“You know, I've thought about this for a long time. Decades. And here is what it comes down to. Here is why I did what I did. It didn't seem right to me that his weakest self got to decide how my life was going to turn out, what my family was going to look like. I got to decide that. And what I wanted was a life-a family, a beautiful marriage, a home-with him. With the man I knew he truly was. And I was going to get it, hell or high water.”