Jess

“Did you eat something that didn't agree with you?" asked Bernard. The Savage nodded. "I ate civilization.”
― Aldous Huxley, Brave New World

“and now i know i'm not myself. how can i ever be myself again? i was never myself in the first place!”
― fannie flagg, The All-Girl Filling Station's Last Reunion

“We have to go. I'm almost happy here.”
― Orson Scott Card, Ender’s Game

“Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me that life is some awesome, rewarding treat. Because, here’s the truth: life is a catastrophe. The basic fact of existence – of walking around trying to feed ourselves and find friends and whatever else we do – is a catastrophe. Forget all this ridiculous ‘Our Town’ nonsense everyone talks: the miracle of a newborn babe, the joy of one simple blossom, Life You Are Too Wonderful To Grasp, &c. For me – and I’ll keep repeating it doggedly till I die, till I fall over on my ungrateful nihilistic face and am too weak to say it: better never born, than born into this cesspool. Sinkhole of hospital beds, coffins, and broken hearts. No release, no appeal, no “do-overs” to employ a favored phrase of Xandra’s, no way forward but age and loss, and no way out but death.”
― Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch