Yulia

“«Себастьян Найт был до того влюблен в карикатурную сторону вещей и до того невосприимчив к их серьезной сути, что сумел, даже не будучи по природе циничным или бездушным, устроить балаган из сокровенных чувств, по справедливости священных для рода человеческого».”
― Vladimir Nabokov, Просвечивающие предметы (Вечные книги)

“It occurs to me, just before I pass out, that maybe I was miserable before, but things were going too well for me to notice it.”
― Jonathan Tropper, Everything Changes

“If I could tell her the truth, I would say I’m looking for flaws. Because that’s what you do when you’re in love with someone you don’t want to be in love with. You look for imperfections in their skin, oddities in their features. You picture how they will age, where time will tarnish them. You try to catch them at harsh angles, discern some measure of awkwardness where their limbs connect to their trunks. You search for these deficiencies with an air of desperation, ready to lay claim to whatever you find, to inflate it grotesquely in your mind, and in doing so set yourself free. I would say that I’m paralyzed, that I see things I can’t reach for, have itches I can’t scratch. And then there are the parts of me that I can’t feel anymore at all. That my days are filled with a quiet dread that has as much to do with her, or at least the potential of her,”
― Jonathan Tropper, Everything Changes

“maybe what you consider fearlessness is actually just an expert level of loneliness.”
― Jonathan Tropper, Everything Changes