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Hello all, my name's Deepthi and welcome to my Journal!

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(view spoiler)[Previous Names of this Thread:
-> Spring Day
-> I'm Going To Try Finding The Exit To Save Me From Being Locked Up In The Darkness
-> Boulevard of Broken Dreams (hide spoiler)]

I have some really important things for all of you who will be interested over here:

-> I'm going to be using this for everything. Something bad happens, it comes here. Something good happens, it comes here, I have to rant, I'll come here. I need to clear my head, then I'll come here.

-> it's a bit hard for me to express myself correctly... So please don't be offended if I reply in a way you didn't expect. I'll try my best not to offend anyone.

-> I have a lot of insecurities... For example, I kind of become a people pleaser if I feel like I'm doing something wrong...

-> I might be a bit of people pleaser in doing things they ask me to do, but I mean whatever I say. If I compliment you, I sincerely mean that. And if I become your friend, then I'm going to stay with you if you need me or not. You can always trust me.

-> I'm a bit weird

Details about myself:

Name:
Dede

DOB:
12/03

Hobbies:
Photography, Making greeting cards, Reading, Writing, Watching Youtube, Listening to Songs, Shopping (kinda), Learning Psychology, Surfing on the Internet, Karate, Playing Handball and Badminton, and writing poetry.

#1 book in my library:
The Ones who walk Away from Omelas (it's a must read, honestly)

Feel free to send a request if you want to be friends!! :)

Why is it that everyone, and I mean EVERYONE else except me can have a friend behind their back at all times? Someone who'll cheer them up...

The person who I thought was my best friend... We haven't spoken to each other since two weeks... Infact, today completes the second week... No call, no message... Sometimes I wonder whether she cares at all...

I mean, yeah. I do understand why people tend to back away from me, but it's going to be a tad bit easier if they atleast let me know that they're not going to have my back.
I'm loud and it's not so easy for me to tell out my thoughts to others... I hide everything because I wonder what the other person's going to think...

I don't know what to do anymore

I tend to back away if I'm confronted with something where people are pushing me. I just panic... And I push them away instead...

Is it my fault that this happened? My friend whom I used to think of as my sister, left me for someone else... Am I to blame for this..?

I had to again witness two people fighting right in front of me...
I hate it when people argue...... 🙁

I don't know what to do at times...

People at school, home, ANYWHERE... They somehow know how to make me feel lonely at times... I hate how I give in to them...

This while journal is the most relatable one I've ever read till now. So *hugs*

Thanks!!! I guess we get along better than you expected

Sometimes.... just sometimes, i wish i could just dissappear to a place where nobody knows who i am and nor can they comment

I swear someone's cursing me hard today.....


My parents asked me to get something from a mall kinda thing beside our apartment. Alright. I went, asked them through a phone whether it's the correct one, and got it when they said yes. Then after I came back, they're like, "this is not it. Go and get the other one". I didn't know that we had to take the bill too to exchange that and went like that itself. Then that gut there asked me for the bill. I said I'll go and get it. After that I had to run back home and get the stupid bill. After I went inside, some senior guy there said that I had to get a gate pass for exchanging stuff. Then finally I could get the thing home.
Problem was I needed some other things from somewhere else. I went to that road only to realize that it was blocked. Seriously?!!!! Then the lady of the shop made me wait for 5 minutes when I was the ONLY CUSTOMER IN THE SHOP!!!!!!! Then I had to squeeze my way through that same blocked road.

Basically I had to run to a shop three times, and then, had to wait staring at that lady's back for five minutes.

To top it all, I couldn't take a proper shower today because the bore well water had gotten mixed with dirty water...

My head's hurting a lot... *sniffing*

I want it to stop...

Lol... I was telling my five-year old neighbour (with whom I was cycling), that I was going to PARK my cycle... I'm sure that it echoed saying "I was going to BARK my cycle"...

Is it okay if I put out anything that I write in this?

I saw my bench mate's WhatsApp profile pic around 30 minutes back... Why did it make me feel strangely lonely?

My bench mate is kinda shorter than her best friend. She had put a photo where she was hugging her friend while standing on her toes. It looked really cute and made me miss someone who's not even there in my life anymore

Is it bad that I too feel like I want to be hugged by someone whom I'm close with?

Am I so bad that I feel like people are avoiding me like the plaque?

School's starting again for this week... Hope nothing happens, but I already know something's gonna happen because i didn't do something...

I'm not someone who's gonna sit and do only projects for my group. I'm someone who'll also have other work. I need to study, i need to read books, i need to write.

People can't just dump stuff on me

I used to love dancing... Till I heard some comments about it and lost my confidence in it...

I wish I could just be more open with people... But I feel like I shrink back into a hole everytime someone pushes me to answer something

I burnt my finger while lighting lamps today evening... :(

Alright... I better go to sleep before my mom scolds me

I am I feeling like everyone's ignoring me today?

Is today some kind of Let's-Ignore-Deepthi day?

And I just got told that my name is NOT there for the badminton match.

The person who was making this thingy (I forgot what they're called) said that the last date was DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY and I gave my name YESTERDAY

I didn't know about this till yesterday... my exams were going on till yesterday

Deepthi wrote: "I used to love dancing... Till I heard some comments about it and lost my confidence in it..."

Comment from someone in real life:
"Did you stop dancing because you're too fat?"

This someone has a death wish.

I don't think I would do anything to that person......







Even though I'm a black belt in Karate

Well, I would if they have the audacity to say mean stuff about my friend.

I don't want you to go to jail..

And thanks for defending me

So... what're you doing?

Don't worry, I won't :)

Eheheh thinking about what to do xP What about you?

:)
Listening to Hindi songs and chatting...

So... what else?

Ooooh!! Enjoy!

Uhhh I'm blank xP

Thanks :)

Hehe... relatable

:D

Lol, my mom typed "Brain" for "Brian" by mistake!

New author: Brain Tracy

My ribs are aching a lot after Karate practice, and I accidentally hit my eye with a Nunchaku day-before-yesterday... My left eye was swollen

I'm tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeddd :(

We had vocal torture, aka music practice today

I legit walked 10,109 steps at school today! Unbelievable yet believable at the same time

We have rehearsals tomorrow and I'm NOT prepared!

Deepthi wrote: "We have rehearsals tomorrow and I'm NOT prepared!"

The rehearsals went well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We even got appreciated by the Head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

(lol, I've gone mad)

But on the darker note..........

Welcome Migraine, my old friend! Long time no see

I want to make a video on types of friends

I have something else too...

(view spoiler)[Should I post my story here? It's a bit triggering (hide spoiler)]