Help for anyone who needs it discussion

Do you hit yourself? talk about anything to do with hitting yourself

I used to slap myself all the time, as well as claw my skin to ribbons. My fingernails are very thin, like razors, so I rarely used cutting tools. I tried to kill myself in my early twenties. I lived, grudgingly. Looking back now, when I actually care about myself, it's amazing that I survived my own self-loathing. Now I spend my time trying to help my fellow basketcases. We're a tragic, desperate lot. Using my rotten past to help others is the best way to keep it from eating me.

i hit myself at times when it gets really bad and cutting is not anuff

I do these self love exercises every day, or I'd slide right back into my old routine of violent self loathing. I say, "I love you" to myself every day, and every night I say, "good night beautiful mind, good night beautiful body, good night beautiful spirit." Took six months for it to make the tiniest bit of difference, my insecurity addiction was so tenacious. There's such an inescapable pressure when it gets bad, like if you don't cut or punch or attack yourself in some way, you'll rip. I always think of giving birth to a big headed baby; if the doctor doesn't cut me soon, I'll rip. People used to ask me about my high pain threshold and I always gave them some crap answer, never the truth. One of the things an addict is great at is lying convincingly. I haven't hurt myself in a long time, which is surreal because I never thought I'd be able to give it up. I tell people I'm like an emotional diabetic now. If I don't take my daily dose of self love insulin, I'm in trouble. It keeps me strong.