“What I wanted was for there to be a rocket siren now. Right now. A siren would crack the world open. That’s what I wanted. No more questions about history, justice, or power imbalances. Let it all evaporate. When the sirens were singing, I did not have to ask myself how I was changed, or if I could ever change back. There was one imperative: find shelter. To be afraid was to be blameless. It felt simple and clean. It felt good.”