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“Tell me that you’ve been thinking about me the way I’ve been thinking about you.” 🥺🥺🥺

Lena is absolutely intolerable lol idc what she’s going through or how old she is 😬 but I also have this feeling she’s a lesbo idk

“There was so much I missed about Spencer—things I’d taken for granted. What it was like having someone who knew what kind of toothpaste you preferred. Who knew what would cheer you up on a shitty day. Who knew exactly where you liked to be touched. Someone who knew you.”

“It wasn’t just about getting off—I could do that on my own—it was about the other things. The little similarities that you learned when you were naked in front of someone. The secrets you couldn’t hide from each other when your bodies were fused. When you came together and came apart. There were something there. Something important. To me, at least.”

“I’d known back then that those times were precious and fleeting. It’s what they warned all moms. I just hadn’t realized that when she outgrew that need, she’d also move completely out of arm’s reach. That when she stopped wanting it—stopped needing it—that was the time when I would miss it the most.”

“The collective consensus was that it would be better if we all moved on. That the funeral had been the period on the end of that sentence. That it was our responsibility - to the community, to the world, to ourselves - to be okay now. To I just get over it.”

After the funeral, it was as if my father had never existed. No one spoke about him. We never saw that college friend of his again. We didn’t get stopped on the street anymore. We just got those sad, poor-you looks as ppl hurried away from us as if grief were contagious. As if mentioning my father would kill him all over again.”

“I resented him. Resented anyone who thought they knew what it meant to lose my dad.”

“Years of being with him - being loved like that - had taught me that what mattered was how someone made you feel. That stopping to entertain your own insecurities in the face of desire like this was a waste of time.”

Gabe: She’s very good [at cooking]. Bakes too.
Ben: I can’t do either. However, I have been told that I’m quite an accomplished eater.

“He made it sound filthy. I didn’t mind at all.” 🌶️