Sue Klebold > Quotes

“The ultimate message of this book is terrifying: you may not know your own children, and, worse yet, your children may be unknowable to you. The stranger you fear may be your own son or daughter.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“We teach our kids the importance of good dental care, proper nutrition, and financial responsibility. How many of us teach our children to monitor their own brain health, or know how to do it ourselves?”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart,” Rainer Maria Rilke writes in his fourth letter to a young poet. “Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“A suicidal person is someone who is unable to tolerate their suffering any longer. Even if she does not really want to die, she knows death will end that suffering once and for all.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“Asking “why” only makes us feel hopeless. Asking “how” points the way forward, and shows us what we must do.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“life is full of suffering, and this is mine. I know it would have been better for the world if Dylan had never been born. But I believe it would not have been better for me.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“Asking 'why' only makes us feel hopeless. Asking 'how' points the way forward, and shows us what we must do”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“As a mother, this was the most difficult prayer I had ever spoken in the silence of my thoughts, but in that instant I knew the greatest mercy I could pray for was not my son’s safety, but for his death.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“I failed to understand as a parent until it was too late: that anyone can be suffering and in need of expert care, regardless of how they act, what they say, or who they are. Those who are suffering can appear for all the world to be doing well, their private pain masked by accomplishments and triumphs.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“It’s widely acknowledged among those who grieve that the second year is often worse than the first. The first year, you’re trying to adjust to the newness of the suffering, and to get through the days. It’s during the second year that you realize you’ve lost sight of the shoreline. There’s nothing but emptiness ahead and behind, a vast loneliness stretching out as far as you can see. This, you realize, is permanent. There will be no turning back.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“Even after more than ten years as a suicide prevention activist, I still find those numbers—and the general public’s ignorance about them—staggering. I taught Dylan, as I had taught his brother before him, to protect himself from lightning strikes, snakebites, and hypothermia. I taught him to floss, to wear sunscreen, and the importance of checking his blind spot twice. As he became a teenager, I talked as openly as I could about the dangers of drinking and drug use, and I educated him about safe and ethical sexual behavior. It never crossed my mind that the gravest danger Dylan faced would not come from an external source at all, but from within himself. In”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“Some parents damage their children, but that does not mean that all troubled children have incompetent parents. In”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“When it comes to brain health issues, many of our children are as vulnerable today as children a hundred years ago were to infectious diseases. Far”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“The list of things I would have done differently if I had known more is long. Those are my failures. But what I have learned implies the need for a broader call to action, a comprehensive overview of what should be in place to stop not only tragedies like the one committed by my son but the hidden suffering of any child.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“A faraway look—I have heard suicidologist Thomas Joiner refer to it as “the thousand-yard stare”—is a warning sign for imminent suicide, and one often missed.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“commonly, though, a disturbed teenager will be unpleasant: aggressive, belligerent, obnoxious, irritable, hostile, lazy, whiny, untrustworthy, sometimes with poor personal hygiene. But the fact that they’re so difficult, so dedicated to pushing us away, does not mean they do not need help. In fact, these traits may be signals that they do.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“A 2001 study of adolescent school shooters, prompted in part by the massacre at Columbine High School, resulted in two interesting findings. The first is that 25 percent of the thirty-four teenage shooters they looked at participated in pairs. This is different from adult rampage killers, who most often act alone. Dr. Reid Meloy, a forensic psychologist and expert on targeted violence and threat assessment, authored the study. He told me that these deadly dyads mean it’s absolutely critical for parents to pay attention to the dynamics between kids and their friends. The second finding from his study: typically, one of the two kids was a psychopath, and the other one suggestible, dependent, and depressed.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“Second, and far more powerfully, we want to believe that parents create criminals because in supposing that, we reassure ourselves that in our own house, where we are not doing such wrong things, we do not risk this calamity. I”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“I would ask him to forgive me, for being his mother and never knowing what was going on inside his head, for not being able to help him, for not being the person that he could confide in.” When”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“Suicide is ugly. It’s wreathed in disgrace. It screams to the world that a person’s life ended in failure. Most people don’t even want to hear about it. As a culture, we believe that people who die by suicide are weak, that they lack willpower, that they’ve taken “the coward’s way out.” We believe that they are selfish, and have acted aggressively. If they cared about their families/spouses/work, they would have found a way to think themselves out of the spiral they were in.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“The sad, scary truth is we never know when we (or someone we love) may experience a serious brain health crisis”
― Sue Klebold

“In the aftermath of Columbine, the world’s judgment was understandably swift: Dylan was a monster. But that conclusion was also misleading, because it tied up too neatly a far more confounding reality. Like all mythologies, this belief that Dylan was a monster served a deeper purpose: people needed to believe they would recognize evil in their midst. Monsters are unmistakable; you would know a monster if you saw one, wouldn’t you? If Dylan was a fiend whose heedless parents had permitted their disturbed, raging teen to amass a weapons cache right under their noses, then the tragedy—horrible as it was—had no relevance to ordinary moms and dads in their own living rooms, their own children tucked snugly into soft beds upstairs. The”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“One card read simply, “ God Bless Your Family,” in the painstaking and shaky handwriting of a very elderly person, and I marveled at the enormous and possibly painful effort a stranger across the country had made—to get the card and the stamp, to write the note, to mail it—just so I would not feel so alone. These were people with an emotional bandwidth, a depth and breadth of understanding, that had come from pain in their own lives.”
― Sue Klebold

“It can be hard to differentiate between someone who is genuinely getting out of a cycle of depression, and someone who feels relief because they know they’re going to die.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“Indeed, I would not achieve the integration I sought until I found two nutrients essential to so many survivors. First, I found community and then I found a way to contribute.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“perhaps, but”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“On many days, dying seemed easier than living. All three of us talked about death, ashes, epitaphs, the meaning of life. Tom said he knew what his last words would be: “Thank God it’s over.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“A resigned Dylan tried to comfort a horrified newcomer to the group: “You get used to it. It happens all the time.” It”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“The symptoms of intense grief—memory loss, attention deficit, emotional fragility, incapacitating fatigue—are surprisingly similar to those resulting from traumatic brain injury.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

“I’ve learned two important things. One, that there are many good, kind people out there. And two, there are many people who have suffered greatly and who keep going with strength and courage. These are the ones who can eventually support others. I hope I can be of use to someone some day.”
― Sue Klebold, A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy