Kristen Mae > Quotes

“...but each time my phone buzzed with a text from her my shrieking heart catapulted itself out of my body, leaving behind a gory trail of blood as it sprinted down the hallway and out the front door.”
― Kristen Mae, Beyond the Break

“...the fat permanent marker squeaking as it released the scent of organizastion...”
― Kristen Mae, Beyond the Break

“You don’t have control” she spat. “Iris doesn’t have control. No one does. Control is an illusion. Terrible things happen with no reason at all. Terrible, ugly, fucked-up things like rape and death and loss, and there is no power, no control. There’s just the big, mean universe scraping your insides out and tossing them in the trash and there’s not a goddamn thing you can do about it”
― Kristen Mae, Beyond the Break

“What will happen if I go to the door? Will you kiss me? Touch me? Where? Would you be slow and gentle, or rough, insistent? Maybe we’d just talk. Maybe this is a joke you’re playing on me. Maybe my inauthenticity disgusts you.”
― Kristen Mae, Soft: A Short Story

“I lifted the hem of my shorts and set the blade against the skin of my outer thigh, and, though my pulse roared in my temples, though my insides were coiled up in a tight knot of desperation, my hand was steadier than if I’d been drawing my bow across my violin. I pressed and pulled and breathed. The sting only lasted a second, and then there was something else - not relief or distraction or euphoria as I’d expected, but calm, spreading through my veins like a drug, dulling not just the pain of the cut, but all my other hurts, too”
― Kristen Mae, Beyond the Break