butkus wasn’t thinking that clearly, or the package contained a severed human head or at least a kilo of something incriminating. “Jesus, Scotty, what the hell is going on?” she asked peevishly. “None of your goddamn business,” he said from the floor. Anna thought about that one. “It is,” she decided.
“Then tell me what you know about the late Denny Castle. Like what made him ‘late’?”
After ten P.M. and she was marooned in Rock Harbor with no food, no wine, no dry clothes, no change of underwear, and no place to sleep.
The pasta was gooey and the bread reheated but, glad to be in a warm well-lit place where nice people brought food, she was not inclined to be picky. Patience, looking tired but well groomed,
Anna said to say something.
“Wine’s wine. It’ll get you there.”
Normally, no, but it wasn’t a busy morning and the librarian had always wanted to be a park ranger, so yes, this once.
“Perhaps I didn’t marry well,” Patience said with a wink, “but I divorced brilliantly.
Not just physically spare but psychologically shriveled. Kicking dogs or pulling the wings off flies seemed more his style. Anna knew he would feel no guilt. His self-justifications were rock-solid from years of exercise.
“a bit of a pill.” There was no arguing with him because there was no substance to his complaints. Just sourness born of disappointment.
I’m surprised first wives haven’t been declared a threatened and endangered species.
Boyish again, joyous, he loped along the asphalt path as graceful as a greyhound. “She’s birding again!” he told Anna of his wife. Anna gathered that to bird was to live
The lady across the air shaft slept all day and screamed at her husband all night. And that was the summer the city was infested with rats. The Post was running headlines on it.
“I think I liked you better depressed,” Anna countered. “Why don’t you guys go back to work or whatever it is you do?”
“Carrie seems dull but she’s not stupid and she feels things. She’s never been any good at hiding things either. If she’d been sexually active I think she’d either have gone religious and remorseful or smug and insufferable—depending on how it went. Mostly she’s just been sulky. My guess is no, she’s too scared, too confused. Damn him! She hasn’t even had her first period.”
“Little girls should never have to pay for love,”
Finished, Patience stepped away from him, took a solid stance, doubled one fist inside the other, and, straight-armed, swung a roundhouse. Her knuckles collided with Jim’s jaw just below his left ear and he went down. As the Venture motored away, Anna could hear him screaming, “That’s assault! That’s assault! I’ll press charges!” “He will, you know,” she said. “He’s that slimy.” “So will I,” Patience returned. “And mine will stick.” Carrie Ann began to howl.
the two women and the eternally weeping thirteen-year-old
As in any bureaucracy, the best way up in the Park Service was to produce a smokescreen of paperwork, an avalanche of plans and studies and proposals, but to be very careful to never actually do anything.
This has been one of those life’s-a-bitch-and-then-you-die days. The worst of it is, I remember being happy. I remember when I was a nice woman: cheerful, optimistic, fun.
I would like to have been widowed, like to have widowed myself with my bare hands a time or two—”
“Did you grow up rich?” she asked rudely. Patience didn’t seem to mind the question. “We had ‘plenty,’ as Mother endlessly reminds me, but not rich, no. My parents own a pig farm in Elkhart, Iowa.” She said it in the tone of a nineteenth-century gentlewoman admitting to a fallen sister or an idiot child. “Good honest work,” Anna remarked mildly. “The place smelled of pigs. All my clothes, my hair, the boys I dated, the food I ate, smelled of pigs. I can’t remember not wanting something better. Even when I was tiny, I had this little kid’s vision of heaven.
“This is the good stuff. Too good for me, I kept telling myself, but this talk of pigs has driven me to open it. Once in this life I will have the best. You lucked into it by sheer accident. Here.” Anna sipped. It was the best; the best she had ever had. A red wine, though it showed black with only the moon for light, rich and so warm Anna finally understood all the effete talk of sunshine and hillsides and aging in wood. They drank without talking. The wine was the event. In silence they finished the bottle.
Wishing she were a cat or a shadow or at least sober,
The man is—was—in his late fifties with the figure of a confirmed food worshiper.
It was hard to tell where the hangover ended and the fog began.
Fresh coffee in a real cup; the day was beginning to look less bleak.
Terrible to be all dressed up and nobody to boss.” “Nope. Already got my marching orders from the Acting Chief:
“Talks about PCBs and fish and slime and percentages of whatever in the whatever.
Molly didn’t hold with suicide. “You’ve got to stay in the game. Your luck’s bound to change. Be a shame to miss it,” she liked to say.
I will die calmly, she thought. And preferably not today.
“He didn’t eat her up after all,” Alison said disappointedly.
She wasn’t eaten at all. She wasn’t even dead. She was only hiding.”
“I’m sorry about Oscar,” Anna said finally. “Yes,” Tinker returned. “He was the purest of bears.” Another silence began. Anna didn’t know quite where to look. Funerals, memorial services—dead people—were hard enough to deal with. Dead teddy bears presented a whole new realm of social obstacles.
“Sometimes the wrong people die,” Tinker said philosophically. “But sometimes they don’t.”