The Red Leather Diary Discussion Group discussion

In the "How would you feel if..." thread, Lily said "If anyone wants to post an entry from their diary here--that would be interesting. We could see how our entries "speak" to each other. I bet we are all a lot more similar (yet still individual) than we think!"

So post, please! I'll raid my old college journals this week sometime. I know I have them in my basement--but in which box???

So brave Jo.

Ill go next and not be so brave but provide further proof what a dolt I was as a teen.

2-28-90 (So Im almost 16)

Today may possibly have been one of the worst days of my life.
I think that I have been one of the worst people in the world to have deserved such and awful life. Let me elaborate. Tonight Jennifer called Marshall to find out what the dwal is and why he has been acting so awful to me. The, the awful faget puke jerk, said that he didn't know that I liked him, what a liar, and that he doesn't like me. Jennifer said that he lead me on and he agreed. She asked him why he held my hand if he was only my friend he said he didn't know why. Jennifer said that Bucky and her are friends and they would NEVER hold hands.
I dont understand. I cried. Forever. When Jennifer was talking to me "everything" came on by Tommy Page and then I couldn't help it anymore I started crying and I couldn't stop. I havent stopped. Why me? Why?
I am so glad that I have Jennifer. I don't know what I would do w/out her. I really hope she sticks by me through this. I don't think I could make it if Jen doesn't stay with me. I'd die.
I almost wish I were.
Today Mom called Tanra. The reason David hasn't written me back is because his mail has been stopped. Maybe now they are open.
I wish David was here.
I did like Marshall, why?

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Okay how pathetic was that? The worst day of my LIFE and he wasn't even that good looking. Before I end the entry I'm already talking about another guy. Oh and about 3 entries later I am talking about another.
That was about a month shy of my 16th birthday. Hmmm let's compare me at 16 to Florence. She wins hand down!

Oh god Tera!!! Everything by Tommy Page?? I totally remember that.......good lord that just brought back some memories!!!!!

Ok here's mine~~~~ now this is July 19, 1991 and I would have been 17. The Brad I talk about is the same Brad I'm with now.....we tried to like each other for about 2 weeks during the summer before our senior year but it was just too weird. We were too good of friends and apparently I liked the whole town so it never would have worked then!! LOL

" Dad was still being a dick this morning. We came home at 9am and I saw Tom on his way to work...he waved. What a cutie! I called Eve and she said Steve had called her. I guess he tried to call me but since I wasn't home he called her and told her to tell me he called. I called Sarah and she said Jamie Plank wants to kick my ass because of Tom (I'm so scared can't you tell?) Tom called at 2:30 and we talked for a little while. He's pretty easy to talk to and a good listener. Brd called me at like 3:00 and said he'd been with Stacy this past week and had kisse dher but that's all. I don't think i even care anymore. I walked downtown after that and discussed life with Theresa. Steve called again at 5:30 and i was so happy!!! I couldn't believe he called me from NY!!! He said he's been trying to for days and he had started to get really worried when he couldn't get me. He said now we can do stuff when he gets back since I'm boyfriend-less and that he hopes I'll miss him a whole lot so he'll get a big hug when he gets home. He said he took alot of my letters with him to read. That totally made my day!! Tom called again and then came over for awhile. I really do think I like him!! Mom says she's not sure if she likes him though. He took me to see City Slickers and the movie was ok. We didn't talk much and he never tried to touch me at all. When we got to the car he gave me his Raiders jacket cause it was cold. We sat in his car talking until 11:30 about lots of stuff. He said I was pretty and he's liked me for awhile now and he can't believe I would go out with him. I like him alot---he makes me forget about Brad right now and that's a good thing!! I have a feeling Brad is who I'm supposed to marry so there will be time for him later....right now he's an asshole and needs to grow up some and I need to not care about him. Why can't I stop thinking about him though? He's the one I really want though.....the one I've always wanted........"

My life was such drama in high school and if you can't tell I was totally boy crazy!!! LOL oh the memories.....I had so much fun in high school....... ;)

We're all boy crazy dolts when we're teens! (Sometimes it lingers!)

Anyone who shares something here, from a personal journal or diary, is brave, regardless of the content!!!