Dragons of Winter Night is the second book of the Dragonlance Chronicles. I think I love this books as much as the first and the third book. This series is too important in my life. My all time favorite in my childhood; even being an adult now I still loved although long time I haven’t read this book. With forgotten realism series. Dragonlance is one of the most influential fantasy series for me. The characters and plots and world building totally blew me away when I first read. I wonder when I would reread this series again. Since I haven’t read this series for so long, read many other fantasy series for quite a while. I hope I will still be fallen in love in Dragonlance. Dragons of Winter Night is the second book in the trilogy. It is like my current life is on the middle stage, I don’t know reading fantasy books will lead me to the path I dreamed for when I was a younger. It is more belong to Fantasy boy now. Because I think now I am a completely different person than before because I have been thorough many miserable things. My life is not what I expected, and the things I am perusing for is not a guarantee thing and the more I am looking for, the more tragedies I will have.
I met the Chinese friend last year in Canada in 2023. I think it is a shame we eventually didn’t become friend, but I understand the reason. If I wouldn’t have read fantasy books and for the reasons I started my immigrant plan maybe the ending would be different. Immigration is a very painful thing to do, I understand your reason for immigration; me is the same miserable but not like you looking for a place where government don’t have control on its citizens. I am looking for the place I thought I belonged to or at least a new start. But what I have been through, let me realize that it was just a mirage thing. Everywhere is the same, racists, greed people, political issues etc. We talked about how those you so call white people are so hypocrite, and they actually hate Asians or at least pretend to be polite with them. Ironically, If I haven’t been thorough many things I wouldn’t have agreeded with you. A person who loves another culture but ironically was being treated like a shit in the culture which you love. How would you feel? You reminded me of my earlier ages, when I wasn’t reading English books, just play computer games. At that time, I have destroyed many online players and was loving doing so. After I started playing computer games in other service; those non Asian players are pretty weak. Like you said, Asian players are showing good scores than the players from other countries. Because I was being one of the destroyers on the game so that I know the fact. If I didn’t start reading fantasy books in English, my life would be totally different. I know you hate those foreign people from other countries. I understand that, what Asian people have been through in the world is not totally friendly to us. But Like I told you it is their territory. If you want to immigrate to other country, it is the thing you need to face. Freedom is hard to find, especially escaping from your own country which is being grasped by the government. But it is life, life taught me that blind-faith to a completely different country is a joke, a terrible mistake which I have made in my life. Now I realize that and having more clear perspective of what I am looking for. I think I am lucky at some point if Compare to you. Which is the government of my country is not as terrible as yours. So I can be relax, staying at my home in my country and watch those hypocrites are talking absurd craps. Watching those people suffer should be the thing I need to do. But when I was young, I was astray from the path to be comfort at home, seeking for a place where everyone disdain you in reality. Like I told you, I have worked in a shitty factory, where those coworkers just mocking you using you. My predecessor who is unlike other workers, he treat every one in equal. But what he got is other his coworkers abused him. But he didn’t complain like my friend who always affirms that he is right at everything thing he said. The predecessor he tolerated those bully shit but still helped those coworkers. He was teaching me so that I know why he was doing thing like that. He had believe, he want to do the right things and being generous to others. I am not able to be like him, because I know if you are being too kind to others, those people just take advantages from you. It is humility. And I don’t see any reason why I need too tolerate those things? But my predecessor did, so that I just followed him. This is a lesson to me, this world is like what I have seen in the place. Those foreigners whom I have met, they just took advantages from you, Mocking you. This is humanity. You are from other county, if you want stay at their country, they know they just have every rights they think they have. But don’t take this kind of things too much is what I have learned. Because it is useless, arguing with this kind of things won’t have profits. You just know that and that it. This is why I told you but you didn’t understand properly, you just thought the working environment is similar to the place where you are working in Canada. Actually I was implying other thing. I think this is the time to say farewell to you, my Chinese friend, as you dislike me since you saw the photo I upload on my instagram. It is a picture was drew by a foreign person long time ago. I think this is very ironic that this is how our friendship ended. The picture keeps reminding me of the fantasy boy inside me. If it is my for the reason, perhaps I won’t preserve the picture. The foreigner treat me kind enough but Now I know my life is my overlapped with his. This was just a memory. But somehow, I see something unexpected in that photo. Especially, this photo portraits a fantasy boy with mustache , surround him are dragon, magic creatures and the likes in fantasy books. I think I want to see that fantasy boy again.
My life is in the middle stage. What I have seen and been through are not what I expected, I hope you Chinese friend can achieve your goal. It is kind of 緣份that I met you in Canada. At first I didn’t want to connect with you because the Issues with our countries. But I think we all know the circumstances and from the original, we were in the same group. Farewell my Chinese friend. In the end of Dragons of Winter Raistlin abandoned his brother. In my life, after you found out what I was, you disconnected with our relationship. I thought I would be like Raistlin in my life but, I am not him. Maybe read too many fantasy books in English. I hope your road will be easy for you because I was doing the same thing as you, but I failed. If you immigrate to Canada, I hope you will find good friends there. For me foreigners are nothing else to me. I don’t think in my life I would have any connections with them. It is you now need to care of those foreigners, for me I am just watching those dramas. When I came back to my country, one of my country fellow was flattering with a foreigner, because he knew having foreigners friend mean opportunities. I would rather not have any, live comfort myself and don’t have any foreign friends. Because they are just passerby, they are not a part of my life. Reading fantasy books make me bored, because I read too many, but I still want to find the fantasy boy who still inside me. And maybe I will still find a stunning fantasy book Which I didn’t expect.
Farewell my Chinese friend, you showed up In the most miserable period of my life, but it is the transitory fate I had and I cherish for. I hope you will success in your goal because I know the pain of pursing and then failed to achieve it.
這是我的悲劇的宿命, 但在我人生中最痛苦的時後遇到你,是個短暫的緣份, 而這樣也就夠了。
但願能擺脫過去在國外的經歷. 拋棄容意擺脫確困難. 我往後的人生與外國人以無任和瓜葛。